Sunday in the rain--

--Holy Cow!-- It is the 23rd of November-and it is SUNDAY__-  We are VERY close--- to Christmas----

Last night I ate a lovely meal at Son#3's home--His wife cooked chicken over Basmati rice with a green salad--  It is lovely to eat with people!---They have a very cute new kitten--long fur--  orange , white and black fur--so sweet!---It seems that Christmas just might be held at their house. We try to change where , which home,  every year--

It was a busy day yesterday,  having to deal  with Amazon--  AND THE STUFF THEY ARE SENDING (without my request)--multiples of--and trying to return whatever is not easy either--Son#3 was just here to help me do all that-

Words I wish I had written--

#1. Get up early three mornings and you'll gain a half day--

#2.Your children are with you, yet they do not belong to you--

#3.-No one can tell you how long you should mourn.

Blasts from the past--interesting--just look how small the children are--

So---Time to get on with the day--raining here outside-nice to have rain--not snow---I must pick up a few groceries , maybe this afternoon--seems that I am always at the grocery store--
Hopefully this rain does not turn to snow later on in the day--although it usually does--

                            but----  we cannot  crawl back inside our lost innocence--

It takes "strength " to carry on---and on--and on--Did I tell you that our hospital here in town is going to honour Fred, at the tree of lights ?  What a lovely honour that is!-- He would be so proud--something he truly deserves--

Be careful what order--

 It is November 22nd--and it is Saturday--  I just called Amazon.ca--- -cancelled my membership--am pretty cheesed off with them---Remember the pads??--all over the front lawn?  Lord love a Duck!-I have stored them in my storage room--  seems like 500  boxes of pads--takes up the whole storage room--Now----  I did order 2 Humidifiers--and now I see they are sending me 2 more--which I did not order---  I just called AMAZON -in CANADA_-  cancelled my subscription--with them---  like forever!!!  ----  I am pretty upset--because this Amazon  people do whatever they want--then charge  me for their mistake--so--I cancelled my subscription completely with Amazon--so mad at them---

And that is why I am late blogging--and also why poor Lopez cannot get out to do his business!--What a smoz eh??-Have any of you had the same problem with Amazon??--kinda drives one crazy!

I shall try not to panic--try to trust what this guy said he would do , at Amazon--(I kinda do not believe him)--

Anyway--I must get Lopez out--and I shall never order from Amazon ever again--Have any of you had the same problem with them??--

OK--Son #2 IS winging his way home from  Zurich, Switzerland----He did send pictures of his meals--

above are-- Ravioli sand fresh  Margarita pizza

It does look good!

        Holy cow--just got a message from Son#3 asking me for dinner tonite--EVER NICE!!! and yes I'd love to go--

OK_-"--  Words I wish I had Written"" #1-The only thing left after you die are the good deeds that you performed-- #2--_The imminence of death should make you live-

#3---Meet others halfway.

Well, That is about it--  Well--  not really --because-- are you feeling strong?-- You must!---

A few blasts from the past--Son#2's daughter--Hannah--  already finished University--

                                    Just look at the happy Grandchild!!!

Now--get off of here---

One Day at a time!

 It is Friday, November 21st-- a bit over a month , till Christmas-

I just had a phone call from Son#2 , who is now in Zurich, Switzerland---flew all night---He says he hears the music from , "The Sound of Music""------"The hills are alive with the sound of music""--even sang that last sentence to me--the sound of music ---song------

He says the weather is a lot like here-

-below--- a "Blast from the past"--a nice picture of son#2, way back when----with his Dad--

and another old picture of the 3 boys--with their Dad

Yesterday I stopped at the clinic--had the sutures removed from my hair line--Thy have not told me yet if  what they cut out was malignant or not--  There were only 2 sutures--So, I think I have had all the tests done that the Doctor had ordered when I returned to Elliot Lake from Lakefield where I did not have a Doctor--Man oh man, when one does not have a Doctor, your body just falls apart!

It is 7-10am--still quite dark here--just beginning to see a bit of light-- Lopez must be walked

So, I hope your day goes well--Remember--

"Stick to your guns"

Mom and Dad always told me that----

Remember--#1.. ""If you do not feel old. Then you are not___ 

#2. The smallest deed iS better than the grandest intention--

$3.-At the end,  we all mend!

and Lopez and I best "hit the road"--

I hope that your day is  fabulous! -and if it doesn't feel that way, make it that way!

--

Better than it could be!-----always--

It is Thursday, Nov. 20th-- dark--cold--I am up--because I have to go for breakfast with a friend--then---get to the clinic and get my couple of sutures out--then the Pharmacy for my pill pack--and before all that--get little Lopez out- to do his business-- 

Yesterday was the Bereavement Course-----and of course, it was so good--sad--lots of tears--but--it is helping-- --very time consuming  tho--

Last night I drove out to Son#1's house--had supper   with them , and made it back here just before dark.

