To-day is Tuesday, January the 13th--after 9am---so, it is day light--I have already shovelled snow --around the car-- and a lot more is predicted to fall any time--like--another foot or so--Hopefully I do NOT have to go anywhere--Oh--I also have the garbage out by the road--ready for pick-up---even the recyclables--
Lopez has done his business out in the yard--(another good thing!)--So--Are you happy--(and you know it?--)--- I was happy--still trying to be--but--I am questioning my existence on "living here alone"--Was I crazy to think I could do this??--I am 83 yrs "OLD"__Is that too old to live alone?-- I never used to think it was--but--now with my thyroid out of "whack''--it makes me kinda wonder-- Everything seems to be OK----but what if the Dr cannot get the thyroid back to normal??---Will it make a difference on being capable to live alone??--Lord love a Duck eh??--Maybe I won't dwell on all that right now--
#1.Wise people listen to those who oppose them-
#2.Love beyond boundaries, beyond the physical, beyond the human.
#3.Wish upon a star.
We must be "optimostic-I MUST BE ---
This was me--many moons ago--very optimistic about everything-==-
So--- life is not easy is it?---good times and difficult times-- Life and death-- and, we must cope-- and it sometimes is so hard to cope--but-- I guess "We must be strong"-accept the good and the bad--but--wouldn't it be nice if sometimes someone would just tell us that we CAN do this-- like--live everyday--accept both the good AND the bad--and only cry tears of joy--not sadness--
--BE STRONG- NO MORE being a WIMP--Can I be that way?--Hopefully--OF COURSE I CAN!!!
Looking out for better days for sure-- Trying----Is life easy?---confusing---
Good Morning,
ReplyDeleteOh, Lynda, you are letting your thoughts about living alone get the best of you. Take a moment to breathe. Maybe wait to see what the endocrinologist says and go from there.
It will all be ok. Try not to let the worrying get the best of you. You are strong and capable. Hang tough!
Settle in and watch some movies or shows that make you happy or take your mind off your worries. Hug Sushi and Lopez.
Hugs,
Jackie
Jackie--Thank yu for telling me to stand up and face the world--not question everything==Lynda
DeleteIt's Kathy. No, life is certainly not easy. I think you shouldn't worry about whether or not you can live alone - because right now you are doing it. I'm sure the doctors will get your thyroid under control - it's amazing what they can do these days. My grandmother was 87 when she passed away and had lived alone for several years after my grandfather passed away! I think I need to stop watching the news. It's just distressing me more and more. Our leadership won't take responsibility for the bad decisions they have made and instead are encouraging the citizens to protest - which has been very disruptive to life! It's been a week today and it's time for them to stop - don't they have jobs???? Anyway, I wish you a very good day!
ReplyDeleteGood morning, sis.
ReplyDeleteIt's beautiful here...blue sky and 39F already. The snow you have may well head our way.
What relation is baby Andie? So adorable...and, of course, Hannah always is adorable.
You posted that one of Allison and Fred just recently. They sure do look happy.
Everything has positives and negatives, and the negatives can really be a challenge to deal with. I switch to thinking and focusing on something positive as soon as I can.
I don't think 83 is too old to live alone! You have helpers, friends, pets. You are not really alone.
I have a busy day today. I am taking a friend (a handicapped young lady) to Walmart. I might as well get what I need, too, rather than placing a delivery order.
'Becca, my wheelless friend, has covid.
Lucky let me sleep late this morning...I need to meet that friend in half an hour and haven't even eaten breakfast yet. I'd better get moving, but I will return later.
Please find things to enjoy today, Lynda! {{{HUGS}}} Love, Maggie
Your blog this morning reminded me about a YouTube podcast that I listened to a couple of days ago. I don't remember exactly what the title of it was, but it was something like 5 things that determine if you are doing well as you age. I don't remember everything because he actually gave 7 things and you needed to be doing well in 5 of the areas.....the ones that stood out to me were that if you had strong legs and could do things like go for walks, get up and down stairs, etc. you were ahead of the game and many people who are 60 to 80+ years old. Another was to have a just at least one friend who you could talk to and share thoughts and problems with. But the one that made me remember it was that being able to live alone - having your own place was a big plus! So you are aging well! Please don't worry about things that might or might not happen! Live each day to the fullest. Be happy to wake up each morning and thank God for giving you another day! Worrying about those "what ifs" do not help your peace of mind.....a positive attitude filled with gratitude is the path to follow! Hugs!
ReplyDelete“don’t bleed before you are cut” is my advice to you and your worries. You have your little home the way you want it, you still drive and are always out there shoveling, you seem to do just fine on your own. You were doing okay before you got the bloodwork news, so what has really changed? Wait and see what the specialists say.
