BEE Strong!

 Well I am trying to be stronger-- but---'tis kinda difficult--I need my "other half""----but--the good thing is--I AM HERE---Lord love a Duck! -  ( guess you surmised--Yesterday, I was wallowing  into-- "the depths of despair""--Who used to say that??---Was it Anne of Green Gables??-- I did think of you all--wished you all were here--so I could cry on your shoulders---SO so many tears--

So, I am trying to get back to Elliot Lake--where I belong-- It is going to take time, as I do not have an apartment--- altho a lovely Lady texted me yesterday and offered a B-and B--'till an apartment is   ready--I'd have to put all my things into storage tho--but--It is something to think about--

Son #2 is in Los Vegas----Below, he just sent the picture of the city--in the dark---said there was a lot of turbulence , en route there--a change is seasons probably cause  all that--

To-day I shall try to stop the flow of tears--One cannot cry forever--

I have changed our big bed--so, to-night , will sleep on the other side--last week I slept on Himself's side--  this week, my side--

Maybe if you all came to visit me, the tears will stop---justa idea!

Now, wouldn't that be fun?

It is Sunday and if I could stop coughing and spreading this flu bug, I'd go to Church--

Probably not a good idea !

Anyway. I AM BACK---I hope y'all do NOT pick up my flu, from reading this--I sure did miss yu all yesterday---I need you all to  tell me to STOP THE CRYING, AND GET ON WITH LIFE__--I hope your day is a great day---Could you come to Lakefield??---

I sure feel better just chatting with you this AM---

Maybe I am losing my mind!

 

It's a new day--- So far--no crying--- Maybe the tears have stopped--Maybe there are no more tears-- Lordy Be!!--- Losing a husband--my right hand  partner--is not fun!!

Anyway, his Death announcement was  in the North Shore Bulletin---and , now the "STANDARD Newspaper"-They put a very good picture of him  in there-----  I hope I do not cry  anymore as I read it---so so hard -----

To-day we have to go into Peterborough to "Service Canada"--So much paperwork when a person passes--and--I still intend to return to Elliot Lake--to spend the rest of my life--  Elliot Lake is "HOME" to me--=- I cannot leave here until I have an apartment in Elliot Lake, ready to move into--(which means ANOTHER move--)--- but , Elliot Lake is my home-and I must return---

So---- If you know anyone whose partner has died, do not leave them alone---  because all they do is cry--Just spend some time with them--  tell them they WILL get thru this (I have not yet!)- Maybe bring them a few boxes of kleenex--(ha ha)---  maybe go for a walk with them---   Yesterday I went to a 2nd hand store---and you know, one of the pictures Son#2 had taken over to them, --- well, I bought it back--  like-- "I BOUGHT MY OWN PICTURE"--- It was of Charlotte, our  old dog---- Can you believe that??--  I guess people  who have lost their partner, well it seems these people have sorta lost a bit of their mind----Oh well--Hopefully, life will resume  one day, maybe when the tears stop!

Strength----a short blog

It is noon-ish-- I had to go out this AM--so, am posting now--later than late--but--I sure am thinking of you-- Two very nice ladies came here and took me round the town--We stopped in at a  nice 2nd hand store---  I bought a picture---$10 --  a picture which used to sit in the rec room--a picture that got left in the house in Elliot--Of course it is a picture of a dog ---  and this dog looks so much like one of the first dogs we ever had--Her name was Charlotte--

It is warm here --over 70 degrees --sunny also-----So Spring has arrived!--I meant lots  people who still have no power--so, we are very lucky--At least we have heat and lights!

I need to find strength---  I shall try to have "power" over my mind---because I need to find the srength to carry on--Lord love a Duck!--I really just want to sit and cry--When does that go??----I MUST FIND THE POWER OVER MY MIND_--- 

--- Lets help each other--- to get our lives back on track-- Lordy be!!!

-a short blog--- but---- so far --No MORE TEARS--

 

Get out there and live this Day!