I do hope that "your" day-"-to-day"--is the best ever----Make it that way--I will not add too much here yet--as it is going to be a very busy morning--and I must get little Lopez out--and I hear Sushi yodelling upstairs for her breakfast--Lory Be!----never a dull moment here--  

                                                 BUT--------

                      #1.  "share your sorrow with a friend-"(-a wee word of wisdom however before I go--)--and---a blast from the past--

            Son#2 with Son#4 who had just broken his arm--at school--His  Father was VERY upset--so----remember -----Life is always  better even when it is not good sometimes--

Let whoever think whatever--

                    To-day is Wednesday, November, 19th-- and-----It is cold!!-no snow falling, but VERY COLD!-----I tip toed down here  about 5am--turned up the wee furnace--but, it still feels kinda cold inside here--I have hopes that this tiny place  will warm up  soon!

To-day I have the Bereavement  and Grief  clinic-----11am to 3pm--It seems there is always something--Yesterday, 2 Drs appointments-- about the Thyroid  and the Heart--I will be so happy when all these appointments are over-- and I can get my life back!

                                        a Blast from the past--

                            It must've been someone's Birthday that we were celebrating-

We are all there---

The 2 young girls below are now in University--Tempus Fugit!--(Time flies!)

This am I have the Bereavement Course--till 3pm--  then must get my sutures out at the hospital--like maybe 2 sutures--

So, I am counting on all of yu to  make to-day a great day--  are you happy and you know it?--Can you clap your hands if you are?---

Ah__THOSE GOOD OLD days!--Did you ever dream that we would grow older than old??-- I knew it would happen one day but I never gave it much thought--never ever thought of how lonely it would be without my husband!- Think of all the people you know, who have lost their spouse!----Maybe give them a phone call and/or  invite them over-- or--take them out--justa idea!~

                                                    So----  Words of Wisdom---

#1-KEEP YOUR SOUL YOUNG

#2-Age is only important if you are cheese-

#3-Let MEMORIES  STRENGTHEN YOU!

Time to get wee Lopez Out into the cold--I hope that your day is great! If it isn't--make it that way--

"Don't Be Weird!"

 

Good Morning--Tuesday, November 18th--Lordy Be--such a busy morning--  with 2 hospital appointments at 2pm---  Lopez and Sushi are up here, staring at me--  like--  "What do we do next?"---I see it in their faces-- 

 Mornings are busy here--the wash and dryer--the bed --the animals to feed--the vacuum with the litter--and now 2 Drs appointments--plus it feels quite cold outside!--

  Below--  It says below  that I am a spirit having a physical appearance--  Hmmm--Some people believe that when one dies they do become a "spirit"--  What do you think about that??--

Last evening I took the garbage up to where we used to live--so much kitty litter--What do all of you with cats, do with the soiled litter?--=I find it fills up my kitchen garbage here.--And of course . last night, I stopped in to see Son#1--in fact had supper there--drove back before dark--It is hard to eat alone--Do any of you find that?--so much nicer to eat with other people--

Words of Wisdom--or--"Words I wish I'd wrote!"

#1. "Take The Stairs!"

#2.-"The sky is the same colour wherever you go---

#3.Never doubt an opinion made from the heart--

#4--Long faces make short lives-

             and-- blasts from the past--below--

Son#2's wee daughter  (now finished  University)--myself and Willow--=and below -=-Son#2 the pilot, with his friend, another Air Canada Pilot--

                            and, below--a very old picture of "me"-- -I think in high school--

        So, how is your day going?--Are yu feeling strong??--ready to face a new day??-

                    It does help to have  friends--  Friendship Matters--Big Time--

                            

-                                Some days are easier to face--than others aren't they??

                                                I hope your day is good---

                                I hope there is only tears of joy!

Be Positive, Happy, Bold. Loving, Confident, Generous---

 Good Morning to you---To-day is  Monday, November 17th--smile--Believe in yourself!

It is cold--kinda dismal out there--but--I do see the sun , WAY_E_E_EE over there--Lopez and I have to "hit the road" soon--The wash is nearly done-- Sushi is fed--and her litter cleaned up--That is always quite a job in the morning----enough to put one off having a cat--but--I found her--  Remember??--She was eating birdseed on our deck--and she was a wee small kitten--less than 6 mos old--I had to trap her and she lived under Fred's side of the bed for a good 6 mos----Life is tough when there are thousands of cats out there--and a lot without a home!--oh--The wash is done--

I did go out to Son#1's house last evening_AGAIN!__This time however, I did drive home just before the darkness hit!---  When I drove into our driveway, it was dark however--no snow falling tho! I did meet a friend of our family. yesterday for lunch also----at Tim Hortons--I had never been inside 

"Timmys" before--Lotza people eating in there--and they have a huge menu--

Below---my tiny table and chairs--kinda cute!

