-and that day is---------TO_DAY__!
There is no-one who is going to help me --tell me sweet nothings-- advise me to do "this "--or "that"--and to-day, for some reason, I want to lean on a person who can say, "Go ahead, yes, whatever you are up to, go head--you are right! You CAN do it!-- You go girl!""
I am packing--- I am getting rid of "stuff" AGAIN--- I am lonely--- I just want this move to be over with---but--- This move has to be all co-ordinated with the August 1st date--the move -in date with the townhouse. And meanwhile, I am trying to juggle my present life with Son#2 and his wife, who might be wishing me in China--or -someplace far away, so they could live their lives, quietly with no-one asking "HOW DO I?"--do whatever--- And I don't blame them--
So, I try very hard to "think for myself"--
"dig deep"-"Stick to my guns"--
You see, I miss my husband--- very much!
One more move--- and then I think I'll get my wits back (as Mom used to say)--and I will be living in a place familiar to me, once again--if I am able to"hold it together" till the wits return--and--there in lies the problem--
I presently do not feel schmorky-dorky---or even Whackadoodle enough--- Somehow I must muster up the stamina to survive the chaotic mess, and "stick to my guns " --courage to survive this next move that is going to happen--whether I am ready or not--
Time for a few "blasts from the past"--
Good morning, dear Lynda! I wish I was closer to help. I hope you can visit Medina sometime so we can have ice cream. Cloudy today in Ohio but yard work will be best that way. I know your son and his wife feel blessed to have you there and will miss you lots! I think since the move is getting closer it is making you feel a bit overwhelmed with busy thoughts but it will be so worth it. Stay strong and your wits will follow. You can do it! You are the strongest woman I know! Big hugs!
ReplyDeleteTruly amazing--Thank yu for boosting my moral-- Lordy Be-=-I do need thAt right now--One day, yers I will get to Medina--Lynda
DeleteGood morning "Bunky" lol
ReplyDeleteYou're coming into a very stressful time...again....and that causes all sorts of feelings to bubble up. Breathe, stay with the tasks at hand little by little. Pick a closet or a cabinet and complete that task. It's like...how do you eat an elephant...one bite at a time. You CAN make your own decisions and choices.
Take breaks, take a walk, take some donations to thrift store then resume the task at hand. You took too much with you so don't repeat that mistake. Simplify.
Hugs dear Lynda. Feelings do pass. Hang in. Remember the goal...going home. Unburden yourself from :things".
Marge, St.Louis j
Oh Marge--=Yes--Deep breathes-- I have the movers coming to pack but thought I would do some now anyway-- bu--then I have the boxes to walk around--Oh well--Lynda
DeletePerhaps you should let the movers pack as planned and quit making the move harder than it needs to be. You are living in a pretty town from what I have been able to learn, so get out and enjoy it. It sounds like you have made a plan, you have a timeline, and so maybe you need to relax and let it all happen.
ReplyDeleteLosing your life partner is hard. It changes everything. It takes time to adjust to a single life, a lot of time. Be kind to yourself, be gentle with yourself. I am sorry that you feel lonely. I don’t think of myself as feeling lonely, but I often feel very much alone, and I think there is a difference.
Unfortunately, the only choice we have if we are going to move forward is to soldier on and hope the good days outnumber the bad. You are an amazing woman, you will survive the move, and you will make a new home for yourself in familiar surroundings. As the other commenter said, breathe. Susan/Colirado
Thanks Susan--- Yes as I pack boxes they just get in the way---afraid they may fall n Lopez-- Maybe yu are right -I should just leave it eh?--Lynda
DeleteAhh I see that the emotions are running out of whack again for you. Just remember you got this! Take time and remember one thing at a time. Make a list to organize what you want to accomplish. Also remember you were strong enough to raise 5 wonderful children and made it through that, you can do this. I can understand leaning on children as that is what they are for. They leaned on you all their life and now it's time for them to take some of burden. You're still reeling from the shock of all this. I'm praying and hoping that this next move will be your last. There is no easy out to all of this. Take a deep breath and forge ahead. Don't fret, if you don't finish packing. Take it minute by minute if you have to. Do a little bit, then go do something else, like play the piano to help you relax. The less you stress the easier it will be for you to get stuff done. Wishing you all the best!
ReplyDeletegreat ideas-Thanks for sharing--The key to all this is to stay calm--and NO MORE MOVES FOR ME_--Hugs for your kind thoughts-=Lynda
DeleteIt's Kathy. The time will pass so quickly and one day you'll find yourself back in Elliot Lake! We're already half way through June! I still haven't planted my garden yet - maybe this afternoon if we don't get the storms they say are coming. You stay strong and you'll get through anything! Have a good day.
ReplyDeleteGosh almighty--I am trying to be strong but its pure hell without Fred--Hugs, Lynda
DeleteHi, sis. I alternate between the good and not so good. When something happens that lets me down, I just take a break and do something that makes me happier.
ReplyDeleteYou are so excited about your move! Good for you. It gives you something to look forward to.
Love the photos...and that last meme, especially.
It's about time for lunch here. It will be late for me, but that's okay.
I am going to see if the laundry room is open for business...for me...with no one else using the larger washer. It will be a trick putting everything on my walker to take...clothes, quarters, detergent, dryer sheet. But I CAN DO IT.
It's warmer here, a bit of blue showing in the sky. We had T storms earlier and a chance of more.
I can hardly wait 'til Saturday when I can drive.
Checking back later, dear. Hope all our days (me and your followers and you) will go the way we hope. {{{HUGS}}} Love, Maggie
I wish yu had yer own washer--and dryer without going to the laundry room-- I am still using yer soap pads but I jut bought those pods to use when yer washer pads are gone--easier than a big bin of soap-- I enjoy all yer comments-- Rest ---=you!!!--Lynda
DeleteAs my Mom always told me, when times were rough, "Hang in there, toots. You'll come out on the other side of this just fine." HANG IN THERE. You are doing it day by day.
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Oh, love the photos!
I like that--"Toots""--I am hanging i --tough tho as each day is so loooooong--Lynda
DeleteHi Lynda - Sometimes when you are feeling overwhelmed it helps to take a break. The last time I moved, I packed boxes for a while and then I would treat myself to coffee at a little cafe. I would take the newspaper with me and would read the paper or work on the crossword puzzle while enjoying my coffee. Sometimes it’s just nice to be out among people. A few times I struck up conversations with other people which was like a bonus.
ReplyDeleteI’m on my own as well and it can feel lonely living in what often feels like a “couples world.” So much of your life involved making sure Himself was taken care of which you did with consistency and love. Even though you were taking care of so many of the household responsibilities, he was still there. I am so sorry you are having to navigate the world without him now. You have such a kind heart, a positive attitude, and love for family and friends. I am sending you wishes for a peaceful evening and a happy day tomorrow. Feel your sorrow or frustration. One of the wonderful things about you is your ability to find the positive and to bravely continue on. These feelings will ease. ❤️
awwwww Yu are so good!--Yes I took good care of Himself--BUT HE STILL DIED!!-----and-- I do miss him so much-- Yu know, we never discussed "dying"-- Why did we not??--OH LORD_-Now I am crying--Will the tears ever stop??--Lynda
DeleteRD in AZ here My dear friend you just do what makes you feel best it does not matter what anyone else does or says if they do not like it too bad you do you and it will be fine you got friends who will check in on you
ReplyDeleteThank yu so much-- Yes I need help---= so so alone! I never knew it would be so hard o cope without yer sidekick-- So happy yu wrote Thank yu-Lyndat
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