 

Good Morning-- WE HAVE HEAT!!!    And--THE POWER IS ON---It came on yesterday , at supper time--Whatta difference!  I did not have to sleep in bed with all my clothes on--

                                                    There is a lot of damage everywhere--

I cannot seem to enlarge the above pictures but if you look closely you can see broken limbs--

I still have to walk Lopez --all the walking trails are covered with tree limbs  so I'll stick to the road--

I turned on the news this AM., and I hear we 're in for more bad weather--rainy wet snow showers--- As long as we do not lose power I will be OK---

I continue to look for Fred--- feel at times that he is just "out" and will be back--or, I come home , and think he is in the house here--- -Strange!  --I wonder when one gets over that---

Me---- on Son #2 deck--with is dog, Gerrard--and Lopez--our wee fella--

So, How are you all?--= How is the weather in your area??--It will be nice when it warms up a lot--

Are you abe to "Keep your chin up?-""  as Dad used to say--I mean, if I can get thru all this, I think everyone can----No matter what is going on in your life,  (or my life) --we can get thru it----  It might not be easy, but---- in time, each hour gets better----and, if you see anyone without a smile. give them yours--

Remember---"Impossible" means "I'm possible,"

and---

WE ARE A PART OF THIS DAY___

I'm BACK----- Ice storm--Trees down - no Power--but--I AM BACK--

We have had a terrible ice storm here---no power---so-- I could not blog--but--The Power JUST came on--FINALLY--  FINAL:LY--WE Have HEAT__and I shall blog this evening--to-morrow--AND forever--

                                            Holy Cow--I sure missed you all-- Lynda
 

Live for what today has to offer--

Good day---another day--to get things right-- NO MORE CRYING_---NO MORE FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF!   Lord love a Duck!  There just cannot be any more tears--

So, you read the obituary-???  -written by the kids--  many changes made, ----The kids  finally felt it described their Dad---His  grown children were very proud of their Dad--as he was , of them--

You know, we had  Son#1 , and Fred said-"OK, We have our child"---then, Son#2 came along, and again he told me, "OK--- that is enough children"--but, then a little baby girl appeared , and Fred  was ecstatically happy , but, I knew 3 children was enough----  so- we moved from Ottawa to Elliot Lake, and along came Phillip---born at St Joseph's  Hospital----but   ----  then---  Tim appeared--looking exactly like Fred--

-And you know, Fred absolutely adored all these children---accepted Timmy , proudly---AND--these were the children, who were by his side, holding his hands--helping him to breathe , talking to him, telling them it was OK to go to Heaven--that we would take care of each other, that--We would miss him, but we could live our lives like he would want-us to--

-Hard to send  him to Heaven, but we al reassured him that he would never be forgotten--that he was special-- because,  he was their Dad--and they loved him to the moon and even back--

This is the man who said, "Are you crazy?" to me , when I told him that we had put  an order on his chart , to  do what is necessary to keep him alive.   

"Now why would anyone ,  ever , want to do that to a 96 yr old man?"---he asked me.-

Life is so precious------ Hug those near you---They are "special"----They are a part of your life---  Tell them how much you love them--- and try to live  each moment  of everyday--

                                                                            I shall try---

 

Good morning--

 

        

                                                                            Good Morning--

--dark here still--- I think it s cold---We are expecting an ice storm-- coming in this evening-- I think---Winter is hanging on---It is our daughter's Birthday to-day-our only girl--with 4 boys--Because of the ice storm, we are not sure how -we will celebrate  the daughter's birthday yet--

Little Lopez just got up--Oh-  I now have an Opthamologist calling me in the next 2 weeks-- in Peterborough--Now I just need a Doctor--- It is a  real waiting game--

https://hendrenfuneralhome.com/tribute/details/6273/Frederick-Young/obituary.html

 

HE ABOVE IS  MY HUSBANDS ANNOUNCEMENT IN THE TORONTO STAR--HIS FAVOURITE NEWSPAPER

If you highlight it, will it open??--  

Keep Calm and believe in yourself!

Good day ----a brand new day--and I am blogging--

Yesterday was a complete write off--and I am sorry-- AND----  (now this sounds bad)--I was walking Lopez and some poor older man was coming out of the Fire station near here---and I stopped to ask directions--AND--- in all my tears--I told him all my sad storry--AND_-THE POOR MAN LISTENED - UNBELIEVABLE!

