UFSO'S dropping off their nut jobs--

 -I survived another bad  day-- Praise be to God---and to my friends --and my son--because, they helped me thru yesterday--Yesterday was not my best day--in fact , it was probably my very worst day --in my whole life-

-Why does this have to happen?---Why can I NOT accept that I am now alone--no partner , to help me deal with "life"--My partner did all he could ---We were a team, facing the world--raising 5 wonderful people, and together, we enjoyed life, loved the pets---the children's stages and problems they faced, as they themselves faced life's challenges-- We loved each other---loved the kids  and  were so proud to help them face life---  "What to do with their lives?---"-----"What school to attend?"---"Who should they marry?"---and, "Were they doing the right thing , at the proper time?--"---  Lordy Be---  We loved these children------We loved each other--We  respected each other--We trusted each other--

And now, it is up to me, to carry on---alone---  and yes, I find it so difficult--Do I have any choice?--No----My partner--my best friend-----is not  physically  with me anymore----and I do feel like a fish out of water--flopping around, trying to to live a funny kind of life---alone--  

Other people have gotten thru this--I hope I can----but, in the meantime, I feel that I still need some kind of something--  son#2 says I must get "Amazon Prime"--on the TV--  watch a series --get interested -in that----so----I will do that--anything to stop the tears--

                                Lord love a Duck eh! ----  When do the tears ever stop????

                        So---  life must go on--I certainly do not want to be known as the"nut Job'---

                                     "being alive' is really a privilege"-----not given to everyone , ---

--UFO's dropping off their "NUT JOBS"-------a good reason to watch that "AMAZON PRIME!"---HMMMmmmm

Where did the time go???

 GOOD morning  YOU!  Yes--GET THAT LOVE INTO YOUR HEART! --It is September 16th--- and here we are! We are a part of this day----this world!----I just got up here---  I am dressed--I must feed Sushi---Are you feeling the love this morning???

                                    Could this be your day to go Feathers, Fluff, sand Fancy??--Well, ya never know eh?--  Right now I m in track pants and t-shirt--It seems to be my "norm"--these days--partly because Amazon ships the outfit right to my door--it might be nice to get out the Feathers-

                                Right now, I must get  the wee Lopez out--  in his jacket---we have sunshine--cool-ish out there tho--I did groceries yesterday--When going thru the cash, 2 very tiny white hair-ed ladies were standing waiting to talk to me--When I approached them, they said, "You moved back didn't you?"- I reassured them, that, "YES" I had moved back to Elliot here"--They nodded and told me that they were so happy I was now living here in Elliot Lake--They then told me they went to  my husband --He was their DR--I was happy for them--because they were so happy to see me--nice people here in Elliot Lake--

                --and here is the "real" Elliot Lake--LOL---  with a sandy beach--AND clean water---AND--hills in the distance--LOL--

Miss Sushi is doing well, by the way--She seems to live upstairs however--comes down here  in the night --I ran into one night in the kitchen--prowling around--She is a good cat--  Remember, I found her-a kitten-??---was "wild'--and lived under our bed (on Fred's side!)-for at least 6 mos----- and because she would not come out from under the bed, the litter box had to stay on Fred's side also------AND HE NEVER COMPLAINED!------  Fred really was an amazing man!

                                                    

 Fred was truly an amazing man!

        and---- now we are --"OLD"---

    Where on earth has the time gone--eh??

Of course I do live in the past now--Does everyone who has lost their partner??  Hmm----I wonder!

So, a new day--  I shall try to get  out of the past--live each day--- meet new people---and experience new adventures--It is a "must" -----Maybe if I really did get out the "feathers" etc, life might become interesting--Hmmmmm--Something we should think about--

Just don't be Weird!

Good Morning--It was kinda a crazy night--The TV went out--  A friend called and told me that a train had run over a cable , near here, so our TV stopped--And later on, I could hear talking in the living room--knew it was the TV , so came down to turn the volume down- Living away from  big time civilization,  causes all sorts of weird things to happen, I guess--All seems well this AM--

It was very warm  outside, yesterday--just like a summer day---and to-day is beginning the same--  and another odd thing that is happening here, is--the hummingbirds are still here--  very odd! They usually are packing up , and leaving this area  by the end of August--certainly by the end of September--But it has been a warm "fall"--  and I trust them to know what they are doing--

Gil, the gardener guy, was here yesterday to clean up the garden by the back fence--so, next Spring I can plant flowers where the weeds and tree roots were. and it was very hot in the yard where he was working--He also hung a new vacuum on te wall for me--a cheap version of the Dyson--  I bought it from Amazon and it seems very easy to use--I like it!--I just might give some of these away as Xmas gifts--I believe it ios made by "SHARP"!

