Be Proud of all the Battles you've won!

Good morning--  I think it might be sunny to-day and we just might miss the rain--I have to go into Peterborough this AM-for blood work for my Thyroid  problems--Hopefully the test comes back normal-- Apparently with the move here, the test for the  Thyroid was not done so there was quite a lapse  --Eventually I went for blood work here and the thyroid test was way too low--maybe the reason for all the tears--My own Doctor is in Elliot Lake--  not here-- so eventually this was corrected but it took time-- so--a  repeat on that test today. And all this means, leaving little Lopez in the apartment, alone--which worries me --But then, I do worry about everything--

So if yu all could watch for Lopez--- turn on yer computer once in awhile and see if he is sitting beside it here--Here is what he looks like---

A "blast from the past"--Himself with our daughter and her son, who is now grown up--AND DRIVING__

Make to-day great--  I know that you can do this! 

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Make someone's day Happy!

             Now isn't the above so true?----"Real friends are good friends---the best---same as family--"-

We have rain--cool temperatures--but, that doesn't really matter--because we are up and at-er--ready to face another day--We are so fortunate to  be able to be a part of this day--So, put on yer best "BIB and TUCKER" , as Dad used to say, and your smile and positive attitude, and let's appreciate that the good Lord  is giving us this opportunity to make the world a better place. Lets bust a move, you crazy girl--

    You can Boogie Woogie, Shimmy , Shake ,Twirl and Whirl, and bust a move you crazy girl---

Last night, I went to bed with my books on  "Widowhood"---like--how to get over the sadness??-- which I am learning does not go away--one just learns how to live with it, I guess. I do find however, being around people help me , a great deal---  like getting out -

---I still believe I should start a "Wacky wives" organization--or something like, "The Merry Widows"--Staying in your apartment, or home alone,  does not help the sadness disappear--Also, owning a pet is helpful because they keep one busy--

I hope your day will be "wonder-"--ful-----I suppose one must make it that way--- It does not just happen---  like--get out there and talk to people--make their day wonderful--

            and before I go---a blast from the past that is guaranteed to put a smile on your face--

Somewhere in the  picture below,  is our daughter's daughter--Sophia-----

Just looking at these children will make your day--- some are making faces--They are happy-- We CAN be like them---Enjoy yer day----Laugh Out LOUD!--Children are the best!

Interpretive dance might be just the thing!

Do you know who you REALLY are??---Have you ever thought  about that???- I am trying to learn who I really am---I know who I am not--

  I am an older woman--- over 80 yrs--  I am married---but, now, --I am a WIDOW---  I am a Mother of 5 grown very nice people--Do I know a lot about myself?---  Yes, but I hate to admit some of the things in my life--I do know I cry a lot--now--- didn't used to--- You see I miss my Husband very very much -- who took care of me--I knew nothing would ever happen to me because he would  be with me, and protect me.-- I know he is not here right now-(But maybe he is and I just don't see him)--So, you see, there are a lot of things  that I don't understand anymore--which also scares me!-----So, maybe I do not really know a lot about myself--That scares me too!

It says above that it takes courage to grow up and become who I really am-- It sure does!----And that frightens me. Do I have the courage to keep going on--alone---Maybe that is why we have children --????----- I live now for my children-

-Son #3 was in this area yesterday and came over and Son#2 and I had supper together. with him. They made my day! I wanted Himself there with me, but---well, maybe he was with us----We couldn't see him, but inside both boys who were there, must be him??__ maybe----One day  we may find out --  Maybe??---We did have an empty chair at the table--

                                It takes courage to keep going on---and on----  but we do!---

This morning I took Lopez to have his nails trimmed--  also bathed him at home here.--  

And so, I continue on--  less than 2 months and I move back to Elliot Lake--I am excited---  It takes courage to go thru another move--  but--I sorta feel Himself might be hanging out there--somewhere---I wish the 2 of us had talked about dying--  You know, we never did----but-- I do know  that he loved Elliot Lake-- He  respected his patients --absolutely loved all his children--even got used to living with countless dogs--  so, I am hoping he just might help me with "the courage thing"--maybe stop my tears--and my fears  about life  on the  "missing him side"---

                It takes courage doesn't it--just to face who one "REALLY" is now--- and to actually embrace the "alone time"-

But you know--it just might be fun when people ask how you are doing--to just do some weird interpretive dance--- They might look at me "----funny" --but----------------Who really cares anyway??

 

 

 
 

There will never be anyone quite like you!

