Remember that you are special!

 GOOD MORNING--thunder storms this AM--- lots of rain--so, Lopez and I have NOT been out in it--yet!-----It feels like "fall" is  kicking in ---

Yesterday, the blinds got purchased---AND put up--unbelievable!  Gil, the workman, and I went to "The Hart " store--bought them, after checking what seemed like a million boxes, looking for the right measurement.  Should we put them on the inside of the window--or--the outside frame?--Well, that depended on what blind--what box, showed each measurement--so, we purchased them (6 blinds)- brought them home--AND --they fit every window--unbelievable!------and--they really do look good--

It took most of the day, but, they are hung now---  AND--I CAN CLOSE THEM AT NIGHT-- WooWoo!

We did 4 rooms I think!

So, finally,  this place is feeling--AND looking like home! It takes time ! 

So, how are you feeling this morning?--Are you happy?

Yes, remember that!!!

Think about  the above---remember how special you are!

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Have the best day ever!

Yesterday I had to correct "stuff" on the computer here--By the time I finished, it was almost noon--You see, while out in the Peterborough area, Son#2b added some of my bills, onto my Visa, which I was unaware of--So, I decided that "I " must decide how to pay these bills, and it helps if I see them----  so, I guess you might say, I have taken control of my life--my bills--and, working on a new computer makes everything even more difficult , with passwords etc--So, to straighten everything out, it was afternoon, before we finished---

                        And then it was "hair day"--  Life sometimes gets in the way doesn't it?-

Lopez and I have been "on the walk"--and he did his business--It is sunny and not too cool--

kinda nice!

-The one thing that needs to be done here ASAP--- is the window coverings--We have nothing over any window---I was going to get a store to come in and do the works-- measure, then hang the drapes or whatever I decide on--but, that seems to cost 50 million dollars--so, I guess we will measure, and I'll get my "job man" to install whatever I decide on---sheers or verticals--or blinds--

                                    So that is about "IT"--I did miss you all yesterday--How are you doing?--Are you feeling strong?--Sometimes we must lower our standards somewhat, to be strong--and other times we must "stick to our guns" as Dad used to say, to be strong--change our attitudes, and take what we can  live with to get the job done!

                                    a blast from the past--  a family reunion--"way back when"-----I am in the front row--sitting down, dressed in a white short outfit--Tim, (son#4) is sitting besidev me, facing me--

````````````I hope to-day will be  a great day for you--MAKE IT THE BEST DAY EVER!--Be kind to everyone--because everyone if fighting their own battle-- a smile will make their day   happier!

                                                                Good Morning to you all!

Think Positive---

                Sunshine---  and Lollipops--That's what we can have to-day, if we choose  to--------It feels cooler--- but-----we know that "Fall" is around the corner--To-day however we choose  to be happy---

The shed in the back yard is almost up-- It will store  outdoor chairs--shovels, rakes, and "stuff" I used to keep in the garage--  no garage here--I bought this shed---and the workers  I have hired are putting it together--  lots of screws  and bolts etc--Hopefully this is the last thing to get done before the winter sets in--And then there are all the pictures , and clocks, leaning against the wall, to find a place to hang them. 

Yesterday the piano tuner was here--  the same piano tuner that we had in Elliot Lake, before--Pianos do not like to be moved, so he worked on it a long time, to bring the notes into tune--It always sounds so good after he has tuned it--

And I hear that Air Canada is  back to all their flights now--not on strike anymore--That is good to hear. Son#2 will be happy to get back to flying--

I found the picture below , hidden on this computer-- I thought it quite a nice photo of son#3 and Himself--I sure do miss  Himself--My whole life has changed dramatically--

So much to do, to try to carry on---  live a life which is so different than it was---

 Perhaps I should try to read something posiitive.  try to think about 3 things I should be doing,   to keep busy---think about  a reason  that I CAN do whatever ----  It's like one has to plan events in each day--just to keep busy---and not to think about all the sadness in my life right now--

One must be strong---

Positive thoughts--

 

LA DEE DA AND POO POO DEE DO

 Good morning--  We have had rain overnight----and it seems a lot cooler---I guess "fall" is in the air---

So, I DID IT!--I drove ALL THE WAY To SUDBURY YESTERDAY----  by myself-- Well, I had Lopez with me and another friend, who drove  me back home , as my eyes were dilated from the Eye Dr examining them.---  There was heavy heavy traffic--but--I did the drive--The Eye Dr said there wasn't much change in my eyes, so that was good news.--  The girl with me, drove us back here as my eyes had been dilated.---And we took little Lopez with us, as he is happy as long as he can see me.---  He is pretty tired this AM however!-----so, that appointment is over for another year! 

So the gate is on the new fence --and we have a fenced , completely fenced, small yard-- safe for Lopez-

The gate is now finisher also--  So, next Spring, I can load the back of the fenced yard with flowers while Lopez plays--WITHOUT A  LEASH___lucky little fellow!

So, are you happy?----  I hope you are not sad!---  I am not crying as much--still quite lonely--but, you know WE CAN CONTINUE ON, EVEN IF WE DO LOSE A LOVED ONE!----In fact, WE MUST CONTINUE ON---  and  if we are sad, it does help to get outside and talk to others out there--about anything! Geepers Creepers--If I can do it, so can everyone else! 

Music helps --In fact, the piano tuner will be here to-day to tune this poor piano , which I have lugged everywhere with me--So--turn up the music---It HELPS!

                            It doesn't matter what the music is--make it up--sing--- sing loudly---

It is a beautiful season out there , just beginning--AND_--  ----------WE ARE A  PART OF IT!!