ReplyDeleteIf you decide that you want to move into some sort of facility, then you can still do that at some point. So, enjoy your snow day at home, read a book or play the piano, and relax. Susan/Colirado.
Hi Lynda! It’s 42 and cloudy in Ohio. No snow but I think we are getting a couple inches tomorrow. I hope you taking your meds at night may balance it all out. Let’s hope. It will be fine. You do great with everything you do. Kloi is 10 today so I got her a toy at the pet shop and one for Tommy, the two year old. Maybe a pup cup of ice cream for them tonight. Hope your day is going well. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI understand those "second thoughts" about "being too old to..." fill in your favorite anxiety point. And I'm still 10 years younger than you are!
ReplyDeleteBut as long as we can still get up, take a breath and take care of our fur-friends, and be safe in our homes (we don't forget to take our meds, we don't forget to turn off the stove when we're done cooking, etc.) I think it's FINE to live on our own!
If they ever take my car keys away, or my vision completely fails, or I develop some disease that takes away mobility? Then I'll rethink those second thoughts, but meanwhile? I'm liking the independence.
Thyroid dosages may be "tricky" but it's one of the more livable conditions (I've been taking synthroid for nigh on to twenty years now and I kept on keeping on). We can do this, Lynda!
((( Big Hugs ))) Barb OKM
You've been living alone quite well; before that you took care of you and Fred quite well. You continue to take care of yourself, your living quarters, your animals better than some folks who are younger. Do you feel physically able, and mentally able to make your own decisions; to me it seems you are, but only you can answer that with reflection and not from momentary alarm. I tend to think giving up autonomy requires careful prayer and consideration.
ReplyDeleteFor me, one medical issue that can be resolved with medication adjustment would not disqualify me from being able to live alone. Whether you feel okay to live alone or not, only you can answer.
One thing I notice in your posts, is while you take care of house, pets, your health, the snow duty, and go out to a meal or a coffee with folks, you don't mention playing your piano or trying any 'new' stuff. I find for myself in retirement, that I get a bit 'blue' and anxious if my mind is not engaged, if I don't have a purpose. While I do have health issues, and some wear and tear on the body ... I continue to try new things to be engaged with my life so that I enjoy my alone time, and do things to interact regularly with friends along with serving at church, learning new things. It's been a rough time for you, and being suddenly alone in your home after decades of a house full, then a husband who needed you; adjustment and finding your footing can take some time and work. But I have faith that you can do this; I hope you will have faith in yourself as you transition into a different, but an it-can-be-beautiful life.
Happy Tuesday!
Hi Lynda,
ReplyDeleteNot understanding why you are questioning what you currently do...live alone! Please don't dwell on nor worry about thyroid issues unless you have something definitive. You haven't seen Dr's yet and taking meds correctly might make a big difference. Put on your positive face and keep on trudging. Please. Worry solves nothing. Nothing!
It's warm in St.Louis today...but temps set to drop 30 degrees in the next 2 days. Crazy temp swings here.
Put on your positive hat, count your blessings, and carry on. Play your piano, sing, love on Sushi and make today a great day.
Hugs
Marge in St.Louis
Oh my dear, you are NOT alone is questioning the validity of continuing to exist alone. But the HIGHER POWER. God, whatever you believe in, sees that you still have more to do here! Each of us may not know exactly what it is but that’s what being centered on the present in our day to day life helps to reveal to us.
ReplyDeleteI go through the thyroid wonks each and every Summer and Winter. I am sure that a change in dose of your medication (if needed) AND taking the med @ night will improve your #’s. And besides that, the #’s don’t always tell the whole tale. Do you feel very fatigued? Losing hair? dry skin? All those gradually improve as you take the medication the best way and your body gets used to it. Hang in there.
GREAT words of wisdom. and be optimistic. . . at least as much as is possible.
Love the photos! Big Beau was so handsome.
LOVE the photo of baby Andie.
Life IS a mix of good times and difficult times. The difficult times make us appreciate the good times a little more.
HUGS, blessings and carry on!
barb
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Hello, it's Marti. I feel that ONLY if you find yourself falling more and more, absolutely UNable to do something that is necessary to do, or being so absent minded that there are issues, such as almost starting a fire, or anything dangerous like that, then you are perfectly FINE to live alone. If there are issues happening, lots of them, then you know that and would be able to take action on it. You have to take just ONE DAY at a time. Don't look back, you aren't going that way, and don't look too far ahead, that hasn't even happened yet, live just RIGHT NOW. I have had many years of counseling, and these are things I was told. Are other people yammering at you about any of these things? If so, just tune them out. YOU know best - unless of course you are deep in dementia or something.
ReplyDeleteTake a deep breath.
Marti