            Good morning   --very cool here this AM--only 9 degree--but sunny--  but---s there is hope-I believe it will go up to about 22 degrees C,  or----52 degrees  F ---which will be nice. 

Every  night, before bed, I check any messages on my phone-- There were a couple of messages which I answered--or--thought I had answered--but no reply came back to me, which I thought was odd--but , people are busy, so I just went to sleep--This morning the phone told me that it had been put in "airplane mode", which I  had done by mistake I guess, so, no messages were going thru--I have never noticed that before, but now will be more aware of me doing this mistake and check for that. I use the cell phone a lot, but --- I am not the smartest person on my cell--I guess for some reason (or no reason!)-I had it set on "Airplane mode"--which does not send messages--

The King and Queen were in Ottawa yesterday--Son #2 flew into Ottawa yesterday also--He took the pictures  shown here -I did watch them on the TV--  It must be so hard for them to shake so many hands which they did as soon as they landed--

Lopez has not been out yet--but--we do have sunshine--with a chance of showers again to-morrow. This has been a very wet Spring!

So, I know it is early, but--how are you??--  I hope that you are feeling "Hunky Dory"--Just remember--there will never be anyone  like you!  That is "your" power-----Use it to-day to help someone get thru their day--Tell them that they possess the power to be strong--You are "UNIQUE"--They might not realize that! 

                                Have a good day--Don't allow the crazies to get you down!--and remember --

Yes you can!

Yes --I must think "positive"--because we can do pretty much anything we make our mind, up to do--'cept---- I have a huge problem , saying, "NO"!          --I have had this  problem since I was born----

---You see, I do not want to upset anyone in the whole world--so---- not agreeing with someone's decision to jump off the edge of the world, I guess , in my heart , might upset  that  person-- so I agree to do whatever--AND--THEN I REALIZE THAT I CANNOT DO WHATEVER I HAD AGREED TO DO----

For example ----my son in law dropped in here yesterday---completely unannounced-----WITH HIS DOG--A LARGE SIBERIAN HUSKY--which wee tiny Lopez was terrified of--

Of course there was a dog fight--in my wee tiny living room---  me in the middle of it--trying to protect Lopez-

-The huge problem was--- My very nice Nephew brought several large boxes full of old LPs--old books --etc etc etc etc--All this stuff used to belong to my older sister (his Mom)----and he thought I might like to have all this "stuff"--Very nice of hm to think of me---but--the problem is, I AM MOVING--and now I have 2 more very large boxes to get rid of--  

        So, poor son #2 will have to help me cart more boxes away--  to the goodwill, I guess--

I FINALLY hope that I have learned a lesson--TO NOT BE SO AGREEABLE_from now on, I will say, "No thank yu---- I cannot take those boxes---  Please take them yourself to such and such--that I am moving"------

                                                            So, "live and learn" I guess-----

I hope that you are all up and at-er--- My own lesson for to-day is to try very hard to to think positively and to say out loud  what I am  thinking--If it's a negative thought, spit it out anyway--   say what you are thinking-- even if it is not a positive thought at that moment--

It has taken me 82 years to decide to   do this---  Holy Cow!---  Why is that so hard to do?---I suppose everyone wants to be liked---  not be negative-- but-----  IT IS ABOUT TIME ISN"T IT?----  

 
 

Fake it till you make it!

                 and we have rain---AGAIN!!---but, I read online that it might be clearing later---We have had at least a week of steady rain, so seeing the sunshine , one day, someday, would be wonderful! I suppose the rain , helps the grass grow--the flowers  also---April showers bring May flowers---

                When I walk Lopez, I meet every Tom , Dick, and Henry. Everyone has a dog--some have large dogs, most have very small dogs. I speak to everyone, and they all chat back----I mostly warn them that Lopez will bark at them and I am sorry--They mostly say, "He is protecting you"--Everyone is friendly---Some comment that Lopez isn't barking as much as he used to, and they are right. Lopez is beginning to accept that there are many canine friends on the walking trails. These trails are all paved --and most trees have a memorandum, at the foot of them, in memory of a person who has passed.-----

                I suppose all these neighbourhood dogs, help these seniors to get out and walk--good exercise, and the trails make life easier for everyone.

The above is a good picture of Himself, with Son #2. It was taken out in NovaScotia along the ocean --   many moons ago---- I found it in my "oldies but goldies"-----Himself looked so healthy there!

                                So, did you have a good nights sleep last night? I certainly hope so! --  If you did, you will feel so much better this morning. It makes such a difference in your day to-day! 

