Time, Slow mornings, and the Freedom to Choose----

 As you must know, it has been busy here--The business began  yesterday, with the 2 cleaning Ladies--who moved stuff-----did a great job cleaning--'specially the bathrooms--but--  it made me very busy =--trying to  declutter--but, here I am--back--cut the cat's nails early this AM--so , my arms are all scratched-, up to my elbows--Sushi , the cat has a lot of "wild" still in her--does not like her nails trimmed--

So, in all the mix up , with "cleaners" , yesterday, I never turned on the computer--I will check comments when I get thru here-I missed you all--Do you think I will ever get unpacked, completely??--  It all seems like a hopeless mess at this point??--

Last evening, son#1,  had me there , at his house, for supper--It was delightful!--When you live alone, and eat alone, one doesn't really eat well---In fact, when I eat alone, I have no appetite--I look at my plate , and then , usually, pick the plateful of food up, and dump it in the garbage--Isn't that so wasteful?--And yet, last night at Son#1's , I ate everything--and--yes, of course, I do live in the past still, but--I really am trying --trying hard to live in the present--

 I am going to try to join things--like the Hospital  Ladies Auxillary--or--something to get me out of the house------dunno what that will be yet-----or some sort of club----I used to be able to leave the dogs with Himself--cannot do that anymore--I guess I will figure it out--

                                So, for now, until I read your comments, this will be "it" for to-day--

                                                

                                            ----the freedom to choose what you want to do--

                Remember when we couldn't do that , as we were weighted down with kids--or chores--??? 

                                Just think---  now we can choose what we want to do--

                                                    Lord love a duck! It is a luxury!

"I don't have the sense I was born with!"

 I am so sorry--  Yesterday I never got back on here--  I certainly meant to--  had an early appointment to see a grief counsellor--which I had to cancel, as the 2 cleaning Ladies who work at the Police station, appeared here early--so, even tho I was very happy to see them, my whole day fell apart--  and-that NEVER EVER has happened before--like-=-I FORGOT TO BLOG--I am so so sorry--  I think my brain is not right--too much crammed into it!--But, here I am---  I think my head is back on my shoulders-- both bathrooms are so shiny and clean--now--- but--  all you guys were left by the wayside--

    

so, in case you do not understand the above photo-I shall explain--  It's my new tiny dishwasher --IN THE LIVING ROOM  BESIDE THE PIANO--The new cleaning Ladies did that--  LOLOL---  The dishwasher is turned sideways--  and when I need to use it, I just roll it back into the kitchen, and hook it up to the water taps--Yu see, I only use it every couple of days----kinda crazy but it works--keeps the kitchen free--

Amazing what one does when one   lives in a "tiny house"--Below is what this tiny living room used to look like--

I am so sorry about yesterday--  My head  certainly wasn't working properly-- I never did get to see the Grief counsellor----Lord love a Duck eh?--

Last night , there was a knock on the door--and it was Son#3, inviting me to go to his house and eat with them, or just keep him company , until his wife returned from work--so--I went--It was so nice of him! AND  I watched some TV with him --had Lopez with me -----who loves going there to see Lola and Apollo, his 2 dogs.

I hope that when your day is not going as yu want it. just turn up that music, and dance-----It does put one in a better mode--guaranteed---

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                        -a blast from the past--Himself with his younger brother, Murray----

I must get off of here-- I have missed you and I certainly am sorry that I lost my mind, yesterday--Try not to "lose" your mind--- 

                        Mom used to say, "You don't have  the sense you was  born with!"--

                                                            I'm afraid that was me, yesterday!

