I need a world that makes sense again!

It is Saturday, February the 28th-- and I am blogging--  and where was I yesterday, you might be saying?--Well, I was in the "depths of despair--"---and now you might be saying--  "Well, why?  What happened that you could not blog?"------because my Doctor--my new Doctor, told me that I could not refuse to take his memory test--which I did---"I refused to take the memory test"----  so, he said, "Well, if you do not take my memory test, I will take away your licence to drive"--So, I immediately had a heart attack---  and died --Well, that  heart attack stuff really didn't happen, but--it could have--After all the trouble to get here--to  stay alive after Fred died--to move--again--then again-and even AGAIN_--  then move into a tiny house--"ALONE"--so--I was in the "depths of despair"---and if I tried to write it all into a "Depths of Despair Blog"--then all of you would be in that same state-so, I tried to just survive  the day yesterday--knowing that "tomorrow"--which is now to-day-well, things might be better--And  are they?---  well, sorta--because I am with you all--

      

#1. He who looks behind will never get ahead . (a few words of wisdom here)

#2. Be Humble.

#3.You cannot always have things exactly as you wish.

and there are always my children-who depend on me to keep going

                        Above--Son#2 the Pilot with Hannah, his daughter

        One Thanksgiving dinner-Fred , Hannah and her friend

My Dad's sister--(Aunt Enid) holding my sister, Mary Beth and my oldest brother Marvin standing beside them---(a VERY old picture)

So, I guess , the moral of this horrible story is, if you are told to take a memory test-- just do it--It saves a ton of tears--because there was no blog---as my world fell apart--and--  You know--I do enjoy talking to you all--My phone number is ---( well, just ask me)-- just in case you need to get the "low-down"--

Enjoy what you have to do!

 It is February 26th--no sun--looking like it may snow (Ohhhhh  No!!) I am up--the washer is chugging away--My pills have been sorted out--They arrive in a "pill pack"--which seems to tear apart and I spend a great deal of time crawling around on the kitchen floor trying to retrieve them before Lopez gets to them--I do not like these pill packs , which I have to pay for--and are made of paper-(Why not just give me a bottle of whatever?)---To-day I shall ask Dr. Amir why I have to have the pill pack--why not just the bottles of whatever--and I will sort them all out. 

Anyway, do you feel beautiful to-day??--I hope so! My appointment with the Dr is at 10-20am--I might feel beautiful by then--hope so----I will try anything once----and I try to remember to adapt--not perish--I shall ask the Dr for advice on these pill packs--Do any of you use them?

So, I shall return--- In the meantime, some Blasts from the past--

Emma in the Swim Club

Emma as a baby , with her Dad
Below--an older Emma

I must move the wash to the dryer--and get on with the day here-- Are you feeling strong??-----remember--a big head means a big headache.-- Remember also, to ask for what you want.--and, do not quit trying, in trying times!-- and remember, that,  your head must take your heart into consideration  when making decisions----

I shall return---  in the meantime, keep the home fires burning, and-enjoy what you have to do!

                                        

We are ALL works in Progress....

 Good Day--It is Wednesday, February 25--It snowed all night--3 more ft. of snow all over the place--plus on the car--I did some shovelling last night , before bed, and called the 2 "shovel boys" this AM who did a fantastic job on the driveway and the dog yard--Now if the snow would only stop falling--Wishful thinking!---more good news is-- we are almost into March--and hopefully the snow will stop falling.

Are you happy??--or---  Are you feeling anxious?----It would help  if  we could see green grass--  birds--Hummingbirds--Robins--and feel warmth from the sun.

Remember, the happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.--and don't bother closing the barn door after the horse has run out-- and, you can feel younger longer than you are young--There is even something good about bad luck : it can change.

Blasts from the Past--below---the Pilot, with his friend, another Pilot--

and below-our daughter with Sophia and her husband-

below--  Dr Fred and me--one Halloween-Fred was Mr "T"--remember him?--

   

Sushi is sitting beside me -=-Lopez needs to get to the local vet--

--That should be interesting- I think his shots need to be brought up to date--If you remember, I found Sushi, the cat, long ago,--Her  Mom and brother had been killed and she was left to forge for food--was eating bird seed at out bird  feeder--and was quite wild--lived under Fred's side of our bed for about 4 months--was

Feral---took almost a year to  get the "wild" out of her--Now she sleeps on my bed every night--

So---  I hope that your day goes well--that you are happy--AND STRONG--We must feel strong--that we CAN do whatever needs to be done--

Remember---

e sun--

The voice of every girl can change the world.

                                        the sun is rising--

It is Tuesday, February 24th-- seems cold, even in my tiny house- I have the fire on --turned it up-Lopez and I are down in the living room.