--and be strong---  "Fake it till you make it""---  I heard that somewhere--  Pretend to be strong, and soon you WILL feel strong--

    

I hope that your day will be the best ever---and it will be if you decide to make it that way___I shall check in on you all later---GET UP----  GET OUT--- It is a brand new day-----and here we are--a part of it!
 

Make everyday the best day of your life!

WE CAN do everything !---  We might as well get up, and at-er !----Getting a tad older is not an excuse! Get on your clothes and get out there--face to-day with determination-- because--WE CAN!

More rain is falling--but--- I see that to-morrow--NO RAIN! --It looks like sunshine----

I have been reading a few  books on grieving--how to accept it--that it is a natural process, and eventually it will pass--I still do find however, when I am out somewhere, my mind tries to remind me to get back home soon, as Himself is there by himself and needs me-( We all know that he is not here  at all-)---Odd how your mind works !-- I also find  that I must accept that people quite often do not include a single person when they are heading off to a concert somewhere ----a couple is accepted---but not always a single person---so that person is left  in their home ---- alone---It seems it is just the way it is---I really believe I should start a " Merry Widows organization"--maybe   when I return to Elliot Lake-----(Justa idea!)--

Another month closer to August 1st--  when I move to Elliot --I am beginning to put a few things into bins---before the movers really do appear--which will be end  July-- 

I am most anxious to get back to Elliot---lotza work when I get there--will have to buy ANOTHER washer and dryer--have it installed----(How many washers have we all purchased in our life time?)--

        One foot in front of the other--and when we look back, we will have climbed a mountain--

            No crying --no feeling sorry for ourselves--  because , of course we CAN do this-

                                                    Make everyday the best day of your life!

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I CAN SEE! --A miracle!

                    I am back---and I can see---  My 2 eyes were zapped-- "Lazar---ed '  they call  it---

I sat in front of a machine , with about 50 other people-waiting for this machine to turn on--  -men and women.--- I looked into the machine and all sorts of banging and various colours whipped crossed my eyes--and voila---  I was helped up out of the chair--and  they helped me out to a waiting room where I sat for about a half hour, and then I was helped down to the car, and came home here. 

The sun outside was very blinding---  but, by the time we drove home here, I could see--clearly--It was like a miracle! Apparently they Lazar-ed the lenses in my eyes--took off anything stuck to them blocking my vision--and NOW I CAN SEE--VERY CLEARLY!--It is  a miracle!--- And yesterday, I DROVE MYSELF TO THE GROCERY STORE!---They say this procedure can only be done  once! 

We have a big rain system to-day  that is just hanging around--so, again, we have a rainy day here with sub zero temperatures!

Yesterday I did not get a blog  done--I just was so so happy that all the blurriness had vanished from my eyes, that I could not sit still long enough to  get a blog in--To-day I just had to tell you all about this wonderful new procedure--Lord Love A Duck!

                            -It feels like someone has given me a gift--well, the gift of sight-- 

So, to-day, should we choose happiness?--- I  feel the "gift of sight" is a wonderful thing to happen! 

                                                                    It is really a miracle!  

 I must read all your comments from  way back when--and no matter the weather, I just know that to-day will be wonderful---especially if we -STAY STRONG!--

                                                        I SURE MISSED YOU ALL!!!!

   

Help someone, Make their day!

 

BE HAPPY----  Because it is  better than being sad all day--You might as well enjoy to-day, because none of us know how many more days we have!--Now I HAVE "BIG" news!--I want to tell  you--

--I CAN SEE!

I CAN SEE ----like--I CAN SEE EVERYTHING---I had the Lazar  surgery last evening--me and about 50 other senior citizens --It wasn't bad---Son#2 drove me in, and helped me out of the room after cause I was so blind from the sunlight--It really is a miracle!-Before I got home, I was beginning to see ---no more fuzz------and this morning, everything is so bright everywhere. The TV is beautiful---so many colours--- and I see leaves blowing on the trees-- and a lot of dirt in the apartment here. I thought I was cleaning it all the time, but obviously I never saw the dirt--This morning I hired a cleaning Lady-- 

I heard having the Lazar  is a one time deal--They can never do it again, and if the fuzz comes back, then it will be the "macular"--  I guess then you just give up and accept going blind--like my Mom did!

SO BE HAPPY TO_DAY--because we never know  what is coming into our life as we grow older--

Enjoy the day--appreciate your eyes--Get outside--Smile at some older person (You never know what they are going thru)--

Now get out there---

Help someone  --make their day!!