                                     Man oh man,   I shall try hard not to "FORGET THINGS--

                                        Good Morning everyone---

It has been a kinda a mixed up morning here--I was supposed to meet with a grief counsellor this AM-but, I have cleaning ladies due to arrive any moment--so, so much for the grief counsellor--Why is there always a lot going on , some days?--

Last night , I drove out to Son#1's home and he was sick--I always call him on the way, and he advised me to not stop in unless I wanted to get whatever he had--so, I made an abrupt turnaround---I shall go out there, later--(not to his house) but maybe to the dumpster with my garbage-I did stop in to visit Son#3 and his wife and his pets--That was kinda nice to hear about their daughters  at Universities in Southern Ontario, and how they are coping.

Here they all are, just before dropping the girls off at their Universities------  hard to do----I remember dropping off our children many years ago and I remember missing them so much--Sometimes it is hard to be a Mom!

I shall return -must get the bed made --  look for Miss Cat who will panic when the cleaning Ladies appear--

Memories are made of this--

                                        Good morning to you all--  quite cold here this AM--

I just walked Lopez  (him in his sweater)-I was trying to get out there before all the dog walkers--As in Lakefield, everyone has a dog--which is a great excuse to get out there walking--We met large dogs and a couple of tiny ones--all seniors who are out there with them!

So, as the lady above says, I do know a few things  about most things--but nothing about other stuff , but, I do know one thing about most things--I guess this is how it is at my age eh?--My Mom used to know everything about most things--I used to trust her judgement--although, sometimes I didn't agree with  her with everything she told me to do-and stuff I wasn't allowed to do--I trusted my Dad-and I did whatever he agreed It was alright to do whatever----I knew Dad would let me get away with a lot--As Mom used to say 

"You have your Dad wrapped around your little finger"-----I knew Mom really didn't like that!-----Kids know  who is on their side don't they?

        There is my Dad on the far left, holding my sister__I am standing behind my Mom--

                                                So, how did I ever get into all of that?--

Doncha jess wish you could meet your Mom and Dad --like--to-day?----that you could thank them for everything they did for you--apologize to them for some stuff also--I realize to-day, that they deservc a medal, for raising  me--for standing me up to face the world---

So, how on earth did I get into all of that?--I guess I have always wished to go back in time--to meet all the people who came before me--altho---  sometimes  I am told that I am like my Mother--????!!!!!!

I just dunno------

So, it is Son #4's  Birthday to-day--He was a boy who was never planned-- but, the best thing that ever happened to our family. Did any of you have one of those children??-- He had an imaginary friend , called "Buck"-- He would phone "Buck" (who was really his older brother's friends)- and he would chat away to them for hours-                                   

                                                          Make to-day the best day ever--

and, remember, to-day, to stay strong--

 

Awesome things might happen-

 Good morning--  just up here ---  cool-ish outside-- I had to run down and get that firebox going , early this am--it is very nice in here now!--So Lopez and I are down here-- Lopez on the sofa-- 

I was SO SO tired last night--It had been a busy day--went for groceries --  did a wash-- a few people (friends) dropped in to say hello--and, I drove the garbage out to the dumpsters at Dunlop , where we used to live--AND, went out to visit Son#1 and his daughter last evening--watched some television with him and his daughter, and drove back and dropped into bed, completely exhausted--

AND--  of course, I miss my "Himself--very much! When does one just accept a "death"?--I wish there was some way that he could let me know that he is fine--maybe even better than ever--????--a sign--a clue--????  Does that ever happen or does it just happen in books?

                                            AND, SOMEONE I KNOW IS IN HEAVEN------

                                                    I do miss him VERY MUCH-----

Here he is with Son #4

So, I shall carry on here ----One cannot change things-One must face each day , the way the "good Lord has planned--I guess!  I do know one thing however--  Our daughter is going to see Theresa  Caputo, in November-Do you think she can  Tell our daughter anything about  my husband?--Do you believe in her?--I certainly would love to know--Have any of you contacted Theresa?---Interesting isn't it?---

So, so much to think about--  "Fairy Dust""--  "Life and Death"--"The good Lord"---:==Hmmmmmmm!

