I AM BACK--- Lordy Be!----Why, when you have one bad , horrible day, does it feel like the end of the world--like you will never get thru the day, like you feel so alone-----that nobody cares--and you really want to climb into a hole and stay there---?????----and- really, you do know that people do care--- that the situation really is temporary-- that you will get thru it --
Beau , big Beau, the very docile German, as in dog, took the brunt of a great deal yesterday-- happened to get in the way of Himself's cane--and , after a lot of chaos, the day carried on--and now Himself will be going to his Day Program 3 times every week for sure--I feel it is a necessary evil at this time--Lord love a Duck, good thing there is an answer to every situation--one just has to figure it out--- with help , of course--
We are livin' in "Spring -like "--weather--here in the North--The snow is melting-- I even see grass --no shovelling--- and I hear this will continue till the weekend , when the "Artic weather" will return--
We are livin' in "Spring -like "--weather--here in the North--The snow is melting-- I even see grass --no shovelling--- and I hear this will continue till the weekend , when the "Artic weather" will return--
We almost look like this now---simply amazing---
so---- It feels wonderful, to get up this morning, and life does seem so much better---- good thing---
-The 2 boys (as in dogs)--must get out--- their "pack leader", (ME!) --must take them--I see some day light-----AND THIS DAY HAS BEGUN!--- Are you up for it?????
so---- It feels wonderful, to get up this morning, and life does seem so much better---- good thing---
---Aren't you glad that there is always to-morrow??-- Lord love a Duck!----- We girls must be made of "toughness", "Courage", "Determination" and Commitment"---
The Heck With "Sugar and Spice".
I am constantly amazed by your strength and courage, and the wisdom of your readers, and how much they (we) all love you, and support from afar with whatever we are able! (( hugs ))
ReplyDeleteBarb the support sure was there yesterday-- Thanking all of yu ever so much-- I just cud not believe that what happened--happened-- I even called one of yu-- who set me on my feet again-- all of you are very special--=you know that eh??-- Huge hugs-- Lynda -I feel that I know you Barb-- all of yu
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ReplyDeletePHOENIX1949 from Central Texas
Thanking yu for standing me up --with your hugs--your strengths--Lynda
DeleteI am so sorry Lynda. I know how difficult this is for you, and those poor pups, never knowing what mood Himself will be in.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could do/say something that would help...
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Darlene--Bless your heart--It's because of people like yourself that keeps me going--and others-- I sure appreciate hearing from yu--and others-- Hugs, Lynda
DeleteGlad that you got through your bad, terrible rotten, horrible day! Definitely you are NOT alone. Glad you got to speak to someone who helped you!
ReplyDeleteWell, that’s good that you’ve made the decision that Himself will go to his daycare for 3 days/week. YOU ALL need that. It’s good for Himself, and even though you have to schlep him there and home again, it’s worth it. Good decision.
I agree . . . not sugar and spice, but courage, sacrifice, determination, commitment, toughness, heart, talent and guts! We ARE made of those things, even when we don’t feel like it.
Hugs and blessings
Barb
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Barb--you are amazing-- Sorry I was not here--but--difficult to pull my mind from "The depths of Despair" when I am put there--I did not want my words to be there either-- And yes, because I do lean on all of you, I sure appreciate hearing from yu to-day--Thank yu---= I know you have all the above strengths of a woman who has gone thru this-- Big hugs, Lynda
DeleteHi Lynda: SOO glad to see you here today. I was really worried. Things are not good when poor Beau gets hit by the cane. Glad he is going to daycare 3 times per week. He needs to go plus you get a bit of a reprieve while he's there. And I think you know that we all think you are the strongest, bravest, toughest, most committed lady we know. Unfortunately things probably won't get better in the near future so please talk to us and let us try to help you. Glad the weather is better today. Helps to pick you spirits up! Relax tonight and play the piano. Hugs Brenda
ReplyDeleteBrenda--- sorry all this is going on--hoping when the Dr talks to me in a couple weeks, we can get some kind of help--He refusers meds but-- hopefully this DR can persuade him--and yes, Beau got the brunt of it I'm afraid-and on e day it may be me-- Lordy!--- What a terrible disease isn't it?-- Sooner than later., he may need more help than I can give him-- I know that--Lynda
DeleteMarti here. I am so sorry that all that is going on. I am glad that at least YOU are okay.
ReplyDeleteMarti--- another outburst-- another day of tears-- so hard to tell yu all-- because yu know when yu do not see the blog, there is trouble on the western front--hard eh--- Hopefully there will be some sort of help soon-Lynda
DeleteSo, what plans have been set up for when Himself will be moved to assistive living? Does he have to hit you with the cane until that happens? Why is it ok for you to go crazy each time? YOU count!! Plans need to be made, waiting lists need names added, etc. Truly…..why won’t doctor’s he.lp you, is it because you are female ? Not fair! Would Himself put up with you, if you had dementia??