Our TV and Internet has been "down"--horrible-- but it is sort of working  right now, so I can type as fast as I can (while it is working) and explain the situation . So, I may have to finish this later, but I shall try --Below---  Son# with Emma his Daughter-who is now in her 2nd yr University-----

        and below--son#1 with Hannah , helping him at work--

Below, me-with my Mom and Dad--in Florida

I shall have to take a chance and pray that the internet stays up--and if it does, I have so much to tell you--so-I shall return--

#1.Keep your fingers crossed--#2.Work with what you have--#3.Children learn more when learning is fun.-

Hopefully I shall return sooner than later--and the internet will be up and running --To-morrow I must go to the City Office and have Fred and I --our name etc--put on a plaque on a WALL in the graveyard--lots to do when people "pass"--

                               Remember to be strong--

"Aging is the only way to live a long life."

Good Morning--It is Monday, February the 23rd-- dark outside--cold too--It was hard to get up this AM---  but here we are--another day to be  happy--another day to be strong--and best of all, 5 more days and it will be MARCH__maybe warmer too with not as much snow-- if we are lucky!-- The wash machine is chugging away--Lopez is up--well, asleep on the leather chair, which he thinks is his bed. 

                        So, I shall return--give me an hour--

So, I have returned--tried to walk Lopez but it was so cold, I had to turn around and bring him back home. Poor wee fellow--and my cleaning Lady has decided to not come to-day---  It seems like it is kinda "hit and miss" with her--Lordy Be!!Anyway, I hope that your day is going well. Are you caught in that snow storm hitting the US.?-----It looks pretty bad! --No snow falling here ---but it does look bad in the U.S.-

oh Lordy--A crank call just came thru here also--I hate those calls--I put him thru to  my one son who is a Police officer--

So--remember--#1. Kids need more hugs than they need things--

                           #2.--Save money 

                           #3.He who sows courtesy, reaps friendship

                        and Blasts from the past----Below--

  Allison with Sophia who now will be attending Kent State University in September--

                                Below--Sophia -again --

                            Below--Remember there days???

so--  life is good----no cleaner coming to-day--had to tell her that it is important to me to come here on a regular basis--

So---  make sure that you do not fall for all the crank calls-- Good thing to have a son as a Police officer--seems everyone is out to "get us" doesn't it? -----  kinda drives one crazy! 

Remember--

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Two Chihuahuas do not get along!

 This is Sunday, February 22nd--dark--kinda cold--light snow overnight--Lola goes home today---Huge dog fight last evening--Lopez and Lola--  Just what I needed  eh?--  It started over their supper--I guess I put their bowls of food down too close together, and  right at my feet, a huge dog fight began and as I put my arm down to separate the 2 dogs, the fight got even worse-- screeching dogs--and me---  like 2 Chihuahuas screeching and out to kill-- and my arm in the middle trying to  separate them--Lord love a Duck!--I did manage to grab Lola--then Lopez by his sweater-- no bites to me, but both dogs walked away licking various parts of their legs and feet--  

Needless to say, I learned that you never feed 2 Chihuahuas beside each other--no bites to me--  but the whole episode did scare the daylights out of me--Below--Lola with a sore leg--

Lopez--

I shall return--have to meet Dave for breakfast-- The wash machine is chugging away-

A few words of wisdom--

#1. People make the town

                            #2.Keep your chin up.  (My Dad said that!)

        #3.Never give up on anybody!

Below--"Big Beau"---in---

"Blasts from the past"

and "Andie" -Son #4's daughter--below

and baby Andie , now in high school, and her Mom

I hope that your day is going well--No dog fights--Remember--You snooze--you lose--and invest heavily in yourself--and move forward, not backward-----listen to your feelings but do not think small.

 

Let's get out and Decorated our own soul!

"Whatever Lola wants---Lola gets--I hope!"

 It is Saturday, February 21st-cold---  dark---getting light outside - I am dog sitting, Lola, Son #3's pooch (dog)----  They are due to return to-day--and poor Lola will be ever so happy to see them.---  She misses them so much! They are driving their 2 daughters to their respective Universities--should return to-day sometime--and, Lola, was left with Gramma (who is me!)-and she has cried ever since they left--Below is Lola-

            but-When life becomes unbearable, as it has in Lola's life right now, -Lola likes to cover herself up, in her bed--as you see below-and not face the world---and she will not come upstairs where the rest of us sleep--so, I hear her crying , down in the living room--ALL  night--  poor wee girl--so, last night I came down and slept beside her, me on the sofa--and her in her bed--

as yu can see--below---She is completely covered up to the world and her sadness , as she misses her Mom and Dad--

So, I guess if you are a dog, and miss your Mom and Dad, you just bury yourself  away and hope for the best--SO_-----I slept on the sofa beside her, and encouraged her to stop her weeping and wailing-- The good news is--They are returning to-day-- Praise be to God!

So, that is why, No BLOG--- yesterday--and not much of one even to-day--Lord love a Duck!--  "LOLA" is the reason--Poor little girl! 

But--  Maybe Lola has a good idea --When things in your life--or in the world, are too much to bear, just bury yourself under the covers till life gets better--

Her parents are to return to-day--

So--no wash is in the wash machine yet--In fact, nothing is done --but-Lola's parents are due to return and life will return to normal here soon--

I miss you all--but--  now you know things will return to normal to-day--