Big Beau has been "put Down"-- I do hate that expression-- I knew, there was something wrong-- and maybe I should have realized it could've been his heart- I never thought of that-- He was diagnosed with A FIB as a puppy--put on heart medication for 2 years and the vet felt he did not need the meds after a couple of years--so, we stopped the heart medication., and were careful to not exercise him too much--He lived to be 9 years--
No-one was home here -- and I went to put him outside and he collapsed , onto the sunroom floor--coughing a lot also--I managed to get him into the back seat of our car--and I drove way too fast--to town, to the vet---got to the vets office after driving right thru a red light-- and guess what?--no vet---Our one and only vet is also the mayor and was at city hall---- The little girl on the desk told me that he would not be in till 2pm--This was around 11am--so, what does one do with a dying dog ?---I should have taken big Beau to City Hall-( kidding of course)--
So, I put Beau back in the car---and we waited for the vet who did appear around 2pm--- told me I could drive him to Toronto---- or--the alternative--- "put him down"--
The whole episode was terrible-----Son #4 appeared -- (Our daughter in Ohio had called him)-- He stayed with Beau until the end--
So sorry to hear about Beau. I don’t think you should beat yourself up about it. He had a very good life living with you and unfortunately big dogs do not have long life spans and Beau started out with health problems. You did everything right. And such great memories you have. Be kind to yourself and himself and Lopez today. So hard to lose a furry friend.
ReplyDeleteOh man--all day I questioned that decision--so good of yu to write-Lynda
DeleteMy thoughts are with you and Himself at this difficult time. Beau was part of your family for many years and will be missed. He did have a wonderful life living with you and he was treated so well. You have a lot of memories now and he will always be in your thoughts. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteThank yu Madeline--Lynda
DeleteI think all of us from the Spark days remember Beau from those years and are heartbroken to hear this. Please, please don't think of the "what-ifs" -- we all know from the beginning that their time with us is limited, although that doesn't make it any easier when the time comes to say that final goodbye. You were a caring and loving puppymother to Beau as you are to all your furbabies. Sending love. / Leslie
ReplyDeleteLeslie--- SO SO nice to see yu again and I appreciate you writing Lynda
DeleteSo sorry for your loss💙 You did everything you could do for Beau most important is loving him.He had a lovely life and I will miss him.
ReplyDeleteThank yu--- Lynda
DeleteI can hardly type this through my tears.....my heart breaks for you! I know how much you loved that dog. I wish there was something I could do for you. I just want you to know that I feel your pain and am so sorry you lost your beloved Beau. You were a wonderful dog mom to him for nine years! On this sorrowful day for you I pray that you find some comfort in the memories of all the time you had with Beau....a beautiful dog that has crossed the "Rainbow Bridge" to where there are meadows and fields and hills where all our special pets get to run and play together until we meet them again. Hugs and prayers to you Lynda!
ReplyDeleteSandra--so hard top make that decision you know--I appreciate you writing-Thank yu--Lynda
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ReplyDeleteDon't beat yourself up as Beau was well-loved and cared for. Let the tears roll when they come. It has only been a few months since we had to have Bailey eased over to the Rainbow Bridge -- it never gets easier but cherish the good times which far outway the sick times.
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PHOENIX1949, Susan (Central Texas)
Thanks Darlene--- quite a bad day to-day--questioning myself?--Was it the right decision?--Lynda
DeleteSusan--good to see yu--Thank yu so much for writing-- I hope Beau meets Bailey-- Lynda
DeleteThanking yu --Lynda
DeleteI am so sorry for your loss. I well remember when Beau was just a puppy and all the stress of his heart diagnosis, and the medicating, and the nausea in the car going to grooming, and all the years you had with him. Yes, it's awful losing them, but have to be glad for the life that you were able to give big Beau! He was loved, he was cared for, and he had a loved human with him at the end. Not much more we can do for a pet.
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u do remember him ---and his heart medication--- good to hear yu say that--Lynda-
DeleteSo sorry, I know how much you loved him
ReplyDeleteOh I do love him---- my friend-- Thank yu for writing-Lynda
DeleteSo sorry for your loss. Pets are such a big part of our lives.
ReplyDeleteHe was a big part of my day--yes!---- Thank yu for writing-Lynda
DeleteLynda, I am so very sorry for your loss of Big Beau. He was a champion. No dog could ever hope for a more loving and attentive Dog Mom.
