It's a good day to have a good day!

 So far---to-day---  everything is going well! --Yesterday a friend was out to give me a lot of support and ideas on how to deal with Himself.  Her husband went thru the same as himself ---and has passed now. She looked after him for several years as the disease progressed.--- 

Son #2 the Pilot, has been very supportive, as has Son #1-----  Our daughter , who has not been home for 3 years  is very angry ---does not believe that all this could happen to her Dad--This morning, a Dr  (not his DR) is doing a Home Visit--says he will do a urine sample plus blood work--if he ever gets here!--This is a request from our daughter.

So, I am NOT crying yet to-day---so far! ---Lopez, Sushi and Beau are helping me out--giving me moral support--AND--we have sunshine with minus 10C-----  not too bad!--And I tracked Son#2 , who began his long journey back from Korea. He said it was snowing in Seoul Korea this AM--- I never knew Korea would get snow--.

Oh--Before I forget---  THE WEIGHT----  You aren't going tp believe this-- IT IS DOWN ---181.0 ---Holy Cow! --  Long ago and in my Sparking time, my weight was 217---  and I had SO much to learn about food and eating---  I hope my blood pressure is down also--I must get that checked--

Think positive  and positive things will happen--  and---don't  buy chocolate ice cream-and--"the whiter the bread, the sooner you're dead"----oh--and maybe rethink getting a Chihuahua--(Poor Lop[ez eh?)--Lord love a Duck!-It is lunch time--- ----  hugs to yu all--I really need yu right now~----

I sure hope the good Lord is watching over us all!

 

Small steps every day!

 I'm back--online-----  Lord love a Duck!---  It has been a couple of rough days here, with Himself! ---Things are beginning to seem a tad better however--so I'll try to get a blog online here quickly!--

My poor husband--He is living in the past--seems like about 25 yrs ago--A friend whose hubby passed on recently, was in this same state--She was here this morning visiting Himself and has helped me accept  what is going on, and gave me a lot of pointers to  deal with him---  like change the subject--and try to remember that he won't remember all of this--and--to keep a sense of humour-----  Also, son #3, the Policeman, has asked a Dr. from Himself's clinic, to come out here to-morrow morning to do some tests -- This whole situation  is so disturbing--- -I had to sleep in a different room last night as Himself  became sorta violent to me--- That in itself was very upsetting to both of us!

So, of course, I am not eating---  crying a lot--  shedding tons of tears--having difficulty accepting all of this---  Our daughter in Ohio does not believe me when I try to  tell her what is going on--Son #1, our eldest son, was  at the end of Himselfs' wrath sometime ago, so he knows what it is like--

Isn't life strange?---  Just when yu have it sorta figured out,  something crazy happens?--

Son#2, our Pilot son, who was just here, is now in Seoul, Korea--He has been very supportive----

I can't believe that I had time to get this typed up--  I have read all yer comments from the last blog-and I sure appreciate hearing from yu all! ---Any suggestions I would appreciate also!--  I wonder how many of yu know how lonely it is going thru all this?--  Praise the good Lord I have yu all! 

See the Good!

 To-day is a new day-- and------I made it thru yesterday ---with a lot of help from my friends--  "YOU"---My grown kids were out here also--even my daughter seems to be understanding to-day-- So.....what now?-The biggest problem is, accepting that this is happening--for us all--and now I have to figure out where to go to help Himself--He seems to be "in the land of the living"--more like his old self--- this morning, which is wonderful-

It is extremely cold --sunny--clear blue sky--but--frigid! Little Lopez could hardly do his business, because his wee little feet were freezing--He kept holding them up--

Yesterday was "Hair Day"---  AND I WENT---- AND--I felt so much better when I came home--I felt like a new person--just to get outta the chaos in the house--and, Himself seemed calmer when I returned home!-Maybe  when a situation is happening, it is good to remove oneself  for a bit--Who knows?

I wish I could speak with the Queen, who is going thru her own turmoil --- It must be difficult for her, but, she removed  her son that was causing it , from public events, and all of it must"ve broken her heart. Too bad there isn't a place for Moms to go  to chat away  about their difficulties--and in that place, everything would be made right ----- Lord love a Duck!--We Moms have to just figure out "Stuff" and hope for the best, don't we?

