`` It IS a different day-alright~- AND--WE ARE A PART OF IT! ---Are you ready to face to-day??
This AM., Son#2 and I went to his storage locker--I think farmers living here, put numerous rows of storage lockers on their farm land--rent them out, and must make a fortune--The farm we went to- must've had hundreds of these lockers---rows and rows of them!--
We have lost the sun--It has turned overcast--- with maybe some rain showers-- ---coolish also!!
Not everyday can be good----- I am a bit of a "weeping widow"---=-When on earth do the tears ever stop?---- Oh, I must tell you that I hired a "mover"----=AGAIN!---There will not be so much "stuff" this time-- but it still is costly to move! 
--and--I did get to the grocery store at 8-ish--8am--=No-one was there but me-------- I like that! --= hard to buy for one!---There ARE prepared meals--- and I do make a lot of soups--
My cousin , from Port Perry, and his wife are coming to visit on Sunday-- That should be fun! --
SO, HOW ARE YPU ALL??-----ARE YOU FEELING STRONGER TO-DAY THAN YESTERDAY?
LORDY BE!! We must hold it all; together--I remember taking care of Fred, and thiniking how nice it would be to just sit and read a good book--not have to go out and cut the grass---or just sit and "veg""---not have to be so strong---- oh how I wish he was still with me-- I could talk to him---We could laugh together--- Maybe the tears would stop--=
I do have the dog and cat--- and yes, they do listen--
Make to-day special--
That pet you have will listen--I know they will!!-
It's Kathy. I think you can still talk to Fred. I talk to my dad sometimes! He's the only one who ever really listened to me and made me feel better. I think the tears will be with you for awhile, but they are proof that you had a good life and a loving partner. We are also having a dreary day today - it rained most of the night so everything is damp. But the weather guy tells us that tomorrow will be a lovely day and Sunday is going to be a top ten weather day! So we have a nice weekend to look forward to! I'm glad you've selected a mover. Yes, it will be a lot of work but then you'll be home! Take care of yourself and have a good day - and maybe read that book today!
ReplyDeleteHappy Friday, Lynda! It is cloudy and cool in Ohio! I am glad as my AC is out and won’t be fixed until Thursday. I love your townhouse. Yay, you have a mover! How exciting! Tommy is 2 today. A little party after dinner. Lol Have a wonderful evening! Extra hugs for you today!
ReplyDeleteNice to hear from yu--=cool here also, but I like it!--It was a much better day to-day--I haven't cried even once-- LyndA
DeleteSo proud of you!!
DeleteI think it was good business sense for the farmers to put storage lockers on their land, even if they still farm some of it. Farming, for small farms, is a perilous business financially. They are meeting a need and able to take care of their families. :D
ReplyDeleteI cook for one also. I tend to 'batch cook' a family pack of chicken thighs or chicken breasts, then put two servings or in small storage containers in the freezer. That way I don't waste, but have protein ready to put on a salad or on the plate veggies and carbs. I have an Aldi about a mile from my house, so pop in a couple of times a week to get fresh produce. I buy my meats at Costco for the most part, so only have to go in there once a month and stock up. Like you, I make and enjoy lots of soups, especially in cold weather.
Happy Friday!
It is a challenge to eat and cook for one-- a whole new way of life-- but I am learning--Lynda
DeleteI know how lonesome you feel without Fred....but I don't have any words to help you. When my DH died, I was sad because he was not in any of my dreams except for one or two times...and I had a hard time understanding why I didn't dream about him when I missed him so terribly. Maybe because I was thinking about him so much during the day? At any rate, I do dream about him on rare occasions. Two nights ago, he was in my dreams and I woke up feeling so happy because it felt like I actually got to spend time with him! Is Fred in your dreams? About cooking - I used to love to make meals for the two of us....and my hubby even liked eating leftovers! But now there is no joy in eating alone. I do enjoy when I get to have lunch with a friend or two or my book club or church group, and I love having something to take home to eat for another meal! Plus my daughter is always bringing me leftovers that she freezes for me! She is such a sweetheart! So hang in there, friend. Widowhood is hard but we somehow survive! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteSandra--I HAVE YER BOOK!!! --I read it --one chapter--in bed, last night--- Thank Yu SO SO much!! --I hadn't picked up the mail in a long time, so that was my fault that it was held up--Whatta helpful book!!--I can't thank yu enough--so kind of you to send it--so so kind of yu to send it--
DeleteSandra, what book?
DeleteMy dear, give yourself some grace! It’s ok to have a good cry! You’ve been through a lot.
ReplyDeleteAwww, you know Fred is w/you in your heart, but . . . obviously that’s not the same as him being with you. He’s looking down on you.
Pretty soon you’ll be back home. Lots to arrange and then get settled. It will all happen.