ReplyDeleteAwwwww He was a Champion --very smart--very loving-- Lynda
DeleteSo sorry for your loss. Pets are family. May you find peace in the coming days
ReplyDeleteI really do love Beau--- hard!--- Thank yu for writing-Lynda
DeleteOh my dear, I wish there were words to comfort you, take away the pain. But there just aren’t I am soooo very sorry for this. He was a good boy and gave you unconditional love. Many hugs and prayers.
ReplyDeleteCan’t 2nd guess yourself. You did what you could for Beau, and more!
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Barb--Thank yu for writing--Now I am crying again--Will it ever stop?----Lynda
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ReplyDeleteover that bridge--yes--- hopefully playing with Tess- Lynda
DeleteMy heart aches for you, Beau was such a big part of your capacity to love. So sudden a loss...life is so precious. Hugs sent.
ReplyDeleteDeb--Bless you for writing--I do appreciate it! Thank yu for the hugs--hard to watch your best friend suffer--Lynda
DeleteIt's Kathy. I'm so very sorry that you had to go through this. You loved Beau so much and you were so good to him. And I know that he loved you more than anything! I'm sure little Lopez is wondering what's going on. After my cat Sheba passed away last April (she was already old when we got Daisy - so she was always around), Daisy took it very hard. She wouldn't eat much, and she moped around. It wasn't like they were best friends, but Sheba was just always there. I even missed her more than I thought I would. Sending prayers for you and himself.
ReplyDeleteKathy--I believe it is one of the very worse things to have to do , isn't it=--watch some one die---and that someone is your friend-- Thank yu for all your kind words--Lynda
DeleteHi Lynda: So sorry to hear about Beau. Don't second guess anything that happened with his meds years ago. He lived a good life and was well looked after. You were a very good dog mom to him. Poor Lopez will be real confused about what is going on. Relax tonight and play the piano to calm yourself. Hugs Brenda
ReplyDeleteHi Brenda--- It's awful--terrible--- and I keep wondering if I should have just let it be--not put him down--but--he was not able to walk--and couldn't get enough air in--It was so terrible--I just wanted him out of his pain--Thank you writing--Lynda
DeleteOh Lynda, I'm so terribly sorry to hear that big Beau has passed. My heart breaks for you and your family. You were such an incredible dog mom. I'm glad son 4 was with you and Beau. Cry and know we cry with you and feel your pain. I'm so sorry.
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Marge, St.Louis
Oh Marge--i'm crying now too-- I can't seem to stop crying to-day--I appreciate you writing-Thank yu--Lynda
DeleteIt's Marti. OMG! When I opened your page and saw that, my heart just dropped. He was such a good and handsome fellow! I wasn't expecting that at all, I knew he was probably stressed out from all those dogs, but so sudden! My heart aches for you, and for Himself, and for poor little Lopez. Give Lopez extra cuddles from me. I remember when my nervous and timid Tucker lost first, his best buddy Muffin, who had to be put down due to stomach cancer, and then my beloved husband passed not long after that. Tucker seemed to have all the air knocked out from under him, he no longer liked to go out in the backyard and stay, and he just became listless after that. And then after that I had knee replacement surgery and then we moved. A lot of changes for the poor fellow. Anyway, my condolences, and big hugs, and you cry as much as you want, and take your time healing. Be kind to yourself. I worked through a dog grief booklet when I lost Muffin. It helped. I could send it to you if I knew your email address. If I still have it, that is. It sure helped me.
ReplyDeleteMarti--Yes if you can send that o--I keep thinking he is outside--or in the next room--My email is ----fldunloplake@vianet.ca--If yu cannot send it--that is OK also---Marti--Your husband passed too?--- strong Lady you are--That is a lot of grief! I appreciate you writing---Lynda
DeleteI just sent it. Let me know if you got it okay. It is a PDF file. Hopefully you can open it on your iMac or whatever you have. I have a Windows 10 PC. It's a workbook, going thru it and filling it out (you can type right on it) is what helped me most. You can use it for any animal, maybe even person too! :)
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Deletell look--ynda
Marti again. Oh, and like someone else said, please don't do the what if's or think it is/was somehow your fault. If the vet had felt he needed to be on heart meds, he would have put him (or continued on with) the heart meds. Can they not do a necropsy, if that would make you feel better? I had that done for my Cockatiel (long time ago). She had just never been quite right and it was so sudden.
ReplyDeleteOh Marti--- I knew something was wrong , the past 2 weeks--- but I did not know what-- Hard eh?--Lynda
DeleteI just sent it, Lynda, let me know if you get it - Marti
DeleteP.S. Marti again. You can email me anytime at that email address that came to you. I won't type it out here, someone could pick it up somehow and use it for nefarious purposes, no doubt. I don't trust the internet with my email address. :)
DeleteI shall check my email--Thank yu Marti--Lynda
DeleteDid you get it okay?