When nothing goes right--Go LEFT!

I woke up this morning to a hubby , not quite right--yet! --I think he is worse in fact-- I have a call in to his Dr., hoping he can help us --- Also son #1 has come out--- but--- not too much is working--  A Nurse from The Hospital suggested he have a Urine test--that if it's not quite right, it can throw an elderly persons mind out of whack----That would be a miracle if that cured the problem. He is living  in the past--about 25 yrs ago--=and I can't seem to pull I'm out of it. Hopefully I can pick up the bottle at the clinic Lab-- hopefully this afternoon--It is snowing like a Banshee here right now-- 

Life is busy isn't it?-- I called our daughter in Ohio, and she doesn't believe me that her Dad is like this--said I'm not being honest --It broke my heart---  

I'll keep yu posted--Any ideas???

 

Life in "the Golden" years!

 

This has been a difficult day--  Himself, who is not himself to-day  has been hard to deal with---  It's like he is living in the past--saying things that are not true--He come to bed last night at 1am--- woke me up, telling me all kinds of "stuff"----that I did not love him--  It went on and on, till 3am--Whatta night!---and he is still in that sorta mood---  He has been so good too lately--- This has happened before but these episodes are spread out---  --and mostly occur in the evening--  Is it because he is tired?--- Women really have a lot to deal with don't they--and in our "golden years"---  I wonder how many others are dealing  with  a hubby with some form of dementia--and how do they handle it? Lord love a Duck! 

Always believe in the impossible!

 I LOST MORE WEIGHT!-----That's why I love the above saying-- because, I was on Spark forever, and I had so much to learn there, that I struggled with weight loss-- I was 217 pounds--went down a bit, but , now I have lost more--182.5   ------Always believe in the impossible!-----My goal is 165---- and finally I believe it is attainable! ----  Lord love a Duck!--AND-----  if I can do it, anyone can!

So, we have VERY cold temperatures--no snow falling to-day (I hope!)---No trip to town--- Rusty , the furnace man is coming  soon--to clean the furnace. He has been coming here since he was a teenager, it seems!---He left us a year ago and went to live in the Yukon--says he is back now forever!

So , how is this weight falling off?--(I know you must be asking!)--well, shovelling snow is a big part--- having a chihuahua puppy is also  helping-- and you know, sometimes I look at a plateful of dinner, and I can't eat it all-- I used to---  so I dump it!--- and grocery shopping, I decided not to but any cakes etc --- If we want a cake, it's up to me to make it--I think that helps too--because I certainly don't have time to make too many  cakes--but-- I do make a lot of apple sauce-----AND----  I am not allowing Himself to go to McDonalds hardly at all--trying to cook more veggies--

We really are stronger than we seem--- and we all are extremely smart---- because we run a household--and we do it well-!

So, until to-morrow, I must smile-- turn up the music--- dance a tad-- and hug  my dogs--oh--and Himself! 

Keep calm and purr on!

 This was Sadie, that cleaning Lady, who is really , me, this AM---  cleaning up after a few days without vacuuming--  a few days with Son #2, the Pilot , here--- --which I absolutely loved! --- He comes so seldom, but when he does, he fixes everything that both Himself and I can think of.

However, now I am hearing, "Dad how long have you had this thing?"--- as it seems so much in this house has aged---like--"US"! --And then I hear, "I'm going to throw this out and I will order you a new one from Amazon."---Why do I have the feeling that , lotza stuff in this house perhaps needs to get the ol' "Heave-Ho?"--It

It's like, "this old house"----  Anyway, his visit was the best thing that has happened to us in 3 years!

I am late posting , as it was time for fresh bananas, so that made me drive into No Frills  on very bad icey roads ---I am back home---The roads certainly were slippery !----  I had to get some money also to pay, "Stan the Man" who came on a Sunday to repair the dryer vent. What on earth would we ever do without Stan the Man?

Remember to drink the water---  walk, smile and be nice to the man you live with---oh, and hug yer dog! 

-- I just might be in the Depths of despair!

