I am trying very very hard to be happy--When things are not going the way one wishes, it seems easier to be cranky, doesn't it?--------"Let go of what I cannot change"--I must remember that--
As you must've guessed, yesterday did not go well--I did not even get on here to blog---I felt sorry for myself--alone--ALLL-LLL day------And people are nice--- One person loaded me down with JigSaw puzzles---told me they would help me use up spare time-- another came over and made sure I had "Prime TV" on the TV--and I do--showed me how to use it--to set it up-- Movies--free movies--which will help to use up my time-- Son#1 invited me for dinner--so--"I" took dinner over to them and ate with them----So, Now I guess it is up to me to get happy-be content--keep busy--try to stay with people around me if I can-at least sometimes-invite people over--join the Bereavement session-when it begins--
It is hard to be alone--- It seems one must plan the time spent alone---try hard to be happy--Will this ever get easier?
Well, I AM TRYING-- not doing as well as I had hoped--but--I shall try hard--even harder--even if I sound like a wild Hyena--trapped inside me----
I must read your comments from yesterday-- -- well---the day before yesterday---
"KEEP YOUR CHIN UP"""--as Dad used to say--It is new day ----and WE ARE A PART OF IT!
Sorry you had a bad day yesterday, but it seems like folks are trying to help you, so remember, you are not totally alone and try to focus on that. You just miss your husband. Plus, you should also remember how capable you are and have always been!
ReplyDeleteMy bank still lets me bring in change and they run it through a machine. Nice that you and your granddaughter have a system that helps you both. Hang in there! Susan/Colorado
Susan Our bank does not have that machine-- and wrapping these coins is not a lot of fun-- So happy that the Grand daughter can do thnis--and keep the change--It helps me--And yes, I must remember that I am not really alone--- --- but--I am--LOLOL--- I just must deal with it-- LOL--Hugs, Lynda
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ReplyDeleteSorry you are feeling so down and sad. Grief can really affect us in lots of ways. Maybe try to focus that grief on all the good times you two and your family shared together. Happy memories can help sustain us through the sad times.
This quote has helped me a lot when I am dealing with difficult things.
"At the end of the day, we can endure much more than we think we can" - Frida Kahlo
Hang in there, it will get easier.
Hugs,
Jackie
Jackie--Bless yer heart--Yes I will definitely do that--concerntrate on the "good timers"==Thank yu-Lynda
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ReplyDeleteOne day at a time. People are reaching out to you to help you. You are more blessed than you are realizing. You are not alone....
One Day at a time.
Marge/St.Louis
It's Kathy. It is hard to be alone all the time. Sometime during the night on Thursday or early Friday I hurt my back - somehow! For the life of me I can't figure out what I did, but it was so bad yesterday that I could barely put weight on my right leg - so I had to pull out the cane and my DH had to help me a whole lot. I never even got dressed and I can't think of a day that has ever happened. So Tom left about 1 pm to take care of some things and while I had plenty to do, I sure did feel lonely! And I was only alone 2 1/2 hours! So you get to feel lonely, your life has changed so much over the last year! 2 moves, losing a dear husband, adapting to new places. I'm sure you will always miss himself, but eventually you will find a routine that works for you. I'm glad you now have Amazon Prime. Do you knit or crochet? That helps me while I'm watching TV. And I love doing puzzles - but I do them on my tablet. I found that when we were locked down with Covid. If you don't have a tablet, maybe your children can get you one for Christmas. I thought I'd hate it, but now I prefer reading on my tablet - and playing some games! It's so much easier than holding a big book! Just some thoughts. Hang in there, Lynda! You have been through a lot and you need to give yourself some grace! Have a good day!
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ReplyDeleteSorry you're having such a hard time with your own (and your pet's} company. I relish in my own company. I have my pc, tablet, phone...games on all. I have books to read. I always have a chore or two to attend to, a car that takes me where I want to go. Don't get me wrong, I love my interactions with people, too.
Great that you have that coin connection with your granddaughter. My credit union has a machine that you dump your coins in. It gives a receipt with the $ amount, you take it to a teller and the teller gives you cash or deposits the amount in your account.
You cooked for your son...that's great. Giving back is always satisfying.
I am planning on karaoke tonight as I won't go next week...I'll be in Chicago!
Lucky says it's time I played with then napped with him now. So I will check comments from day before yesterday then check them here after karaoke.
Remember to focus on things that make you happy! {{{HUGS}}} Love, Maggie
Awwwww, sorry you had a bad day! It’s not easy getting used to all the changes and losses you’ve had.
ReplyDeleteOh Prime TV is fabulous. We enjoy the movies and shows. Glad you have that.
What???? Your coins have to be wrapped to take them to the Bank??? Yikes. Well, glad you have a deal w/your granddaughter. Win/win.
And yes, you can and HAVE done hard things.
hugs and blessings
barb
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All I really can say is that I'm sorry you are feeling so sad. I believe we've all offered up things that might help.
ReplyDeleteHow about a challenge? I challenge you to, tomorrow, choose one thing that you typically don't do, anything at all, and step out of your comfort zone and do it. It can be little, or it can be big! If that works, then every day, think of ONE thing, that you can do, to challenge yourself. Even if it makes you terribly uncomfortable. It needs to be doable, though. For instance, I cannot for the life of me drive on the freeway or on two lane roads where the speed limit is over 40 (because I have a panic attack). So I wouldn't try to do those things.
Right now, give yourself a big hug. Place your hand on your chest and hold it there. They say it is the same as a hug. You will feel instantly comforted, if you do it right. :)
Marti
Marti, same here with driving. So frustrating. I just stay within a few miles of home and still have some roads I can’t do. I live in a tiny country town in Ohio. I used to travel five counties for work. What happened? I often think it’s hormones?
DeleteThinking of you in Ohio! I am so sorry you are struggling right now. I hope the puzzles, tv and people will help. How nice you took dinner and so nice to give your change to your grand daughter. We give ours to our nephew. I know we used to have a machine at Walmart to dump your change in and get cash. Not sure if we still do. You could see if you have one. Hope your day was better. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteLynda,
ReplyDeleteThose tears are memories rolling down your cheeks. I know that the day will come when you will not need to cry because it’s over, but instead, smile because it happened. The love you had will see you through.
It's Kathy. That is a very nice photo of you and himself! Yes, winter is just around the corner but we're not seeing any signs of it yet. A few leaves are falling but it's pretty warm and humid still! I am on my third day of some serious back pain which does scare me after having 2 spinal surgeries! The pain is now going down into my right leg which is making walking almost impossible. I did get an appointment at the clinic tomorrow morning at 8:15 am. I hope they can take an x-ray to see if anything is wrong. Have a good rest of your day! I'm glad you're able to have family to eat with!
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