DeleteSo sorry for your loss. I feel like Beau was part of my family too. Shed a few tears.
ReplyDeleteDon't yu wish our pets lived longer?--Lynda
DeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. Been really busy so haven't been keeping up with you lately but saw this today and had to respond. I'm picturing Tess on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge welcoming Beau to a world with lots of play and no pain.
ReplyDeleteOh Margo--Lets hope he meets up with Tes--Thank yu for caring-Lynda
DeleteOh Lynda! I am SOOO sorry to read this today! I feel like I know Beau personally and I am very, very sad! So sad! Sending you peace and BIG hugs from Ohio!
ReplyDeleteThank yu for writing---I appreciate it-- so much-Lynda
DeleteOh Lynda, I am so sorry to hear about Big Beau! Losing a pet is so hard! Try to focus on the memories of the good times, Big Beau loved you unconditionally and you were a great fur-baby Mom to him. Don't second guess your decision. He was suffering and you blessed him with a trip across the the Rainbow Bridge where he is playing with his bestie, Tess. Ba_coy from Sparkpeople
ReplyDeleteI know that I have the memories--but--- it was hard-Lynda--
DeleteDear Lynda - I am sorry to hear of Beau’s passing. I know your heart is breaking. Please take comfort in knowing you filled his days with love and provided him with a beautiful and safe home. I know it is such a shock to lose him so suddenly. You made brave and hard decisions today. I’m glad you could ease his pain and be with him at the end. Take care of yourself and know so many of us are keeping you both in our hearts. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, Lynda. I know how hard that was. Our pets are such a huge part of our lives. Beau was well and truly loved, and like us, their very days are numbered, I believe. My thoughts are with you and Himself.
ReplyDeleteDonna thank yu--- Lynda
DeleteOh Lynda!! My heart is broken for you. Sending hugs and sympathy to you and Fred and your family. I’m so glad your son came to help you.
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Oh Vicki--- Thank yu for writing--- I appreciate it very much--Lynda
DeleteSo sorry to hear this. I remember your Beau from the old Spark days. It is so hard to let them go. I have done this twice in the last three years. I still question myself, but I know I did all I could and gave them a wonderful, fun life with our family. Beau had a wonderful life with you. Thinking of you, Lee Ann (Walnutt1961 from Sparkpeople)
ReplyDeleteI didn't comment earlier after I read this, sis. Words cannot express the empathy I have for you. I did respond on Facebook. Love you guys and praying for the four of you. {{{HUGS}}} Maggie
ReplyDeleteMaggie --It was so terrible--no vet to help relieve his suffering until afternoon--This wi;l never happen again--=I feel like I let him down=-poor Beau-- Hugs Lynda
DeleteI am so sorry to learn of Big Beau’s passing … so unexpectedly, and in such a difficult manner, My sincere condolences. He is now with Tess and all our other precious four legged companions who have been with us in the past. He would never leave your 🧡 Carol in Florida
ReplyDeleteCarol-Thank yu --Yu are most kind!--Yes --a hard way to go--I had no help to relieve his suffering--Lynda
DeleteOh Lynda, I feel so bad for you. It is so hard to lose our furbaby friends. I don't know what else to say, but my heart is breaking for you and your family. Just know that you gave Beau the best life that any dog could only wish for. Hugs sweetie,
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Chris--=such a terrible way to pass on eh--suffering in the back seat of my car--- I felt so helpless-- Lynda
DeleteLynda, I quietly follow you every day. I am so sorry for your loss. It is heartbreaking I know. Sending some healing thoughts for you!
ReplyDeleteLOL--YU are a quiet person-- I love that--Thank yu so much-I will take yer healing thoughts--Thank yu--Lynda
DeleteI am so sorry for your loss this is just so sad to me I wonder if the vet just missed the heart thing and he did need those meds I pray that you can find some comfort in knowing that he is with (I think her name was Tess) Tess and I am sure that they will all be there to greet when it is your turn I feel as if I knew your dogs personally
ReplyDeleteYes--Tess was his sister-- so sad to lose yer pet eh? Lynda
DeleteLynda, so sorry to learn about Big Beau! But he will always hear your piano playing. He will be there by the piano.
ReplyDeleteOh yu are so right--Thank yu --=Lynda
DeleteLynda, I am so so sorry. No words to explain the loss of a dog. MB & Jeff
ReplyDeleteOh, I just now saw this. I'm so sorry for your loss; please accept my condolences and prayers. Losing our sweet dogs ... they are family and we miss them so. Hugs.
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