 It is minus 30C--- Horrible! --not fit for man nor beast--but---WE are having a great time with Son #2 the Pilot--who will be heading back to Toronto to-day  with Gerrard, his dog. 

Tis was Gerard this AM --He is like a "human"----likes to sit on a chair like people---

Last night we went to Son #1's place to eat dinner-- I had fresh pickerel--- so good! - All the Grandchildren were there --- That is the first time we have been out with them, in 3 years-- It was so so nice! 

Here is Himself with Son #1 and Son #4  ----

-some of the Grandchildren, who are growing-- 

So to-day I am happy--- This afternoon I will be so sad as Son #2 that Pilot guy will be heading back home--- WE shall miss him --

My Mom used to say, "It's nice to see them come, and nice to see them go"----  but--I am afraid I sink to the depths op despair when they leave--Lord love a Duck!----

Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year!

It's a weekend--- and make it the best weekend!!--  We are in the middle of a snowstorm ---a bad one!--
 

This is a view from Son #4, in his plough, looking out--He probably was up all night ploughing ! I have been out trying to keep the Chihuahua trails open, for little Lopez, but as soon as I shovel  a trail, it fills up fast--It's a hopeless situation!

We are doing pretty good tho--with 3 dogs living with us. Son#2 is still here visiting--

Here he is with Gerrard, his dog---  then we have big Beau, and wee Lopez--Lord love a duck, I hope that I don't lose my mind--let the little stuff go--(like vacuuming)---just enjoy this pilot's visit---I actually have the washing in -- lunch planned (Jamaican patties)- and I'm very happy that Son#2 is not heading back to Toronto to-day as the roads must be terrible---

Here are the2 big dogs-- a German and a blond cutie!

I saw the above and thought--YES----Write it in my heart that every day really can be the best day in the year--especially if I believe it! 

Guess who is coming to dinner?

Guess who is here?----  Son #2--the Pilot----  with Gerard----his beautiful dog--  -- So--- I shall post another blog later--- Hugs---  

Almost 5pm---  I am back---  I have a few minutes here to add something about our day-- 

First of all, it is wonderful to have Son#2, the Air Canada Pilot-- AND GERARD ---Gerard is the best dog I have ewer met----well of course  Beau is pretty good too-- 

So, poor Beau had a huge mess this AM--- in the dining room--on the rug--so, that was how I spent an hour this morning, with the rug shampoo-er-- I dunno if it was his nerves with a new dog around, or a "bug"-but--I high tailed it to the Vet and begged and pleaded for a few Diarrhea pills--antibiotics--which seems to have stopped the problem in its tracks--One cannot live without a rug shampoo-er when one owns dogs-- 

Of course we have light snow falling--which has been falling all day-- Son #2  got out the snow blower and widened the drive-- 

And that is about "IT" ----

I nearly forgot to tell yu-- --You're looking gorgeous! -----Wouldn't it be wonderful if some one told you that every day?-

 

Always believe something wonderful is about to happen!

Last evening, I took Lopez, the chihuahua ( who is a lot of work)--carried him upstairs to our bedroom and put him in his new wonderful crate--which he seems to love! He usually settles in and goes right to sleep--We have a wee heater near his crate--as our patio door is very drafty---( he does not keep his covers on )-- He sleeps till 5am--and then,  just like an alarm clock, he is awake--and out we go--with his parka on--(which is not easy to get on him)-and the temperature this AM, was minus 27.5 C--Horrible! ----- 

--  while I was doing all this , the man of the house, for some reason, took a  box of milk from the frig and dropped it--all over the kitchen--  I was upstairs , so that is what I found this AM--milk splashed everywhere! 

Anyway, Beau and I, the big German, went outside finally and shovelled  the dog pen to the basement  and poor Beau, because as we  came back in, his feet were frozen---  He had to hobble in beside me--So the cold temperatures here are really not fit for man, nor beast! 

And it's hair day, so this afternoon, I shall get outta this house and gab to some Ladies who will be there--Praise the Lord! ---  Himself will dog sit-- (which he does not enjoy!)

