The begInning of a new day-

 The last day of  September----- hard to believe-- Our beautiful summer has almost come to an end-- but (THAT big "BUTT")---   October can be nice---We shall savour the warmer days  for sure , because November can be "iffy"--

Both dogs have been out but--- but ---  "oh woe is me!"----no business was done--which means another walk later on--Mom just yelled in my head, "If at first you don't succeed, try, try again"--

Life IS amazing---Do we ever stop and contemplate that?---It seems like only yesterday, I was living at home, with my Mom and Dad, spending the summers at Port Stanley, Ontario, swimming in Lake Erie, walking to the main Beach and  going out onto the Pier-- watching TV on our little black and white TV--- with popcorn popping in the kitchen---  and now-----here I am----a million years older----

Just stop, and  think --  How amazing life is-----

Be happy with simple pleasures and have courage when things seem to go wrong--  but--maybe things -are not going wrong--maybe, life is passing the way it is supposed to--who knows eh?--

To-day I must get to town and buy new phones for the house--We have had these house phones  for ever, and they are  not holding their charge--It kinda drives one crazy!-- It rings--you pick it up, and the phone stops--I have no idea how to hook them up, but it can't be that difficult, can it? --To-day, many people do not have a house phone--Phone directories are not distributed anymore---  The telephone operator, who used to know "everything", seems to not know anything anymore. ---  life is full of changes isn't it?

To-day might just be a good day  to sit --and sip-- and forget the world a little bit--and ignore the things I have to do, and--- just enjoy a cup or two---What do you think?

I hope you get time to just be "you"---  to thank the good Lord for what we have--to remember that in the end, everything does work out----be strong----

 

Bless all of you!

-I am here--  just dropped Himself at Daycare----in town-I shall meet him there for lunch at 12 noon --

I'm telling you, I am impressed-----so many of you wrote in ---  to my very sad blog--- a couple days ago--Thank you for holding me up--again!---I know that I am not the only person in the world  caring for another soul, whose mind is different--  It comes with age--- people who care for other people, need a support system---  You all really came through--Thank you is not enough--

-   tears---so many tears---loneliness----trying to hold life together---and even shame ----  lack of understanding--feeling worthless because you are told you are worthless--everyday, by a person yu love, and you know that  person is not aware of what is going on--does not understand   --cannot hear properly--is afraid of dying--oh--I could just keep going on and on---and so many of us cannot talk about it--cannot understand it-- -- The  "Why Me?"--syndrome--

It is harder and you feel more shame, if your own family members do not understand what is happening-- why you have trouble dealing with their Dad--? Why don't you go to meetings about all this--so you can learn more about it-?---  Do they not realize that you cannot leave their Dad?------

And I know I am not alone in all this  (I want to say--in tnis "mess")-- but, it really is chaos--

But-(that big "butt" again!)----  you let me know that you all care--that there are more of you trying to make life easier for  someone in the exact boat--Lord love a duck--Thank you -thank you ---thank you--(seems I need to say that 150 more times!)------ Thank you for being here-

Now, Lopez needs to get out--I need to vacuum-- (Well, Sadie is going to help)- and I am meeting my husband for lunch at 12 noon -- the man I married---Bless all your hearts  for helping me get out of "the depths of despair"

---------------------------- The girl on the right is "us"----  doncha think?----------------------

Some days are not easy-

 This is big beau--but--just look at the leaves! They are all so beautiful! --And these Fall days are warm-and sunny----  so nice!-

The painter has gone---I miss chatting with her--but--I do have big Beau and Lopez, who look at me as I speak to them.-- 

So, I have been told not to post anything on "Social Media ---well, it was said, not to make their Dad a "Monster"---I hope I didn't do that---  but--we shall not mention Himself anymore--at all----I do not know what I would ever do without my daily blog--- I do enjoy hearing from you all ever so much--

Lynda 

A Toast To All Of Us----

I want to look like her----  Look at her dress---Look at her figure----Well, a gal can dream eh?-----So----
Connie , the Painter has left--and I have the main level looking like we live here --no pictures up---which seems a bit weird-- but-----I must think about it--- the walls do look absolutely gorgeous-- and I did sneak a couple clocks up--

--'scuse the language-----but---  #2, above----is the best way to describe my life right now--like--"What kind of life is this anyway?-"

---Lord love a Duck!!--Himself was banished to a bedroom downstairs last night, as I could not take  all the thoughts --- about me--that was coming  my way---- It all went over like a "lead balloon"-----  I did end up calling his Doctor in the wee small hours of the morning, who promised me he would come out this morning--has not appeared yet--and what can he do anyway--

So, life goes on--

I added the above picture, as , if my sister ever did get over here, this is REALLY  how I would feel--I thought it was quite cute! ----My young sister now resides in Ontario----so, one day, we really will get together----

This is Wednesday--mid week--How is your week going?--Wednesday is such a good day, because you know it is getting closer to the weekend--again,--- the Fall Colours are  gorgeous--  the trees tho, are already dropping their leaves--and I can smell the leaves ---- so nice! 