So, are you"HAPPY" this AM?--You do know that there are many days that one must "fake" it--till you make it""_- I mean, pretend to be happy, because it's better than feeling sad--

Let's rethink "OLD"--When I was 70, my Mom was 92--so I was still sorta a kid--It's all in the way one thinks isn't it??--If you feel young, you probably ARE young!

"Words of Wisdom"

#1---No one but yourself can be blamed for the loss of your soul   

#2--Your mirror will tell you what none of your friends will  not                                  

and--#3---Tears are AGENTS OF HEALING

a blast from the past--

And , below--just look at Son#2's wee daughter-Hannah---my heart goes out to her--Now--finished University-

Hannah below--a tad older--with Grampa and I-- walking dogs

I must stop  here---  get Lopez out--  and some house-y stuff done--It's a new day--and here we are-a part of it!

Remember---to-day---to be---

 

 

 

-and we have snow falling--

            To-day is Sunday--Nov. 16th----"Bed changing Day" -

Snow is lightly falling outside--7-15am---still dark out there----Lopez and I have NOT been out yet--  but--we will be soon--Early mornings are busy here--pills to lay out--for me---  animals to feed-- litter to get rid of--the vacuum to push around--'specially around the litter box-----so- I shall leave you for a bit and get the above chores done--but--I shall return------maybe do your chores and return--(Please DO NOT CALL THE AUTHORITIES!)

BACK Home!------Lopez walked--in the snow--and wind--He kept trying to return home--  I'm sure the wind  and snow was quite a shock to the wee fellow, but--we persevered--and --HE DID HIS BUSINESS--so----  we are back home-- Poor little fellow--One good thing--There was no-one else out there!

Last night I drove out to Son#1's place--  Coming back home was a bit of a challenge--pitch dark--- no-one else on the road--with fog--  I followed Son#1's wife's vehicle----made it home here--I can see tho, that I may not be going out there as much now that it is wintery-

This morning, I am meeting one of Son#1's friends for lunch-- at Tim Horton's- He lives alone and must find it difficult to eat alone--so, I am to meet him there-- The roads are quite icey--have to drive carefully-

"Words of Wisdom!"

                        #1.---Do not count too much on friends--(oh oh----coz I do!)

#2.-He who sows courtesy , reaps friendship

            #3--Banish the word-"cannot"  from your vocabulary

"Blasts from the past--"

Fred---- master of ceremonies at someone's wedding

lots of snow--  lots of dogs

You got to love Santa !

But--  the most important thing to-day--to believe  that WE are strong--No weeping, because we CAN DO WHATEVER WE WANT TO DO--  if we believe we can!

"Too Dam Crazy Out There-"

To-day is Saturday November 15th- no snow falling--but it seems cold--even in the tiny house here--I need to keep pushing the thermostat on my weird little stove here--get that heat upstairs-Sushi-is upstairs on the bed--

                        Everyone needs a hug in the morning--

--Words of wisdom-

#1.  You can! 

 #2.Place a high value on yourself and then prove that you are worth it!

#3.-Welcome  change---(hard to do at times)-

It is still dark outside---hard to get up in the dark-'specially when it is so cold-- but, it pays off as the day progresses--I have to get the wash machine going--get that stove turned up here--Last night I decided to just "veg" here at home, on the sofa, in front of the TV--with CNN on--and Lopez curled up on my chest--It had been a busy day and  I just needed to rest----Do you find that??

Winter clothing has had to be dragged out-- made to fit in these tiny closets--boots--mitts--and the summer wear --with no basement.   I used to store so much in our basement. Those days are gone!

And last night the drive back from the lake was in the dark--and I did it----not much traffic which was good and the lights on the car were on "auto dimming " etc--

Life certainly has changed  for me--and it all seems Ok-- It is amazing how one does adapt to what one has to, as one ages--

                                    Well, I do feel that old without  the man who I loved! ----

Are you feeling strong?--

Do you worry a lot?

So--a new day--

and I shall make the best of it?--  The wash machine must get going here-- and Lopez and I must get outside--"Keep our chin up" as Dad used to say-- Christmas is coming-- Some kind of decorations must go up--  Presents?----   money-??----or gifts-??---for the Grandkids--??    and what on earth will Fred be doing in Heaven over Xmas??--Do you have someone "DEAR" to you up there with him?--so so much to think about--

so much "change"----SO-

Too Dam Crazy Out There!

Well--I just cannot forget--"A Blast from the past"

Allison--our daughter --in white wedding dress

and there I am---back row--  on far rt with my Mom and Dad and sisters and brothers
OK--Get on with yer day--