Maybe I am losing my mind!

 

It's a new day--- So far--no crying--- Maybe the tears have stopped--Maybe there are no more tears-- Lordy Be!!--- Losing a husband--my right hand  partner--is not fun!!

Anyway, his Death announcement was  in the North Shore Bulletin---and , now the "STANDARD Newspaper"-They put a very good picture of him  in there-----  I hope I do not cry  anymore as I read it---so so hard -----

To-day we have to go into Peterborough to "Service Canada"--So much paperwork when a person passes--and--I still intend to return to Elliot Lake--to spend the rest of my life--  Elliot Lake is "HOME" to me--=- I cannot leave here until I have an apartment in Elliot Lake, ready to move into--(which means ANOTHER move--)--- but , Elliot Lake is my home-and I must return---

So---- If you know anyone whose partner has died, do not leave them alone---  because all they do is cry--Just spend some time with them--  tell them they WILL get thru this (I have not yet!)- Maybe bring them a few boxes of kleenex--(ha ha)---  maybe go for a walk with them---   Yesterday I went to a 2nd hand store---and you know, one of the pictures Son#2 had taken over to them, --- well, I bought it back--  like-- "I BOUGHT MY OWN PICTURE"--- It was of Charlotte, our  old dog---- Can you believe that??--  I guess people  who have lost their partner, well it seems these people have sorta lost a bit of their mind----Oh well--Hopefully, life will resume  one day, maybe when the tears stop!

Strength----a short blog

It is noon-ish-- I had to go out this AM--so, am posting now--later than late--but--I sure am thinking of you-- Two very nice ladies came here and took me round the town--We stopped in at a  nice 2nd hand store---  I bought a picture---$10 --  a picture which used to sit in the rec room--a picture that got left in the house in Elliot--Of course it is a picture of a dog ---  and this dog looks so much like one of the first dogs we ever had--Her name was Charlotte--

It is warm here --over 70 degrees --sunny also-----So Spring has arrived!--I meant lots  people who still have no power--so, we are very lucky--At least we have heat and lights!

I need to find strength---  I shall try to have "power" over my mind---because I need to find the srength to carry on--Lord love a Duck!--I really just want to sit and cry--When does that go??----I MUST FIND THE POWER OVER MY MIND_--- 

--- Lets help each other--- to get our lives back on track-- Lordy be!!!

-a short blog--- but---- so far --No MORE TEARS--

 

Get out there and live this Day!

 

Good Morning-- WE HAVE HEAT!!!    And--THE POWER IS ON---It came on yesterday , at supper time--Whatta difference!  I did not have to sleep in bed with all my clothes on--

                                                    There is a lot of damage everywhere--

I cannot seem to enlarge the above pictures but if you look closely you can see broken limbs--

I still have to walk Lopez --all the walking trails are covered with tree limbs  so I'll stick to the road--

I turned on the news this AM., and I hear we 're in for more bad weather--rainy wet snow showers--- As long as we do not lose power I will be OK---

I continue to look for Fred--- feel at times that he is just "out" and will be back--or, I come home , and think he is in the house here--- -Strange!  --I wonder when one gets over that---

Me---- on Son #2 deck--with is dog, Gerrard--and Lopez--our wee fella--

So, How are you all?--= How is the weather in your area??--It will be nice when it warms up a lot--

Are you abe to "Keep your chin up?-""  as Dad used to say--I mean, if I can get thru all this, I think everyone can----No matter what is going on in your life,  (or my life) --we can get thru it----  It might not be easy, but---- in time, each hour gets better----and, if you see anyone without a smile. give them yours--

Remember---"Impossible" means "I'm possible,"

and---

WE ARE A PART OF THIS DAY___

I'm BACK----- Ice storm--Trees down - no Power--but--I AM BACK--

We have had a terrible ice storm here---no power---so-- I could not blog--but--The Power JUST came on--FINALLY--  FINAL:LY--WE Have HEAT__and I shall blog this evening--to-morrow--AND forever--

                                            Holy Cow--I sure missed you all-- Lynda
 

Live for what today has to offer--

Good day---another day--to get things right-- NO MORE CRYING_---NO MORE FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF!   Lord love a Duck!  There just cannot be any more tears--

So, you read the obituary-???  -written by the kids--  many changes made, ----The kids  finally felt it described their Dad---His  grown children were very proud of their Dad--as he was , of them--

You know, we had  Son#1 , and Fred said-"OK, We have our child"---then, Son#2 came along, and again he told me, "OK--- that is enough children"--but, then a little baby girl appeared , and Fred  was ecstatically happy , but, I knew 3 children was enough----  so- we moved from Ottawa to Elliot Lake, and along came Phillip---born at St Joseph's  Hospital----but   ----  then---  Tim appeared--looking exactly like Fred--

-And you know, Fred absolutely adored all these children---accepted Timmy , proudly---AND--these were the children, who were by his side, holding his hands--helping him to breathe , talking to him, telling them it was OK to go to Heaven--that we would take care of each other, that--We would miss him, but we could live our lives like he would want-us to--

-Hard to send  him to Heaven, but we al reassured him that he would never be forgotten--that he was special-- because,  he was their Dad--and they loved him to the moon and even back--

This is the man who said, "Are you crazy?" to me , when I told him that we had put  an order on his chart , to  do what is necessary to keep him alive.   

"Now why would anyone ,  ever , want to do that to a 96 yr old man?"---he asked me.-

Life is so precious------ Hug those near you---They are "special"----They are a part of your life---  Tell them how much you love them--- and try to live  each moment  of everyday--

                                                                            I shall try---

 

Good morning--

 

        

                                                                            Good Morning--

--dark here still--- I think it s cold---We are expecting an ice storm-- coming in this evening-- I think---Winter is hanging on---It is our daughter's Birthday to-day-our only girl--with 4 boys--Because of the ice storm, we are not sure how -we will celebrate  the daughter's birthday yet--

Little Lopez just got up--Oh-  I now have an Opthamologist calling me in the next 2 weeks-- in Peterborough--Now I just need a Doctor--- It is a  real waiting game--

https://hendrenfuneralhome.com/tribute/details/6273/Frederick-Young/obituary.html

 

HE ABOVE IS  MY HUSBANDS ANNOUNCEMENT IN THE TORONTO STAR--HIS FAVOURITE NEWSPAPER

If you highlight it, will it open??--  

Keep Calm and believe in yourself!

Good day ----a brand new day--and I am blogging--

Yesterday was a complete write off--and I am sorry-- AND----  (now this sounds bad)--I was walking Lopez and some poor older man was coming out of the Fire station near here---and I stopped to ask directions--AND--- in all my tears--I told him all my sad storry--AND_-THE POOR MAN LISTENED - UNBELIEVABLE!

It was one of those "sob story days---or "Daze"---

BUT ----  There is good news --To-day IS another day and so far, no tears---

We were over to our daughters B and B--last night--had supper over there--

Here we were with all our dogs---

We were eating Chinese food--as we remembered happy times with   Fred, and HIS LOVE of Chinese foods--

Lopez and I-=-

So it is a "hair"   day  to-day , with groceries--- AND___  an ice storm to-morrow, here-----  Oh--I want to tell you, ---the Robins are back---  I see them hopping all over. Isn't it nice to know that most things stay the same in this world?----

So--- I shall  try to put an effort into not feeling so sorry for myself--Life can be good---even when the man yu married has to go to Heaven---Maybe there is a reasson that he went first--Maybe he left me here for a reason--  to keep this family together---Who knows eh??--

But---- As Dad used to tell me,  " Keep your chin up"---It's a brand new day, and we are a part of it"

AND__