--So all for to-day---one more level to vacuum- Sadie is here--

I am  going to----- TOAST  us all--all of us Beautiful Confused people who wake up and keep trying every Day----and, to the coffee that makes it all possible---Keep Your Chin up and keep going! 

--I love yu all

Another day to be strong!

 Good Day-----This was taken yesterday at Himself's Day Care----Himself--myself, and in the middle, and Maria--  When Himself, was a Doctor for this Lodge---  and Maria was working at the Lodge--so, when she heard that Himself was in at the Day Care program, she drove in to see him---That was so nice of her.

I am so so late posting--- It was the Paint Lady's last day--and she just left--and I was trying to organize the main level of this house, so we could live in it--I'll have to reorganize the other levels as the days roll on---Right now I have  many pictures and clocks stored in various bedrooms downstairs,  until I figure what to do with it all--Do I rehang the pictures or leave the freshly painted walls as is??----- Lots to think about--

Son#2 has been texting all morning--He is in Montreal---waiting to fly to London , England , this evening--Of course he found a Chinese Bakery, so took these pictures--wanted me go send them to yu--

-  teriyaki beef and curry beef sweet buns--some with hot dog-

Lopez is  crying---  There is never enough time in a day is there?------I hope that your day is going well-It is beautiful here-sunny and quite warm------Give someone a hug--tell them how much you care about them-----it will make their day special! 

AND----

---  Be STRONG!

another day in the PAINT World!

 It is a beautiful day AGAIN------The trees are red--yellow and orange---with the green in between--absolutely stunning----This is Algoma Country--famous for the red Maple trees in this area--It is a wonderful time to be alive--

Himself is at Daycare--- son#1 took him down for 9am------ Hopefully Son#3 can bring him home as the Paint  Lady will be here  still--She is finished  to-morrow--at least for now---  and, isn't Labour Day this coming weekend?---  --If so, it will be a Holiday Weekend-- a  long weekend-- you gotta love that! --NO-----  I JUST DISCOVERED  IT IS THANKSGIVING, EARLY OCTOBER--NOT LABOUR DAY__which is over--- I must have PAINT on the brain--

"-LIFE IS WAY TOO SHORT TO LEAVE THE KEY TO YOUR HAPPINESS IN SOMEONE ELSE"S POCKET"-----I need to remember this--that everyone has an opinion---and sometimes one needs to hear these ideas---but--then one must make a decision to do what works for her or his own life--Of course we all know this!

I have Sadie (who you know is really "ME"-) waiting in the sunroom, chomping at the bit to come in  and do her work---and Connie, that Paint Person , down in the kitchen , bringing our kitchen up to date with the present times----It has been a lot of work for me--to de-clutter as she works--but--it is happening--

Hopefully-your day has started out right--remember that you are special---that there is only "ONE" of you, in this whole world------ and--Loved more than you know----and Smarter than we ever believe--- Why do we not think this?--

It's just extra awesomeness!

 I shall be heading to the grocery shortly-- just changed the bed--The paint Lady is off to-day-- will be finishing up (for now) Tuesday night----The living room looks wonderful---  She painted the fireplace and the mirror above the fireplace ---  Of course there are no pictures up ---Do I even put the pictures up, or do I just put them away somewhere till whenever we move?--I have to think about all that--------Lotza time to decide---

Now isn't the wee fella above just the cutest?--- Do you remember your Mother calling you by your full name, mostly when she was angry or upset about something you did?-- I can remember Mom hollering, "Lynda Jean Wallace"----Did you do--something or other"-----and you knew you were  in trouble---  Should you run for the hills--or stay there and own up to whatever you broke--or ruined--or ate?--- cute eh?

Himself is in a very bad mood---- very grouchy ----  so----  I will have to calm him down , and the get  my act together, and go and get groceries---  I do not need very much--I don't think---but---- (always that "big butt")---  once I'm there, a small order on paper turns into a large order when yu get in the store-

You really are a remarkable woman----  you hold your family together---(at least you try!)--strong but caring-- and compassionate----and as these children discovered, extra weight we carry , is just extra awesomeness---that's all!

A new day and we are a part of it!