It was one of those "sob story days---or "Daze"---

BUT ----  There is good news --To-day IS another day and so far, no tears---

We were over to our daughters B and B--last night--had supper over there--

Here we were with all our dogs---

We were eating Chinese food--as we remembered happy times with   Fred, and HIS LOVE of Chinese foods--

Lopez and I-=-

So it is a "hair"   day  to-day , with groceries--- AND___  an ice storm to-morrow, here-----  Oh--I want to tell you, ---the Robins are back---  I see them hopping all over. Isn't it nice to know that most things stay the same in this world?----

So--- I shall  try to put an effort into not feeling so sorry for myself--Life can be good---even when the man yu married has to go to Heaven---Maybe there is a reasson that he went first--Maybe he left me here for a reason--  to keep this family together---Who knows eh??--

But---- As Dad used to tell me,  " Keep your chin up"---It's a brand new day, and we are a part of it"

AND__

 

Live in the moment-!

                                                    A brand new day--and we are a part of it!

It is dark outside here---  I was awake, because   Fred was  with me in the night---He woke me up, chatting --and I felt it was him--First it seemed like him--then he was gone-- --I did not want him to go-- (if it was  him)--What do you think??

--He had no message--just seemed like he was  in my head somehow--Of course, Allison told me to sleep on his side of the huge King bed, which , as you know, is  larger than the room--She had told me last Sunday to just change the bed every other Sunday---to sleep on my side one week--and the next week, to sleep on his side (which is ""WAYEEEE" over there-) --and THEN CHANGE THE BED--  seems like a good idea---

It is plus one outside---with showers and snow flurries predicted-- Winter is  trying to hold on--

Matt (son#2) was in the Similator last night--not back yet--I wonder what kind of things they threw at him ---

I have the wash in--- Lopez still in bed--- I must get him up---  He sleeps in a crate in our bedroom-

                        --just in case you did not remember just how amazing each of us are--
-I tend to forget that ---and we must NEVER EVER forget that--- So----  when outside shopping, etc etc,  try to remember to smile at  people--- Everyone is going thru some kind of  problem---a wee smile from you just might help her (or him) get thru their day--

I shall return later---...............-  Keep your chin up --as Dad used to say--

"Trying to believe in myself!"

Good day to you!! ---  To-day seems better than yesterday-- In bed in the early morning-- I can now get up. without dreading the day without Himself---- It's usually about 5am so , of course  I might just dread the hour--but---no---I really do not want to face the day without Fred--He was a part of my day---everyday--for years and years--very hard to go on---   But--I do have Lopez----and Sushi---who sleep in the room with me--  

Anyway----  To-day IS BETTER THAN YESTERDAY,  and that is a good thing---It is wonderful to have the grown kids here with me-- and I spoke to the boys in  Elliot Lake to reassure them that I WILL  return there as soon as I am able--That is home! 

We all went out to breakfast----=kinda fun for sure! 

--hard to accept things--I just want my husband back---  to protect me-- We were always together--I am not really a very strong person-- I do try to be---but inside I am a mess-- 

I SHALL PRETEND TO BE STRONG----  Isn't there a saying--"Fake it, till you make it""-----

 

Trying to keep calm!

 

Good morning to you all--It is VERY cold  (it seems)--  sunny---No replies to all your comments yesterday--but--  I read what you all wrote and I eventually will respond-- It was good to know how much you all care-- thank yu--!!!----

I still hope to return to Elliot ---  as soon as an apartment becomes available there in the building I was hoping to go into--Any other ideas, you are thinking of, please write and let me know--  I sure am open to suggestions--I do feel like a lost soul--  I just feel that when I can return to my old stomping grounds, hopefully my mixed up memory will kick back into place-I still have to speak to the owner of this building to see if I can break the lease here---

Our daughter is still here--her hubby and her children arrive to-day and have rented a B@B close by---

I also hope I can get my old DR back---  have called the clinic--

The above picture is of the whole family---AND--the dogs---  Fred included---  kinda special---I finally figured out how to make  it larger---

So, I shall get Lopez out---I see the sun shining--I wonder when one gets over this terrible feeling that I am "not really all here--my head is so mixed up--"---forgetful---  feel like I am going in circles--

 If any of you have gone thru this, pleae let me know that you do eventually come out of this vety strange state-  Lynda

Remember the day's blessings--

 Another day---I appreciate hearing from you all--so much! ---Little by little, we get thru the day--I do keep feeling  Himself's presence--I come back from shopping and I feel he is  here ---  in the apartment, which he loved---

  He loved this apartment---  no stairs----the stand- up shower, which he could just walk into-the car right beside the door---every appliance one could imagine at his finger tips---and of course , the restaurants and  large stores close by-.Too bad I didn't move him  here sooner!

