Thank you--all of you--for writing--for holding me up--I cry ----a lot--When do the tears stop?--You see, Beau was my friend--- and I feel he went way too soon--- I feel that I let him down--was not there to help him at the end , like I always wanted to be--
So, I turned on the computer this morning--- and there you all were-- Beau must've told you eh, that I needed you--that the tears are still flowing--He also told me to tell you thank you--- I have never needed you all, as much as I do now--- but-----
It will never happen like that again--I have driven almost all over the country to get a vet to "put a dog down"--to help the poor animal not suffer--mostly in the middle of the night--- so, why not now?--- --I always wanted a local vet--thought that would be so much easier--- but--a vet in your own community can be not available also--- -like what happened with big Beau--
So--- there are Emergency services for vets-- available 24 hrs a day-- out of town--- but-- in "drive-able" areas--- Of course one pays for that service---- but-- there is something to be said for "Peace of Mind"---- I will never go thru what happened to my friend BEAU--ever again---- Lordy be--- and --- I do have an old cat also-- Sushi-the cat who came in from the cold--
The tears still flow-- Beau was my friend--He will forgive me , won't he?--I tried---I really tried--
My sweet friend, you did not let Beau down! You did the best you could with the resources available to you. Maybe that last stress with the visiting doggie cousins pushed him over the edge. How would you ever know that happened?
ReplyDeleteOkay, I am going to do this: There is a bridge connecting Heaven and Earth.
It is called the Rainbow Bridge because of all its beautiful colors.
Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge there is a land of meadows,
hills and valleys with lush green grass.
When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this place.
There is always food and water and warm spring weather.
The old and frail animals are young again.
Those who were sick, hurt or in pain are made whole again.
There is only one thing missing,
they are not with their special person who loved them so much on earth.
So each day they run and play until the day comes
when one suddenly stops playing and looks up!
The nose twitches! The ears are up!
The eyes are staring and this one runs from the group!
You have been seen and when you and your special friend meet,
you take him in your arms and hug him.
He licks and kisses your face again and again—
and you look once more into the eyes of your best friend and trusting pet.
Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together never again to be apart.
As always, the tears are pouring as I paste this. I have 'lost' dogs cats, mice, who were beloved pet. I know they are just in Spirit and always with me when I think of them, but the tears still flow.
Know that your beloved Beau is with Tess now and waiting to see you on the Rainbow Bridge.
Love and {{{HUGS}}}Maggie
Maggie-- Will I ever get over this?---wish the tears would ztop-- Yu are so good--Thank yu--Lynda
DeleteSis, you will never completely 'get over it,' but gradually you will fine yourself smiling at fond memories and love given and received. I promise.
DeleteI’m so very sorry for your loss. You did the best you could do for Beau. He knows this and forgives you. Please don’t beat yourself up over this, he wouldn’t want that. Sending you hugs ❤️
ReplyDeleteThank yu--Lynda
DeleteLynda, you were the very best mom to Beau! The loss is so difficult. Please, do not feel guilty about anything you did or did not do. I do so wish there had been a vet available when you needed them. I feel so sad that you did not have the help you needed. Just relax as you did all you could. I am sending you warm hugs from Ohio on this very windy day. I know they are there already. A bit of sun for Beau is shining. I wish I could do or say more as we lost our first yorkie last year. Thank goodness we have one 8 and one that is 10 months. Lopez and Sushi will fill your heart with love as you heal. Don't forget self love and rest! It's so important more than ever right now.
ReplyDeleteThank yu so much for your thoughts Lynda
DeleteIt's Kathy. Yes, Beau forgives you although I'm sure he's thinking there's nothing to forgive. You did your best in the moment. You were scared and you wanted him not to suffer. He knows that. You are the best doggie mom and Beau loved you for that. I love the quote about looking into an animal's eyes. It's so true. Daisy sits and looks at me every night with so much love - and actually, she's trying to say "I need a treat, mom". But when I leave the room, she comes looking for me. The other day I came home from the gym and she was so happy! No one can love us better than our pets! I, too, am crying because I loved hearing all about Beau and Lopez! And I know that one day I will have to say goodbye to my Daisy. She is absolutely the best friend I've ever had! Remember Beau with love. You were everything to him!