HUGS and blessings
Barb
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Oh Barb--Yesterday was so hard and to-day was good--I did not cry at all--and yes--WE are now into May--so just a couple more months--Lynda
DeleteI cannot imagine what you are going through. My heart feels for you, as I know I would be totally lost without my hubby. We have been married 53 years. All I know I definitely would rely on my faith to get me through all of this. I know the wheel of life is counting down for us. As for cooking even cooking for 2 is not easy. I've learned to freeze a lot. I bought a vacuum sealer, so that they stay fresher long. I also buy in bulk and freeze what I'm not going to use right away. Makes a difference. Know that you are loved and that there are many who truly care for you. I know you'll find your way. Time has to take over for you. Enjoy your day the best you can.
ReplyDeleteToday has been so much better--no crying----It has been such a terrible thing to go thru-- -and I guess we all have to die--but--- it was such a shock to me-- It will get better-- Lynda
DeleteLynda, I am happy you decided on a mover., And you have 'company' coming! That (and your move) is something to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteYou will probably cry, sis, your whole life...but the tears will get less often.
I can still cry for those in Spirit that I have lost, too.
What would we do without our pets? I couldn't do it! I have had to for short periods and feel bereft.
You got shopping done early. That's great. I just took 'Becca around today. I may do an online order tomorrow. It's a short day as my fave deejays are coming for karaooke.
Monday at 9 AM I take my car in to finally get my new windshield and key fob.
We need things to look forward to. It gives us something to think about so we don't think of what's wrong in the present moment.
Hmm...I think most of us could use a storage locker, too!
I saved the meme about the pets. You really find some good ones.
No comments on yesterday's, but I will still check her at end of day.
Hope your day gets better and better. {{{HUGS}}} Love, Maggie
Yes, Sushi sleeps on my chest at night--funny girl--- and Lopez is much better without Freds canes-- He mustve been terrified yu klnow--He ios a much calmer little dog now----Oh--I haven't cried all day-- LyndA
DeleteLynda, most of my life I have eaten frozen dinners, as I don't like to cook, especially for one, and I've been one most of my life, LOL.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was married (I was already 40 by then and he was 59), my husband had lived alone after his divorce for quite some time, so he liked to cook his own simple meals, and then I just had frozen dinners then, too. If I get bored of frozen dinners, I just pick up fast food or fast casual food, or eat out.
I live in Newark, Ohio, it's much smaller than Columbus, when I lived the majority of my life. It can be farmland around here too. We have just a gazillion of rental units. Right across the street from the condo community, in fact. But I've never used storage.
I'm so sorry that you're sad. I think the secret to being lonely, is to get out, and volunteer, or take a class, or whatnot. Sightsee, maybe. There are so many many less fortunate out there than us, and if you can help someone else, it sure helps you too. Even I can get lonely if I don't happen to go anywhere, and I'm an introvert. I work now, part-time, because I HAD to, for my mental health. I was so, so depressed just sitting around, and I have no friends here since I moved 5 years ago. I just LOVE working, I just love my job. Some days I just work extra hours because I feel like it. :) - Marti
Marti yu eat like I do--- whateverI can pick up--LOL-- I used to cook ALL the time--not any more--- YU have a job??-- Maybe that is a good idea--Anything go leep busy I guess-- I am so happy yu told me all that-- We share a lot--- Lynda
DeleteI'm happy today is better for you. I'm sorry about your tear filled day yesterday. You can talk to Fred anytime. He will always be with you. The pets are eager to listen anytime.
ReplyDeleteGlad you decided on a mover. The storage lockers on farmland is a new idea to me. We don't utilize farmland for anything but farming here. Do you have a LOT in the storage unit?
I cook for two and that's not fun either. I bake meats and freeze individual packages thus only need to prepare veggies and a side salad.
Enjoy your cousin visit. Being around others is a good antidote for loneliness.
Stay strong. It will all work out.
Big hugs, much love and prayers
Marge/rainy St.Louis
aww Marge --No I have nothing in a storage locker--but son#2 has--There were hundreds of these lockers--- Lynda
DeleteI just had a thought. Just now. Have you ever tried journaling? I think that would be helpful to you, particularly when there is no one available at the time to listen. Take that time to mourn/feel/cry if tears come. Then, tell yourself that is it for the day, you will put it away until the next day. Schedule it daily. I've heard it done that way. Just trying to help! Marti
ReplyDeleteYu really are a big help Marti --a -Great idea-- Lynda
DeleteSorry, I have having some health issues, so have been offline for days............having gone thru the loss of David, it takes time to learn to be alone Lynda.....Fred would truly want you to adjust and roll on...........it just that you have to be patient with yourself. In time you will remember all the happy memories and smile.............smile because of the long time you were together. You had a good man and you loved each other.............smile because you had many years together...
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