Since I have written the last blog, we have visited the funeral home--which actually  was not an unpleasant experience-We chatted with the staff at the funeral home, telling them stories of living with  Himself ----like-- stories of  our large family, and living with  a very  outstanding Dad---We plan to  have a get together for him, in July, in Elliot Lake-

He had "Double pneumonia "-(like the Pope)--but, also lung problems which we had not been aware of. Since his passing, I have been to Shoppers to get a pneumonia shot--something I should have had for him, a long time ago also---Because I am "older than  old" . I had to pay for the pneumonia shot-which is available to younger people--FREE--It is good for 10 yrs-- 

                                                Above is Himself --such a good person---who always reminded us to wash our hands--that kindness to everyone is important---that family matters---to respect our elders, take the medicine---be strong---honesty pays---and never to give up--that life is  special--- 

We miss him like hell--We will go on, because   he taught us that life is important----  to hug one another--- and  never just give up--                                                                            

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I am back---the Blog---

 Good Morning---  FINALLY--I am on here---altho I feel like I have been run over by a tractor---  SLOWLY---- very slowly---- I am returning to life--I think--  Life will never ever be the same--I know that---  Eventually I will return to Elliot Lake-- I do know that--may have to live out my lease , here, while searching for an apartment in Elliot Lake --- No more houses---which eventually have to be sold--

We will have a service, in Elliot  Lake for Fred, in July, but, I shall keep everyone posted when and where----I shall not call it "A celebration of life"  --but , probably something like,  a " Memorial" of DR Young's accomplishments"--or something like that--  He is cremated as his wishes were to have his ashes in Dunlop Lake--

All of you have been absolutely wonderful-- I will stay here in Lakefield until the apartment  where I now reside, till , the lease is up, (It was a years lease)- and then for sure I will return to where I was (-in Elliot Lake--)

I am sorry it has taken so long  get back to you all--but, losing Fred, my husband, is the worst thing that has ever happened.----

This morning, I was at Shoppers Pharmacy in Peterborough getting a pneumonia vaccine--Fred had  Pneumonia in both lungs----  Please go and get your vaccine-- so "YOU" can be strong--in case you get a flu bug--  

I shall chat with yo all, to-morrow--Lynda

My "Himself"--- My Husband --- has died--

 

                            I am so sorry to have to report that Himself. my husband , DR Young, passed ----The picture above is of my "Himself" with son #2---This was taken a long time ago, before he passed--probably just before we moved to Lakefield--He did die, in Hospital, in Peterborough-- We do not know the reasons this happened --="Pulmonary  something", which the Drs felt he might have had quite awhile and maybe a flu bug on top of all of this just  was too much for him.

I will try to  get the right diagnosis-- and let you now---  It has  been the saddest time in our lives--I am so so sorry--and sad--- Lynda

Himself in a coma---

 Fred ( My Himself) is in a coma --in hospital-    We cannot wake him up--nor do we know what has happened-Sometime to-day, I will get back to you all--

Please  , can yu pray for both of us??--Lynda

Visiting himself in Hospital--

Good day to you --- We have been into Peterborough to see Himself--Whatta great hospital--huge--new--well equipped--  lotza staff on site--including specialists--

Himself has been moved to a floor--lovely well equipped room--His own bathroom--a bulletin board on his wall with a lot of his "likes" and "dislikes" --his meds---  His nurses name---and space to ask questions-- and a huge picture window to look at the sunrise. We had to put on PPE , probably  due to his  Double Pneumonia--

He is alert. happy, still on massive antibiotics  by IV.,  and intravenous drip---- I think he is a bit better---  and seems like he has more energy, but he will not be getting out of there for awhile--Altho he is becoming his "old bossy" self which is good to see---  He must be feeling a lot better-

                            The hospital is impressive---  with a Tim Hortons in the dining room--

Spring it seems has arrives here in Lakefield, so I am putting away my heavy winter Parka--and lugging out a Spring jacket-----------do not need winter boots anymore ---

                                                We will go back to see Himself this afternoon---

Son#2 was supposed to be flying to Brazil today--instead he is driving in to Peterborough to  help his Dad--Whatta boy!---Hope you are making your day special--