It is Saturday, February the 28th-- and I am blogging-- and where was I yesterday, you might be saying?--Well, I was in the "depths of despair--"---and now you might be saying-- "Well, why? What happened that you could not blog?"------because my Doctor--my new Doctor, told me that I could not refuse to take his memory test--which I did---"I refused to take the memory test"---- so, he said, "Well, if you do not take my memory test, I will take away your licence to drive"--So, I immediately had a heart attack--- and died --Well, that heart attack stuff really didn't happen, but--it could have--After all the trouble to get here--to stay alive after Fred died--to move--again--then again-and even AGAIN_-- then move into a tiny house--"ALONE"--so--I was in the "depths of despair"---and if I tried to write it all into a "Depths of Despair Blog"--then all of you would be in that same state-so, I tried to just survive the day yesterday--knowing that "tomorrow"--which is now to-day-well, things might be better--And are they?--- well, sorta--because I am with you all--
#2. Be Humble.
#3.You cannot always have things exactly as you wish.
and there are always my children-who depend on me to keep going
So, I guess , the moral of this horrible story is, if you are told to take a memory test-- just do it--It saves a ton of tears--because there was no blog---as my world fell apart--and-- You know--I do enjoy talking to you all--My phone number is ---( well, just ask me)-- just in case you need to get the "low-down"--
So glad you are OK - I worry when you don't blog! I am glad you didn't have a real heart attack! Please don't worry about a memory test - you will pass with flying colors! I have taken them through my health insurance and I am certain that you have nothing to worry about! Anybody who writes a daily blog that hundreds of people follow is very smart and will do well on the easy questions like "what day is it?" will pass easily! You are strong- you are smart-you can do this!!!! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!
ReplyDeleteSandra--Thanks for telling me I can do that memory thing--I need to drive--I do not drive at night-- because of my cataract surgery yrs ago---- Lordy Be-- I take the test on the 3rd-- -- Thank yu for yer confidence in me Sandra--Lynda
DeleteGood morning Lynda, I was worried yesterday because you didn't blog, not even a short one. Glad to see you here today. I'm sorry you became so upset at the doctor's office about taking a memory test. I've never had a reason to think you were having memory problems. You seem sharp as a tack. I won't tell you not to feel what you were feeling only because people feel what they feel. With that said, I think you would do well with a memory test. You difinitely do not want to lose your license. It's important for you to get out and about. I hope your weekend is enjoyable and that you don't have to deal with snow.
ReplyDeleteMaureen from California
Dear Maureen-=-ThAnk you for all your confidence in me--When I first arrived here, yes I had severe memory problems--Fred dying-- plus 3 moves over a very short period of time--so, it was hard for me to remember everything----Life has improved--I like my tiny house--I know I can survive here very well--I have people I know and Retirement Living have allowed me to make major changes (Fencing etc)-to live here like I want--with a wee puppy--I am hoping the memory stuff was because of so much stress at that time----I will let you all know anyhow--The test is on the 3rd--Lynda
DeleteGod bless you Lynda. Yes, I believe stress causes changes in the brain and our thinking process. You have sorted yourself out, made a home for yourself, established relationships in your community, have an eating partner/friend in Dave and have demonstrated that you're able to live an independent life. Believe in yourself and your abilities and you'll be fine.
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Hello, Lynda, it's Marti. Oftentimes stress can cause memory problems. I just came through all that, at work. Moving into any new place can cause severe stress and brain fog, it did for me. When I got there, to the new building, I had been overly excited, as I had been looking forward to a new building. Anyway, my hands kept shaking, and I could not for the life of me, remember a thing, hardly. I kept writing down a location for my posted items, and then putting them in the wrong places, people were buzzing around me, and I almost had a nervous breakdown. And I'm only 67. Meds can cause brain fog, they do for me. I take a LOT of meds. The answer is to try to keep things as simple as you can, do not take on too much at once, and just take it one day at a time. Perhaps you are worried you might be getting dementia, or something, I don't know, which would maybe cause you to be afraid of a memory test. But, under all the stress you have been under, negative AND positive stress, anyone, let alone a person "of a certain age," would struggle. I see you coming out the other end, you are improving day to day, and I believe that "you GOT this!" I took a memory test, about 2 yrs ago, because by the time I walked out of a room into another room, I had forgotten what I was told. He just told me that I just processed things slower, but didn't have dementia. I was mightily relieved. Now that I see myself coming out of that again, I see that it was just stress.
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It's Kathy. I completely agree with the two women above. You are the smartest, strongest woman I have ever known and I only wish I could meet you in person. When things are hard for me, and these last 4-5 years have been very challenging, I can always count on you to cheer me up and give me the strength to go on. I personally think it was rather unkind of that doctor - who is probably so young that he couldn't possibly understand how hard it is to grow old - threatened you like that. But that said, every time I see my Primary Doctor, once a year so I can get my meds renewed, I have to take a memory test. In America I believe it is a requirement by Medicare. It's always a dumb test - one question is to draw a clock and then to put the hands to 11:10. I mean, who looks at clocks anymore? Everything is electronic. Another question the nurse says 3 words - then we do everything else - and then I have to tell her what the 3 words were. I have no doubt that you will pass that test with flying colors! And I will be praying for that very outcome! You have had a very difficult year - selling your home, moving where himself could be more comfortable, losing himself (which is the hardest of hard), moving back and adjusting to a new way of living. And you've survived! I have faith in you! Don't worry anymore. Have a wonderful day! Oh, and we're here for the hard things too!
ReplyDeleteMorning Lynda,
ReplyDeleteI am sure that was a surprise about the memory test. No one wants to lose the ability to drive especially when they depend on driving to get around. Just try to remain calm and all will be ok. Take some deep breaths before you take the test and stay positive.
Now today is a new day, get out and enjoy it or stay inside and enjoy it. Either way, Have a Good Day!
Hugs,
Jackie
Hi Lynda! It is 50 in Ohio today! I was going out but my ears are buzzing so maybe tomorrow. I am so sorry you had a rough day yesterday. I feel bad you have to take that silly test. You will do great! I know it! Enjoy your day! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteGood morning, sis.
ReplyDeleteWe all thought something was going wrong yesterday, I bet.
It has been scientifically proven that older people have better long term memories, but their short-term memories are not so good. That DOES NOT mean you have any kind of dementia! Did the doc tell you the results?
After a warmer couple days, we have lots of snow falling again. It is only 7F.
I had planned to finally go back to karaoke tonight, but I may not. John took the sliding doors off my storage closet so I can clean it out and get rid of things I haven't used in over a year. That's what the 'experts' say to do.
Lucky has had lunch, as have I, and is already begging for a nap. I will come back later.
Please feel better. {{{HUGS}}} Love, Maggie