ReplyDeleteGood question eh???---No, he would NOT put up with me, if the tables were turned--One big thing , if this house sells, he wud go in there right then--He is on a list--and why do Drs not help?--Maybe because he will not do anything the Drs tell him--plus-- when they try to help, it is 2 Drs talking DR talk--
DeleteYour blog today made me sad - My heart feels for you and what you are going through. Feel so badly that poor Beau took the brunt of his anger. I am glad you found someone to help you through a very tough day. And I know that you are strong and wise and will get through whatever comes up. My mantra is "day by day - one foot in front of the other". Hoping that the 3 days a week in day care will help! Sending hugs and prayers your way!
ReplyDeleteawww Sandra--- I got thru it-- and looking back, maybe I handled it all wrong-- It does shock me so much when this man who was never ever like this, is going thru this now-SO so unlike him--- and Beau took the brunt of it-- I can see why people get put into institutions -=-and if he were put there now, he would just curl up and die-- one foot in front of the other-- and try NOT to cry so much--because that doesn't help-- makes you hang upside down to stop the tears- (teasing)--- Life can be hard--but--not everyday ---You got thru so much -Yu are a strong person-- Hugs--Lynda
DeleteLove the last meme, Lynda.
ReplyDeleteBet precious Beau will give Himself a wide berth from now on. Happy he was not badly hurt. Probably has some sore muscles or bruises, though.
The day care program will help, but do you have him on lists for a place that give Alz care 'round the clock? You would probably need to move then, if you were by yourself. It will probably come someday, however.
It's in the 40s F here, well above freezing. There is a mix of sun and clouds.
Sadie will only visit for a short time here today. I feel like just chillin'.
Eating lunch now: homemade chicken rice soup with lots of veggies. My friend, Joanne, makes it and always shares.
One of my favorite country singers, Toby Keith, just passed with stomach cancer. The King of England has cancer. Mom used to say things happen in threes. Who's next? I wonder.
Ending on a happier note, I bet Himself goes to the day program today. Take some time to relax!
Love you, sis. {{{HUGS}}}
No--Himself goes to-morrow--a new day--to the day program---He wasn't going 3X /w--He refused to do that-so I hope I can get him there-- Hey--Sadie did not get here this AM either--maybe both her and her twin were up to no good( LOL) I need the time tho to un ravel from yesterday---Yes I heard about the singer with Cancer--sad isn't it?-- Yes, it is mild here again--so nice--- but--I hear that Sunday, we are in for colder weather--We are having Lasayna (cant spell that--LOL) for supper with salad--easy--- Thank you for writing-- holding me up-- You are a good sister-- Lynda
Deletemild here also--- for to-day--but I hear Sunday it will return to winter--Lynda
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you will have 3 days a week for him to go. I'd have him stay for lunch which will give you a little extra time. Of course that is more expense I'm sure so is it worth it? Some days you just can't win for losing. Lots of luck on getting him to go tomorrow - maybe now that he is used to going, he won't complain so much. Dot
ReplyDeleteWell Dot-I had a talk with him at supper and I put the blame on the Lodge --said they think he will enjoy coming tomorrow and they would like him to try it with a lot of women who- actually talk --He calmed down then--We shall see-- Lynda
DeleteIt's Kathy. I was worried that you were having a really bad day and I'm so sorry that happened. I hope you are able to get himself to agree to the 3rd day of the week at the center. I read some of the comments above and YOU do matter. What you want does matter. I have to say, it sounds like some of what my daughter is going through with her 3 and 5 year old. They are refusing to go to school and when she tries to encourage them the outbursts are horrible. Jake, the 5 year old, is very strong - she can no longer contain him. I know himself doesn't understand what is happening any more than my Jakey understands why he's mad. But know that we all love you and want you to be taken care of too. Maybe when things feel the worst you just need to sit down and read your book. That's been my "coping" place when I'm overwhelmed with Lauriellen's tears! Take care of yourself. The world won't end if Sadie takes a vacation! I promise you!!!
ReplyDeleteAwwww Kathy--Yu are so good-- Eventually it will work out-- somehow--Whatta muddled mess eh?--i hope that your daughter figures her life out--she is so young to have this happen-- Hugs, lynda
DeleteHi Lynda, it's Marge in St.Louis. so happy to see your post today. Thought about you numerous times yesterday. I knew things weren't good at home. I'm glad a friend could console you. I'm sending my phone number in Messenger. I'm far away but I've got big ears and shoulders.
ReplyDelete3x a week, plus stay for lunch....no excuses, you must stay....may help for a bit but things seem to be getting worse for all of you. Likely, other plans for himself care have to be made or someone needs to be there WITH YOU. It's getting dangerous...the outbursts could be directed at you. You are a strong woman BUT you've got to have a break and help...perhaps that means a facility. Tough tough tough. I love you, admire you and most definitely support you. Hope when my situation with my himself deteriorates as yours has I have your strength. Know that your are loved and in our thoughts and prayers.
Giant hugs Marge
Thank yu so much for your support--I know things have to change-I just do not know how --yet--but--it will happen-- I shall make a note of your number--I thank yu --to the Moon and back!-- Bless yer heart--Lynda
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