Meanwhile, it is a new day--AND--HERE WE ARE --A PART OF IT"--So, I best get on witH it--the sheets are in the washer--Lopez is waiting to get out-- Oh--Did I tell you that I got my hair done--AT MY OLD HAIR DRESSER?_- and I now look like I used to--???__  There ios nothing in this world as good asd your same Hairdresser--

So--Get on with yer day-- If you see my Fred wandering around anywhere, please tell him I need to see him----I need to know that he is still hanging around!

LOOK FOR THE HELPERS ---They are always around us!

Good morning to you all--  raining here--but I think it is sorta stopping-- 

Lopez and I have not been out yet--

So----How are you??--

a new day---and "we" are a part of it-

OMG! --I just killed a black ugly looking spider -maybe that is why it is raining-- LOLOL--

So last evening, I went out to see Son#1  and family--and I took some family pictures out to him--There is no way that I can keep--and hang, so , many photo in this tiny house--AND-- I HAVE GOOD NEWS =

MY THYROID TEST IS PERFECTLY NORMAL__after a year of it not being that way-

-I am pretty happy about that.

So, I shall ask you again-- 

HOW ARE YOU THIS AM?

So, I am keeping my tiny little dishwasher--  You see, yesterday, I was going to send this wee small washer back--get a larger one that is built in--  but I sorta like this wee thing--You see, it is on wheels, and yu just push it up to the sink--connect it to the tap in the sink--and when yu are done washing the dishes, you wheel it away--It is kinda cute!---seems to work--  and I only turn it on  every couple of days--

I have been told to send this one back and get one that is permanently connected under the counter--but--  I kinda like my wee tiny one--I only use it every 2-3 days --

So I see the rain has stopped--I must get Lopez out ---

Remember to look for the "helpers" ---=We just need to ask--and--THEY WILL APPEAR--=HELP US DO WHATEVER-WE WANT---

LOOK FOR THOSE HELPERS!

                

 

"Don't Be Weird"

                I am trying to  use a larger  type of font here------dunno if it will show or not--I was up early here, stocking the fire--(LOL--well not really but  keeping it going--)--made the bed--fed the cat--and dog--walked Lopez --bagged his "poop"---- vacuumed--and I tried to sort out some pictures of the kids when they were young--For some reason they never claimed them--so , I guess its up to me , to drive the pictures over to their houses--perhaps leave them on their front porches--I just have too many pictures from the crawl space here--and not enough wall space-

I am going to visit a place that makes meals for seniors--frozen meals--It would eliminate me eating in a restaurant every evening-and may be a tad cheaper also---I just might give them a try--Being a "senior" is hard----kinda lonely also--and to add to all the  difficulties, is my stupid "thyroid" thing--although it seems to be quite normal now-if it stays that way--I go back to my Dr., on the 24th--

"AGING is really "YOU NEVER KNOW" --TIME OF LIFE"--one day, you wake up and feel like you are 3 yrs past you Expiration Date----another day you wake up  and feel 35 and full of energy---and happy --you woke up----- confusing  isn't it??

                                    Anyway, it IS a new day here--and we will cope--

            It Is a new day--The sun is shining here-- and here we are--a   part of this day--So--Get out there--  and lets face the music---- Oh-----

I doesn't get easier--You get stronger!

 I hope I get stronger--I sure am trying-- --The 2 dogs that were visiting have gone back to their home--Son#3 and wife, were here about 1 AM, after settling their 2 daughters at  different Universities--_--So Lopez and I are alone--well, ----Sushi is upstairs---AND---- WE HAVE RAIN FALLING__off and on--It's overcast ----supposed to be a wet day--which means I might even get a much needed  nap in--

So--in case you were wondering---The Birthday book--and the Address Book-are still lost---Yes I am tired of the whole loss of both and it has upset me terribly-- I finally bought a new Birthday Book-- and a new Address book-- now that I have replaced both books, the old ones (which I liked a lot better) will show up---There are still a few boxes , unpacked, in the crawl space-