 

Always Be a Strong Woman!

 Oh My LORD1 --  It feels so cold outside--  Frost was predicted overnight--  I do not think we got the frost--We have sun tho--Lopez has not been out yet but he is uip--as is Sushi.

Yesterday, Son#2 had to go to Britain--on his way back last night, he had to turn around due to a mechanical--so it seems he was late returning here by the time the problem, whatever it was, was fixed--and this morning, he is still on his way back here--but--nearly here--I think maybe he stayed in Ottawa last night--Poor guy!

To-night I have to go in to get my eye lenses "lazar-ed"---I am kinda nervous about the whole procedure--I just hope it helps to clear the fuzz I have in both eyes.- I was told this happens in 50 per cent of the people who have had cataract surgery. I never knew that before.

It is erarly , but, how are you?--  Are you "hsppy and you know it"?-----or feeling more like Oscar the grouch--?---  You might as well be happy!  Sometimes a good scream now and then, helps--Try it!

    I shall grab a jacket and "hit the road"---with little Lopez--This day is beginning---IT SEEMS LIKE             A GOOD DAY TO BE CREATIVE--So, Go On----

                         

                           Paint, Draw, Knit, Sew, Cook, Crochet, Dance, Sing, Write, Sing, Bake, 

                                                    and---- always, 

                                                                 BE A STRONG WOMAN!

I wish you all, Positive Happy Thoughts --

 A new day--to get everything right!-  Doncha jess wish?? It is cool out there  but, it IS light----  AND NO SNOW FALLING---I mean--things could always be worse--          We could look like this----

We have Robins, sunny skies, green grass---squirrels---flowers , and people outside walking their dogs-It is 9 degrees here outside- We are-NOT shovelling snow! --"We have to be grateful  for small 

mercies-"---- Dad used to say that!

So--I did  take Lopez out--He watered a lot of grass---did NOT do his business-which means another walk--

So, the nose is healing--after the fall beside the bed--the knee is not as sore--the grief and lonelines is still bad---but now there is more---  Last night I began to think, "Why did he have to go?"-----  Why not me?--Why did we never talk about this?"---We never did you know!--and, we weren't "Spring Chickens-"-as Dad used to say---

I just received a message from Son #2--who is "pushing", as he says--over in Britain--"PUSHIN" means--pushing back from the airport, ready to head to the runway, for takeoff  to home--

To-morrow, in the evening , I have to go to  Peterborough to the Opthamologist, to have Lazar treatment to the lens in my eyes--hopefully to clear the blurriness--"If it's not one thing, it's another I guess--Dad's expression again!

I best get off of here-- I hope you make your day wonderful!  We will never have this day again, so I hope you make the best of to-day--ENJOY EVERY MOMENT!-- We will never be again, as young as we are to-day---Positive thought-- I wish you all positive happy thoughts--

 

 

Be Proud!

Yes, I made up the  King bed--- clean sheets--and I slept on my side last night---not the side where I crashed onto the floor from----  Himself's side!--You know, maybe he pushed me out --??--Well ---Ya never know!-

We have cool weather--wind--and even a bit of rain--It is looking kinda stormy out there. But, the good news is---  I am vertical--have not  even crashed down-- Isn't it a terrible feeling , when you begin to fall, and you cannot stop the fall at that point--  One just crashes, smack down, onto the floor--and you  lie there , thinking , what on earth just happened?-- AND--- What is broken?--and---  Where does it hurt the worst?--But, all is good this morning--

It does look very stormy outside right now---so, maybe I should wait a bit before taking Lopez outside--who, by the way, is laying here  watching me--  all curled up in a ball--

One of my younger Grand Daughters texted me last night, to lt me know that  her Birthday is coming up--It was Son#4's daughter--I thought that was so sweet!---I will get a card with gift money in it, and get to the post office to get it into the mail-  She is a sweet girl~She also asked when I will get back to Elliot Lake--So sweet!!  These are the reasons that I am returning to Elliot Lake--I have several Grand children living there!

So-----Have you seen the present lately??  Do you  sorta live in the past?? Is it something that happens when we are ""OF AN AGE""--????--I wonder -----  Hmmmmmmm........

Do you ever look  in the mirror and see  some crazy  old Ghost  blocking your reflection-----and are shocked with your reflection--------I hope that yu are proud of that person you see---She /He  has survived so so much!  Be Proud!