  ``````````    ``        WE MUST GET OUT AND ENJOY THE COLOURS 

    

                    

                    

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Remember to be Brave!

 I am FINALLY HOME!!  --I had go  to Sudbury to-day , to the Eye Doctor--  the Opthamologist-------And she told me that my eyes have not changed very much-- which was so good---  but--she still dilated the eyes so I had a driver, thank goodness, who drove me home, as I could not see with my eyes dilated.

I did all the driving there, (a 2hr drive) from Elliot Lake to Sudbury in heavy traffic--  I  was proud that I was able to drive the whole way to Sudbury--

I took Lopez with me---  He is quite tired to-nite--needs to go yo bed--  

But---I am now home--------- The new fence in the back yard is looking good--almost finished--  

and I hope that your day went well--I miss yhu all--Lynda

Thank you for being you--Remember to be brave! 

We Can Do It!

Good morning--  It is a cold morning--I still had the AC on, so, when I got out of bed, it was freezing in here-- turned off the AC--and began to look for small heaters for now--We had a huge thunder storm last night , go through  here---and I guess from now on, the hot  days will be few, and the cooler fall weather seems to have rolled in--

So, little Lopez  and I did our early morning walk--Of course he did his business--and I carried it home. Gone are the days one could just leave "that business" on someone's lawn---I will have to call retirement Living, and have them check this weird oil stove---(or is it a gas stove?)---  In any event, there must be a pilot light in it, so it should be checked--I think)--

                    The new fence is  beautiful---  lacking a gate which will be added soon--

It doesn't  look like it, but it was very costly to build it--the wooden boards are expensive, and the 2 people who worked on it need to be paid.----  But, when I am out in the yard now, with Lopez, he will be safe!--Plus, now I can help  dog- sit,  Son#3 with is 2 dogs------

To-day it is Ava's Birthday--16 years old---son#3 daughter---  exciting for her--and a Birthday party to-night at their home --We will all go to wish her the best birthday ever!

                                    ReMEMBER WHEN YOU WERE   16 YEARS OLD???----

LIFE goes on--and on--  and the best part is, we are  coping--because we have to---We have to be stronger than we even know we are---

                                   We ALL are truly amazing-- and we must remember that-- ---

This IS a new Day! WooWoo!

--and we have rain falling----It sounds wonderful!- I cannot remember a rainy day, in a very long time--I turned off  the AC-------and opened the windows---

The fence builders were here all day yesterday--digging fence holes----cementing in the posts , after digging up countless rocks--There will eventually be a gate , coming into the yard--at the corner of the house. -----The other 3 sides of the yard were already fenced--We are just adding the fourth side, which would enclose the yard for little Lopez, and for that, I had to get a permit from the city--

                                                                So, "Good Morning-"-----

I see  that Air Canada  is on strike---and it has caused quite a mess--as their Flight attendants are asking for reimbursement for their long working hours--I did not realize that these flight attendants only get paid, when the Air Craft is moving--That does not seem right--  These Flight Attendants show you to your seats--make sure that you are comfortable--Do you want to sit by the aisle--  ??-- They help you with your "on board" luggage------ Are you in the right seat?--They should be paid way before the plane begins to move----(my opinion)----Hopefully this can be rectified--Why do women always have to fight for what they deserve?-

This is Elliot Lake--_  looks peaceful doesn't it? The lake is clean --has a sandy bottom--and a sandy beach--  and look at the hills in the back ground--This is the reason we moved here years ago--The lakes ion Ottawa were polluted-- and here , the water was clean--with life guards  on the beach to protect everyone in the water--The children took their swim 

lessons on this lake--AND THERE ARE SEVERAL LAKES, WITH BEACHES  IN THIS AREA___

So--It is a new day----Are you feeling strong?--ready to face the day?--

NEVER EVER FORGET THAT!