-School is back in, here now--first day back is to-day--Remember those days--how nervous you were to be with a new teacher--??-and of course the new outfits that were worn on that first day back, was exciting--

        I don't know about you, but I am happy those days are over with--onward here to   other things--

We CAN dance around the living room--We are finally alone--It's been a long summer--Time for "US"--  

                                                    Well, a few "blasts from the past" here--

                                                                Grand kids-- all dressed up--

                                                    Sophia with her new baby brother

            Son #2 with Gerrard, his dog, and Lopez , my dog---  must've been before we moved--

                                and a beautiful beach--obviously taken by Himself------somewhere--

-----------so, time to get the vacuum out--  get rid of the kitty litter in our bedroom--always lots to do--oh a "grief counsellor" called yesterday and booked an appointment   ("ME") with her ----in a couple weeks--

So-"KEEP YOUR CHIN UP" --as Dad used to tell me everyday-----You are a strong person---  You just have to remember that!--Don't let the "crazies get you down"-----

"One Long Distance Hug--"

 I have met so many wonderful people since I moved here--People I have never known will come up to me and say, "Moving back to Elliot is such a smart move on your part"----and, "Your husband saved my life three times"---and, "I am so proud of you to move back here !"--Most of these people , I do not know, but they do seem so happy that I returned here--

There are moments , that I wonder why on earth I did another move--to here--2 moves in a few months---well, it seems kinda crazy --and I sometimes think I will always live in a huge mess--no pictures on the walls -- furniture all over the place--like, that portable dishwasher pulled out into the front hall--

 Was I crazy to think I could do this??------Lord love a Duck! --Will I ever, ever be settled??--I must be crazy moving into a wee tiny little house--

                                    YES-----  My body really does think my mind is an idiot!

BUT----Here I am--- with Son#3's --2 dogs--and my bad dog-"-3 dogs-"--  which makes  my body really think my mind has lost it!-----

  Son#3 will return to-nite--(I hope)---

Since I firmly believe that I never will ever, get to a store again----I ordered new stretchy pants from Amazon,  and they were delivered yesterday so , that made me feel better -( God bless Amazon who sent these lovely new stretch pants right to the front door--)

This AM I had to be at the clinic Lab--Blood Work--for my thyroid which has been out of whack since Fred died-I stopped to fill up the car with gas before heading home here--I have "HOPE"---  Son#3's dogs will return to their home to-day--Life should return to a sorta normal soon--

                                                    So, I hope that you all never ever give up--

                    Life does return to normal eventually, and the strength in me might one day,  return----I know--An idea here----I shall send you all a big hug--It might help to keep you feeling strong! --You think??

Faith, Trust and Fairy Dust---

 Good Morning-- It seems cold outside--jacket weather--I have to get the dogs out--right now they are all following me everywhere I walk in here. Already Phil's 2 dogs have sort of had their breakfast and been out____

I did not sleep very well last night-- Every time I move, I lose stuff--like my address book --AND--my Birthday book--- Dad gave me that book when I was 8 yrs old-- I know it is here --somewhere, as I do remember shoving it into a drawer someplace ---Last night I couldn't sleep as I was searching for it, all night.---  opening drawers in every room--Don't you just hate losing something ?---I did order a new address book, online, from Amazon, but it would be nice to find my  old address book--seems like it is gone--sob sob! --I am never , ever , going to move again!

Speaking of "Amazon"---  Isn't it amazing that you can be lying in bed, and shopping at Amazon, and it is delivered the next morning?--  -Amazon is just too convenient isn't it?--

To-morrow I must be at the blood Lab, before 7am-- Thyroid-- It was all out of whack, with the big move--Hopefully it will be back to normal this time!

               

 Son#2 with Son#3 and his wife, with their daughter, en route to her University---somehow they met up----Eventually they will return here, to pick up their dogs--Apollo and  Lola---

                        Soon all these kids will return to school--sad --  --Educating children is expensive--but--necessary--  Himself and I were so proud to attend each  of their graduations--

                        Isn't it so true  that we have our children with us for such a short time?