                        so, I hope that you are  feeling happy to-day--ready to face the world--

---------after all, we do have the FREEDOM TO CHOOSE What WE Want To Do--the true luxuries in Life--which are, TIME, SLOW MORNINGS,  and, the FREEDOM TO CHOOSE WHAT WE WANT TO DO---

                                                         I hope that your day is the best ever-- 

 

Any ideas on coping ?---

 Good morning--  Hopefully to-day will be great-- (Well, One has to hope eh?)-Yesterday my day fell apart-early  in the morning, and I never got back on here--I hate that happening-

-The vacuum stopped working--  There was no "Himself " here to get it going---I ordered a new one--  a cheaper version of the one I had--then I could not get that one to work--took it to my daughter in law--who put it together in a flash- Bless her heart--Now I cannot get that one to turn on--I have my "workman" coming later in this AM to see what on earth I did wrong---I hate all that happening--Himself used to read the instructions, and put tings together, in a flash--Ask me if I miss him eh??--

I drove out to Son#1 last evening, wandering why on earth I wanted to go out there---  (I needed t talk to someone I guess)- They had gone out of town, but when I arrived at their house, Son #1 was there-----He made my day--told me to come in--He and his daughter were watching a hawk, high up over the lake, dive bombing a Canadian goose which cold not fly out of the water--must've been hurt by the hawk earlier--Those hawks, with the talons on their feet are  so strong--  He kept attacking the poor goose which could not get out of the water--(I suppose that is "life  eh---  animals preying on their food source)

When one lives alone, it helps so much to get ourself out of the house, and meet with people-----just to feel that other people care about you--I did go to that grief counsellor but I had the wrong day , so she made another appointment for next week--I really do need some pointers on how to cope with the world when one lives alone--  Do any of you have ideas?--I sure would love to hear them!

But, it is a brand new day--AND here we are, a part of it--  I must get Lopez out for his walk here--  It seems cool--but, yesterday it warmed up a lot--Hopefully to-day it will also!--So remember---

Hopefully your day ill be fabulous--  Send me any ideas that might cross yer mind, on how to deal with "old age" when  one lives alone--  other than, "GET OUT OF THE HOUSE" and 

"GO FOR A WALK"-------  I do need to hear from you--n We might be "GRAND mothers---  but--- we still are GREAT-----

Good Morning to all!

 It seems hard to wake up to-day--maybe b in here--because it feels cool in here-- I turned on the "fire"--Last night , we slept with no heat  to, and it was fine.  So, how are you feeling this "fall" morning?

Was it a good day yesterday?- I went out to Son#1's  house--brought Chinese food out there  so his wife did not have to cook----I think they are away to-day.--

Yesterday I went  for a visit with a Grief counsellor--I had the wrong day--Trust me to do that eh?--So, that appointment has been rescheduled for next  week--AND I HOPE I REMEMBER TO GO--AND ON THE RIGHT DAY!

Right now I must get Lopez out--I hear next wel will be unusually warm--nice!-So, I shall get back on here   sooner that you can say "Johnny Robinson"--Meanwhile---  little Lopez will keep an eye on yu!

I Wish Pets Lived Longer----

 

Good morning--  cool out there this AM.--Lopez and I have walked--AND_-HE DID HIS BUSINESS!   Whatta good little boy eh?---- But last night he  must've been tired--very difficult to deal with----snarky---  would've bitten me for sure--I could not get him upstairs--I finally left him in the living room, hoping he would follow me up--which he didn't-

Lordy be , Chihuahuas are not an easy pet to keep--  One has to REALLY LIKE them -also, have tons of patience with them so not to get bitten. He finally went onto his crate down here--on the main floor--and I knew then his  attitude had changed--I do not know whether it was my Himself and his cane ---was that the  beginning of Lopez attitude ---or is it justa Chihuahua thing??--I do not believe that "giving him away" would not help the situation--probably would make it worse--

Anyway---the first picture in this blog, is what the trees look like now--in the North----It is FALL--=  and ever so pretty--                                    

                                                                This was out at Dunlop Lake

To-day I am to visit a grief counsellor--  soon too--- I really hope it helps me--and I know it will-

-and I think it is me----

So--are you having a good day so far--It is early here--but, I feel  in my bones, that it will be a good day--

I hope that you make it a great day--

Doncha jess wish that pets lived longer??? I wonder why the good Lord made them pass so soon?--He must've needed them in Heaven--Do you think??--Maybe he knew that WE had to stay on this earth longer, just to get everything right--Well, ya never know eh??--

HAVA GREAT DAY --ALL OF YOU!

Time, Slow mornings, and the Freedom to Choose----

 As you must know, it has been busy here--The business began  yesterday, with the 2 cleaning Ladies--who moved stuff-----did a great job cleaning--'specially the bathrooms--but--  it made me very busy =--trying to  declutter--but, here I am--back--cut the cat's nails early this AM--so , my arms are all scratched-, up to my elbows--Sushi , the cat has a lot of "wild" still in her--does not like her nails trimmed--

So, in all the mix up , with "cleaners" , yesterday, I never turned on the computer--I will check comments when I get thru here-I missed you all--Do you think I will ever get unpacked, completely??--  It all seems like a hopeless mess at this point??--

Last evening, son#1,  had me there , at his house, for supper--It was delightful!--When you live alone, and eat alone, one doesn't really eat well---In fact, when I eat alone, I have no appetite--I look at my plate , and then , usually, pick the plateful of food up, and dump it in the garbage--Isn't that so wasteful?--And yet, last night at Son#1's , I ate everything--and--yes, of course, I do live in the past still, but--I really am trying --trying hard to live in the present--

 I am going to try to join things--like the Hospital  Ladies Auxillary--or--something to get me out of the house------dunno what that will be yet-----or some sort of club----I used to be able to leave the dogs with Himself--cannot do that anymore--I guess I will figure it out--

                                So, for now, until I read your comments, this will be "it" for to-day--

                                                

                                            ----the freedom to choose what you want to do--

                Remember when we couldn't do that , as we were weighted down with kids--or chores--??? 

                                Just think---  now we can choose what we want to do--

                                                    Lord love a duck! It is a luxury!