So, life is good! The sun is out--I made soup for lunch-- No snow is falling-- We are not sick----and I am trying to count our blessings-- I hope your day goes well--I had a lovely letter from Sister Mary, a great Lady who many years ago, house- sat when we left Son #2 the Pilot here, when he was in grade 13---and they got along well!-(WE were visiting my Mom and Dad in Florida)- 

I shall think good thoughts to-day--

 

Home Shopping service not allowed for a senior in this house!

Sometimes I do forget---We ALL are special!!

Most days,  I get caught up in the "business" of life!  Yesterday was one of those days-- the trip to the grocery--It is scary-- Will I come home with Covid?---  --So far, so good!  

I bet the Queen doesn't have to grocery shop! 

---I did go to the store that is nicer--  more expensive nicer--but--(Isn't there always a "BUTT"?)--I always feel  safer, safe from the Covid,  there. They ring you thru in a hurry--no standing in line---They don't punch other people thru, to unload their groceries  immediately after they ring me thru---  and their produce is a bit fresher and nicer.

Our city has a "grocery service"--They say for seniors--(who ever that is)-

-When this Pandemic began, many moons ago-- I called and asked about this service. Could I get it?--  I was terrified at that time to venture out of our house!  -

- The Lady on the phone  (who I knew by the way) -- was not nice--  said that I did not qualify---  I immediately told her my age  which made me a senior---  

"But", she said, "you have children in town who can help yu!"-----Like-----  "They all have jobs--their own life--and they definitely will not shop for me unless I was on my death bed"-----I told her! -

-"Well, it doesn't matter", she replied, "There are many more seniors who need this service much more than you!"---  (And why should it not be good for me?)

So, I bought masks--  bought hand sanitizer by the gallon, and ventured out to shop, knowing that if I got the virus, I would bring it home to my 93 yr old husband, who would never survive it!----Crazy!---  I always believed that if a service is offered for one person, it should be offered  for all! ---
 

And, I am still alive---  mainly because of a lot of luck, and because I follow the rules to avoid Covid-- 

It is SO so important to be strong--- ----and  thank the good Lord that I am--so far! 

Lord love a Duck tho-- I think this Lady's rules  are meant to be broken--  On my head, came my Mom's voice!

"What is good for the goose, should be good for the gander--"---  We really are  all in this together!--Oh well! ----

We are so fortunate to be alive!

 I was standing on the bridge, at the boat launch, looking down over the river which flows out of the lake here. It was minus 26C this AM, when I was over there-- The garbage dumpsters are over there , so I was dumping garbage-- and-----then I drove into town to go to Foodland--The car was still pretty cold and stiff , even when I arrived at the store. 

Up here in the North, even tho our vehicle is in our garage, we plug our cars in-- Cars here come with a plug attached to something in the motor to keep the engine warm.---I don't know how many times  when the kids were small, that I'd jump in the car and drive way, with a plug dragging behind mNow I put a big sign on the steering wheel, "Unplug Car"----

So, I am late blogging---    But--I have sufficient food in the house, as we are expecting snow to fall, this evening and all day to-morrow. I will be able to stay at home-- and shovel--

I feel like I need to be a wee bit  silly--dance--act up--whack away on the piano--break open a beer--just to break the everyday monotony ---  I think  the Pandemic is beginning to get to me-----Sometimes a "wee bit of Crazy" is good for one! 

Sushi--the cat who came in from the cold--well, a look-alike Sushi--

So, I'm back there to the bridge again--   --I like the above--Relax---Breathe-- and be patient!   Life is so precious!  Lord love a Duck!----  We are so fortunate to be alive! 

Always sparkle!

This is winter in the Canadian North--Look at all the little feet! --Everyone takes off their boots and they are left at the door----So, It is a tad warmer to-day--minus 16C or something ---- mild enough that little Lopez, the little Chihuahua  can walk a bit with me on the back road----He loves that!---  And it is supposed to go up to minus 7C or something.
 