From the time they are born, until they graduate  from some educational place, and find a real job, and then move out, passes so quickly--like a minute---Cherish those 60 seconds-- It goes so quickly--

So, get off of here--  Enjoy your day-----  Be kind to people-- Try to find stuff you have misplaced--Today only comes once--

                All you need is FAITH, TRUST, --and a bit of FAIRY DUST,  of course!

A lot going on here--

                                                Sunday--"sunny Sunday"--and it is warm--

OK---  I cannot look after Son#3's , 2 dogs any more--  #1----reason--is--- this tiny house I now live in, is just too small for 3 tiny (sorta) dogs----and Apollo (one of the dogs) ate everyone's breakfast--twice--!And I had to keep re-feeding Lopez and LOLA-and Apollo even ate those meals--I think Apollo had 5 breakfasts--and Lopez decided he had enough  of the chaos so began to growl at me and all the other dogs--This morning has been crazy--and I cannot get anything else done--the reason I am late posting also!!

I believe Son #3 caught wind of my dilemma, and told us he will return tomorrow night-- Praise the good Lord!--He is taking his two daughters to University--both will be attending different places this fall-

                        Here they are --probably eating breakfast and his wife and 2 daughters----plus Son#2's  daughter who just finished her courses at Ottawa U.

Son #4 was just out here-----brought my battery lawn mower--plus a wheel barrel and a garbage pail--said my new shed is nearly full--  Boo Hoo----(It is not easy living in a tiny house!)----well, with 3 dogs and a cat----a lesson for me I guess!  People in tiny houses can only  do so much--nothing extra!-----I never knew this before--always had a large home!--you know--maybe its time to go on a holiday--get away from the chaos here--LOLOL--

                                             I shall have to think about this--give it some serious thought!

 

Chaos is part of life isn't it?

                             YOU ARE AMAZING! ----  YOU CAN HANDLE EVERYTHING!!

        ----justa reminder--in case you forgot!--I know that we all have a lot going on right now--but, think about it----"YOU" CAN---- HANDLE EVERYTHING---It might take a bit of time to figure something out--but--when you did, ----""YOU" did whatever--Sitting on ,my computer, is a requisition for blood work--- and I will make an appointment and get there--but, I have to take that requisition with me--Lord love a Duck eh?---  So, how do I get the printer to work here?----It used to work just fine--but--after that big move,  plus a new computer--how to get it to work now?-- BUT----- after a few tries--I DID IT!--It took some deep thoughts , on my part--(no Son#2 to help me )--

There is so so much technology now isn't there?---PLUS----There is so much going on in our house these days--  new appliances--lotza house work--and usually only "US" to figure stuff out--kinda drives one crazy--My own Mother never had to deal with all this technology-----and now, here we are--stuck in a home--alone--and we have to keep the house "gpoing" because after  all the machines get going, out we have to go to weed a garden or clear the driveway of snow--  THERE IS ONLY US!!---Kinda scare-y isn't it?--But, you know, if we keep our head on our shoulders--the "ROYAL WE"" can do most of the stuff--sorta---after all, our mind  is  still active-- and its so important to try-- Mom used to say, 

"Patience is a virtue, possess it  if you can---, it's often found in women, but never in a man!"-and she would try something again--

So, I have 3 dogs now looking at me-Son#3's 2 dogs are in my tint house here--and they constantly stare at me, wandering what on earth happened to their own Mom and Dad

                                                                        Here is Lola--

and Apollo---

and of course I have Lopez--and Sushi--

I must be crazy--too many pets in this tiny house--but--tis only for a few days--

We were supposed to get frost last night--but didn't --Praise the good Lord!

I guess that life --(the bigger picture)- is happening exactly as it should!--  The problem is, we must understand that "Chaos" is just part of life, isn't it?--

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