ReplyDeleteThaNk yu Kathy-- I hope the tears stop soon --Lynda
DeleteLynda, again I'm so so terribly sorry that Beau has passed. We all knew and loved big Beau. (and we know he didn't care for trips to the previous groomer)
ReplyDeleteHe was our big, beautiful dog too. You ALWAYS did the best for him. You WILL cry as he's not there but please accept he loved you and Fred and he felt your love. It's terribly, terribly difficult when a beloved pet passes. He'll always be with...like Tess. Cry when you need to. I am glad Beau didn't die alone. Hugs dear Lynda. I'm so very sorry. Cry when you need to.
Oh now I'm blubbering--=will be so happy when all this stops-- Lynda
DeleteLynda, Beau knew and knows your heart! You did not let him down. And he does forgive you. Those tears are nothing but love, leaking out. ((( hugs )))
ReplyDeleteaww Barb--so awful-=-so fast-- -- Yu are such a good person to write-- Thank yu-Lynda
DeleteLynda: you did everything you could do for Beau. Do not feel bad. He knows how you looked after him. Maybe he thought it was time to go be witTake care of yuh Tess. You can't help that a vet wasn't available but there was nothing you could do so stop feeling bad. He has no pain and is happy. Focus on the good times with him. Take care of yourself. Hugs Brenda
ReplyDeleteOh Brenda-- hard eh?--When do the tears stop?--Lynda-
DeleteOh my dear, you did not let Beau down. Not by a long shot. *SIGH* But I definitely understand that feeling that he’s gone way too soon. They take a part of us with them. I am glad that DD called son #4 to be w/you. THAT was needed. And you gave Beau unconditional love all his life and took good care of him. He knows that.
ReplyDeleteThat’s fine that the tears still flow. They should! He was your FRIEND!
Hugs and love
Barb
1crazydog
Barb--=so many tears -- I have an emergency vet now-- in case--- miss Beau a lot-He leaves a huge hole in my heart-- Thanks for writing-Lynda
DeleteOh my gosh….. I am so very sorry. That is so hard. I still cry for my Emma who was 16 and died over a year ago. It is so difficult.
ReplyDeleteYou need to remember that you gave Beau a beautiful life and he was very lucky to have you. I feel so terrible for you and yes, I would have been running lights and speeding just like you. Life is so difficult. I wish that I had words to comfort you. He was a very lucky dog and you were also blessed with him in your life. Hugs. Jacquie.
Jacquie--thank yu-- I am sorry for yourEmma--Lynda
DeleteA big long hug for you. Thank you for sharing Beau with us🙏🏼✨ Carol in Florida
ReplyDeleteDear Lynda, You did not let Beau down for one minute. You did everything that you could do to save him, and it just was not possible. I know he had a wonderful life with you and he felt so much love with you. I went through a similar thing with a cat who had cancer and I know how painful it is. I said a prayer for you when I read your story, you are an amazing person who had always been so kind to others. Hoping that remembering all the good times will give you some peace.
ReplyDeleteLiz in Chicago area
Lynda, thinking of you today.
ReplyDeleteI remember as a kid that we had lots of pets, but never visited a veterinarian. The animals just lived their lives and ended up dying at home from whatever ailed them. Isn’t it wonderful that you were able to make regular visits to the Vet with Beau and help him get through his early years with medications, and have a good life? It is always hard to let those we love go, and they are missed terribly, but you did right by Beau. None of us are miracle workers and living things die and we don’t always have control over when or how that happens. Grieve your friend and stop questioning your actions. Sending you a hug.
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