It's a better day--Praise the Lord! --  himself is OK---right now---and someone from Community Care Access Centre  (whatever that is)_ called yesterday , and will be out early October to interview himself and me--hopefully to see what help we need----  I'm   telling you--when this Lady told me who she was, and where she was from, it was like "God" himself ,  had arranged it--
 --YES--I NEED HELP----I just hope that I can hang in  here  with all I have to do, for now--

The colours in this area, outside, with all the Maple trees, is spectacular--

The Paint Lady is here until Wednesday----The living room is almost all done--and the dining room--just the kitchen to go--Son #2 the Pilot felt it was too much--all this painting---with himself the way he is---(I realize now he was right!)-- but--- it really does freshen the place up---all my mirrors are down-----but---- as soon as I have time, I want them back up-- (which will probably make the paint Lady cringe--LOL)

I must get Lopez out again--I must not allow himself to upset me--He does not remember what he says---It is a brand new day--- and we must remember how fortunate we are to be a part of it---

Maybe everything will turn out

It has been quite a morning--Himself decided he does not want to be here with me--You see, it is his "Day Care" day--We go thru this all the time--before getting him into the car--then he told me he would go in an hour-- and when I told him, "No, because I will just get him there and it will be time to bring him home"------and  then he became even more difficult to deal with---saying that I am mean and bossy--SO--- I called  around--trying to round up some help- 

"Could they pick him up , if I cud convince him to go?"--no-one could help me  get him there--  I knew if it was going to be--it had to be up to me---and-with the house all changed around due to the painting , -it also is VERY difficult to leave the dogs----

THE PAINT LADY SAW THE  PROBLEM I WAS HAVING___  and she volunteered to drive him in--SO MY PAINTER DROVE MY HUSBAND INTO DAY CARE__and-I guess she will have to pick him up--- Hard to believe that I am going thru all this isn't it--?? ---I know  most people are very busy-- and- have jobs-------I was hoping that I could meet Himself there at the Lodge and have lunch with him but it is totally impossible--

I must calm down here--  Poor Lopez--in all this chaos, well, he pooped on those paper pads-- what a good little boy eh?--

It usually does  work out---  Yu gotta have faith-- 

 

Chaos on the home front

Whatta difference a day makes------  last evening, I was "in the depths of despair"----  The house was a disaster area-due to the paint Lady being here--I did not know where to put the dogs--as you can see below--

The people we wanted to rent a townhome from,  figured we should be in an area where I wasn't sure I would be comfortable in, if anything happened to himself---- The Lady just called back this  morning and she and I talked and I think she understands now why I chose that area-  so--again--whatta difference a day makes eh??---- " Never sweat the small stuff--"---  sit back and hope it will all work out--if not to-day--maybe to-morrow-

I guess one has to move thru darkness before one sees the blossoms--  for sure---

So, the paint Lady is still here-----will be for another week I guess--AND---- IT IS HAIR DAY___

--I have to leave the chaos here--and get some control on my head--- Right now I sorta resemble a Porcupine---- I guess I can safely say, never   allow yourself to go to "the depths of despair"----because, in time, "stuff" usually works out--hang in--- hopefully the  tides of time---will kick in---shut the mouth--and maybe pray a little--- and---- keep going---- BE STRONG----  BE KIND---  Be Positive--

-like these wee youngsters -----Accept that--what will be--will be--------I know that we are strong people-

 

We deserve to twinkle---

Good day---  a very short blog--The paint Lady is giving me the 'Heby Jeebies'----moving furniture so she can paint--and climbing up tall ladders----As you can see below, we are living thru a chaotic mess--

I have made a decision here--yesterday really-- I decided that yes, we will move--but not buy another house-- Retirement Living have Garden Homes ----  3 bedrooms --  2 floors--  washer and dryer on main level, 2 bathrooms-- a small yard--and they are rentals-- I am reserving the first one that comes available and if this house has not sold, we will carry both places till this house does sell-----  We can walk right out our door to the car ----  Ret. Living does the grass--

 --WE ARE TOO OLD TO BUY ANOTHER HOUSE--- which eventually we will have to sell again--  I just cannot go thru all this "selling stuff" again!--

-  So between keeping the dogs away from the paint Lady--the mess on the main level, and the "man" in the house who is not the way he is supposed to be, it's amazing that I have not lost my mind-- I keep telling myself--"this too will pass"--Lord love a Duck!-- I sure hope so--Good thing we have a good sense of humour isn't it?

-Himself's Doctor just called--is going to send the Lab out here, to our house, to do blood work for Himself--so nice of him, because to get Himself into the Lab, might send me way "over the deep end"--(Mom's expression for sure!)----- 

 "LIFE"---- is really all about how we deal with the puddles" for sure---  There is always a way---Mom used to say, "Where there's a will, there's a way!"--

 I swear that she is busy helping me write this blog---  LOLOLOLOL---------------So---- I must get little Lopez out for the 2nd time--

And isn't it a good thing  that "nothing is permanent" in this crazy world--not even our troubles????? Good thing we are strong , positive, women---