Well, I turned on the computer this AM, and there is another email , probably letting me know of all the terrible stuff that is going to happen to me, because I never sent the Bitcoins---I don't know because I didn't open it--There are so many "crazies" around eh?--I also went thru  my friends list on Facebook, and anyone with a weird looking picture plus anyone  "male"---  I deleted---Isn't it sad what this world has come to?--Son#3, the Policeman and the Community Liaison Officer for our town, sez he gets  many many calls daily from people who get all kinds of scammers   trying to interrupt their life-- ---And, poor Willow said I had sent her an email, asking for money---  WHICH WASN"T REALLY FROM ME----  I would NEVER EVER DO THAT! --I must post that on Facebook--

Other than all that "crap"----  life is good--- We have a lot of snow--- but---it's looking like a clear day beginning here to-day--The kids have their ice hut down the lake, and son #3 even brought us a fresh  Trout , last night, all filleted--  We ate it for supper!  It wasn't even fishy--  really good!

I must keep calm---  I sure appreciated all yer advice yesterday--  and I felt better after reading it all--good friends are the best! 

Lord love a duck! --I'll talk to y'all to-morrow!

 

A really terrible awful part of computers--

 I turned on the computer , last night, as I always do, to check your responses to "the blog"--- This was just before I went to bed--  In my email, was a terrible , terrible  email--The jest of the thing, was whoever sent it, wanted a ransom--Bitcoins--sent--I wanted to vomit! 

There were a lot of things written were odd--#1. The email was an old email--which was forwarded to my present email----------------#2. The email said they had access to my computer--and if I didn't do as they said, they would send pictures of me watching Porn--

I am almost 80 yrs old--- I DO NOT DO THAT---  

So, I checked the scam lists-- and there it was--everything this email stated was written as a scam--I also called my guy who works on computers--He asked me , "Did yu respond?"--"NO", I replied--

Of course I deleted the email---  but---  I was sickened--- I wanted to turn off the computer and never turn it on again--I wanted to shut myself in my room and never look at people in case I see this  crazy person who does things like this--

I DELETED THE TERRIBLE  AWFUL EMAIL---I also reported it to  the web site it told me to, as well as to Son#3, the policeman----

I will not add any more people to my FACEBOOK PAGE--at least for now--and if anyone wants to be a friend, they will have to send me why they want to be on my Facebook--

AS yu can tell, I am sickened with all this horrible crap--Who does things like this?--

The good thing is, things this person said in the email were not true--so, it sounded pretty suspicious-- Have any of you survived stuff like this, and how did you handle it?--

I don't even want to say, "Lord love a Duck"--I am just so sickened---  

Lord love a Duck--I hope it warms up!~

But-----  it is minus 32.9C outside-- sunny and very cold! ---The kids  were going to come out and drag their ice shack off our front lawn and tow it down the lake--but---with this cold , they might change their mind.

When they get it onto the lake, they light a fire in it for warmth-(There is a stove in it)--and cut a hole in the ice, and fish-----It is usually quite warm even outside the shack when the sun is out--- There are already several shacks on the ice already.--I would never ever want to do that--sit on an icey lake and fish-----

- Wc went to town yesterday-- "Town" is only about 9 miles south of us! ------I really wanted to head in there to-day but ---  there is so much Covid in town and around the area that it's probably best to stay home for now--  Even our hospital has covid cases with the staff-

So, for now, I'll get offa here-- Lord love a Duck! I hope it warms up-

 

If we ever return to earth in one's afterlife , just think of how smart we will be!

Total relaxation---big Beau--- after supper--Doncha jess wish we could relax like this?--

Well. it is a good day to have a good day--- sunny and minus 30.4C--- and--I read all your comments yesterday on my perfectly terrible awful day, and it sounded like I am not alone  with my life----like--living with a retired person who does not enjoy being at home --who wants to go back to work-- I shall look for  a huge puzzle for him--lay it out on the dining table and see if we can both put it together "when the spirit moves us"-----(Mom's expression again!)---also some Lego  pieces that maybe he might build---

Just to hear that other people are having the same problem as I am, really helped me--Sometimes it's hard to share my troubles, so I really appreciated all your replies! 