 

A morning reminder that you are amazing!

                                            Well, exercising  one hour a day sounds good to me--

                                           The alternative doesn't seem good!  Lopez and I need to get out and do our early morning walk around the block---Right now he is asleep on the chair here beside me------

                The wash is in--the AC is turned off--(It seems quite cool outside  so far this AM)--

Last night, Son#1 invited me for dinner at his house--out at the lake--- Lopez and I were out there sitting on his dock-  so nice----of him!  -It was so good to eat with him---Dim Sum---Chinese  goodies--

                                                                        such a treat--

So, I am trying very hard to  pretend  everything is good in my life--not to dwell  on the sadness--trying to remember that  life is happening the way it should be and I must accept it --that I cannot change  things --and crying does not help!

I must tell you all also, that we got the permission to extend the fence in the back yard , for Lopez--with a gate-- We had to apply to the city to do this--to get a building permit--which I picked up yesterday-- The fence was already around 3 sides  of the yard--It just needed to be extended--so---

                                    Life goes on---and on--and we are a part of to-day--We CAN  handle  everything to-day-- because we all are amazing--Right?--

 

Try to be happy--

 We CAN do hard things--and  if we believe that we can do hard things--then we will try  and succeed to do hard things!---  I AM late posting--- because  Gil, my workman, and myself, had to go to the main office of this rental unit, pick up the land plan--- then take it to city hall for a permit--and now we must wait for the permit---all, just to build a fence in the back yard here , for Lopez--

And it is "hair day"---so, I washed my hair with hand soap--  (I need go buy some shampoo-)---and Barb, the hair dresser will set it later--  --AND , THERE IS MORE-----I turned off the AC---and then tried to open a window--AND THE WINDOWS WILL NOT OPEN--so, I GOT FRED's HAMMER AND VOILA_-  THE WINDOW WENT FLYING OPEN_--and----  sob sob --there is more--my friend  who lives in town here died  last night--  my age--maybe younger--such a lovely Lady--=and now she is ---gone--so so sad!!

                                                        Sometimes life is so difficult isn't it??

AND----  I MISS My Husband-- --Where is he?----  Is he OK?----Can he really be in Heaven--???????? And if he is, can he see me struggling along down here on earth?--Will we ever see each other again??--

                    Life just goes on and on, doesn't it?  I have so many questions--and no answers---

Maybe playing the piano will help--

Talking to all of you helps-----
This afternoon too, I will go out to Son#1's dock--- Fred's ashes are out there---Maybe the good Lord will talk to me ---tell me how my husband is doing--give me strength --tell me that the world is unfolding the way it should---

I need to be strong--We all need to be strong--and we must try

to be happy--

Don't worry about a Thing--!

                                                            Good day to you all-- 

Is your day going along alright??--It is hotter than hot , here still--but--I did turn down the AC--which might be a good sign, that cooler days are in the future-----

--Son #2 is in Belgium----returning back to Canada to-day--He sent a couple of pictures yesterday---  like--Belgian Chocolate--

                                                        and-guess what??--a McDonalds---

                                                Imagine eating in a MacDonalds in Belgium-- !!!!

So, I continue  to unpack boxes---- so many boxes---  but I can leave some in the storage room for now--- and hopefully get to them later--

Last night, Son#1 called and asked me to have supper with them. It was fantastic to eat with people,----so  awful to eat alone---When one eats alone, I usually cannot eat whatever I had  ready to  polish off--Somehow the meal loses it's appeal!----I even took Lopez out to Son#1's house and he got along well with Son#1's German Shepherd-

A couple of pictures--blasts from the past--of Fred and I ---Below--1957  --in Ottawa---  no children

one Halloween several years later---

I hope that your day goes well-- that you enjoy the heat--Soon it will be Fall---  then Winter---  Get your walk in------so important for your body--Drink lots of water--

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