To-day is a new day--and after getting my hair done yesterday and both Lopez and Himself survived my trip to town, I noticed when I got home again, that Himself was in a better frame of mind too-

I took Lopez for a couple of walks on the back road yesterday also-- To-day is much too cold for that, but he enjoyed the walking, and now that he is about 8 or 9 pounds, he really strutted right along--

Lord One A Duck! There is so much to learn in one's life isn't there?--It really is mind boggling-- But--You know, if we ever do come back as someone else, in the "afterlife"--just think of how smart we all will be?

 

-and you sir are very attractive----

And when yu eat after 8pm, it's like "Oh well, There is a long time till to-morrow morning"---but--(the big "butt" again)- the scales never lie--The scales to-day were 185---and they should be closer to 180---- 

It was not a good evening yesterday. Himself decided that he has "had it" living with Lopez--and asked that I give him away-- and of course that is not going to happen. And I know that if I ever did give Lopez away, himself would be the first to admit that he missed him--Now what on earth was his reasoning?-- are you ready  for this?-- He says he is 93  and just wants to sit and do nothing, which he does anyway.

Lord love a Duck! I asked him if he wants me to put his name at the nursing home. I'm sure there is a waiting list.---And then I proceeded to tell him how fortunate he is to not have a disease of any kind, at his age--He is perfectly healthy. And he said-- "I am 93 and I am going to die soon--maybe even to-morrow."--So, I believe that is what is really on his mind----the fear of death--- It is sad really--a highly intelligent man, who spent his whole life Doctoring other people--no hobbies --  I guess yu might say that his hobbies were his family and his children--

So, he seems to have snapped out of his "mood"  this AM-----The Pandemic certainly has not helped  us all-- staying at home-- not eating out--no vacation--  no daughter visiting from Ohio-- and a wife who does everything  herself , so there is not extra hours to sit together and when we do, I fall asleep as I am so exhausted ---

I wonder if we are unique in this situation?--  I kinda don't think so--Maybe I should tell him that he still is the handsomest fella that I know and I still love him to the moon and back--YU think?

Put me on a Plane , fly me to ANYWHERE~!

 In the depths of winter, there is "summer" somewhere- This is a photo of Alamowana Beach, in Honolulu--Son #2 was just there-- It is nice to know that some where in this world, there is no cold!~ 

Wouldn't it be so dream-y to  fly  to Hawaii?

So, I asked Himself yesterday, "Do you like your new pillows?"--and he replied, "Yes, they hold my head more upright!"--And he even went on to say, "That one pillow I had was really bad-- very flat!"---

Now why on earth did he kick up such a ruckus when I ordered them?-- Women quite often have to just "take the bull by the horns",  (That is my Mom talking!)- and do what they feel is right.---  Of course I had to order these 4 pillows online, and they took forever to get here.

So, Lopez is doing OK---  He slept in his larger, new crate last night, beside our bed (on my side)- with a small heater on low, in our room, and he did not cry-We actually got some sleep.----And he slept till 6am--

And that is about all to talk to you about to-day---I must get out to shovel--more snow falling ---  It is never ending---

Lord love a Duck---  WE are beginning to feel like these men-----

I am completely bushed!

-but--to-day---  the reason I am late blogging-- is because I have decided it is time to let little Lopez have the run of the main level--the kitchen--the dining room  and the living room --The problem however is big Beau lives with us, and Lopez continuously pesters Beau--and--- I am afraid that one bite from Beau , and we will end up at the vet-so--I sit with my spray bottle--and every time Lopez   jumps on Beau, I spray Lopez!.---  Lord love a Duck! --Any ideas from any of you will be very much appreciated!---

You see, Lopez screeched in his crate last night, which was beside my bed, from 9pm got 12-30pm--Now I bet there are a lot of you out there saying, "GET RID OF LOPEZ"-- I finally got REALLY angry with him--told him to go to sleep--  and he did! I believe he was exhausted! ---Son #2 the Air Canada Pilot thought that he maybe was cold----so, tonite, I shall keep a heater on very low--  It was minus 26C ---  and our room is drafty--I think he needs more exercise-which is pretty hard to give him, living in the kitchen only--thus the reason to increase his inside space.

Who would ever think that such a wee dog could cause so much chaos--??-- 

I hope that someone of you will tell me if I am right --handling this dog the right way--or not--I am bushed----and I think "Chihuahuas and angels are very far apart"