Thursday, April 27, 2023

Sitting here and Dreaming--


- You gotta love a  new day--and so far, "it's all quiet on the western front"-(--someone once said that)--I dunno who--- but--it does sound like something a cowboy might've said ---  Remember those cowboys?-

-I like the above picture--- The man in the picture does look so relaxed--just thinking about life I guess--maybe even  the cowboys--LOLOL---  ----  Do you remember "Hop-along Cassidy"?-- -I don't know why, but I always liked him---- (Who names their kid, "Hop-along" anyway?--)-

Then, there was Gene Autry-- Dale Evans----Roy Rogers---Tonto--- and they all had horses--There were no cars in those TV shows---The star of the show always had white horses and the bad guys had black horses--and there  was a girl- I used to love these shows---

 There was "Our Miss Brooks"--not a cowboy show, but one of the 30 minute shows that we were addicted to--Can you remember some of the others? 

Well, it was not the best night last evening, as Lopez does not like Himself's cane---  snarls at it---even  barks at it , causing Himself to get angry --and then, it seems "All hell breaks loose"-It never used to be like this--- I remember  himself as the most patient, kindest person in the whole wide world-

Now where did that man go?--

- It is "Hair Day" for me-- no colour-so, I will bring Lopez with me---


A Doctor will be here in May  to assess Himself--see if we could be doing something for him , to help him get over the frustration and the anger-- We shall see if it really works out-- Usually it gets planned--then cancelled--and we just go on and on-with the man who I married not that person anymore---

-To-morrow morning I take Himself to an Ear nose and throat specialist at the hospital as Himself cannot stop coughing--since he had Covid last June-It somehow affected his throat--another problem that has developed-


-I dream that one day life will return to normal again--that Himself will once again be that caring person --but--- Probably  I just might have to search deeper -- look for him in different ways--  

So, life eh?--I guess one just goes with the flow--Do the best that you can-I certainly appreciate all of you-- all of your kind words---you do kinda stand me up, and keep me going--

--I must just get up and face the day--and maybe Himself, my Prince Charming,  will return--Maybe he is out there stuck in a tree or something---

-- now wouldn't it just be the best, if the guy he used to be , returned?---if there was a medicine--or a magic wand----One must always dream!---Perhaps one day we will not age-- --Deep thoughts ---

-Lord love a Duck!--  Ya jess never know --does one?---- It sure would be a dream come true!--- 





32 comments:

  1. I hope things go well tomorrow for Himself at the ENT doctor's. This "after having had Covid" thing is so tricksy, and you add that we are none of us aging in reverse... fingers crossed for us all.

    I'm trying to coordinate a joint dog park visit with Carl's other grandparents. I haven't told Carl yet, hoping he is pleasantly surprised. He did well with my sister's visit yesterday. I figure the more "good" experiences he has this week, the less he'll miss his "paw-rents".

    Have a wonderful day, Lynda... may it be gentle on us all.

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    1. Wow! Yu are a good Gramma to Carl--re-introducing him to his relatives-- Did he remember them?-- Hugs Barb, Lynda

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    2. Oh, yes, he saw them last Friday at the Wedding, and again on Saturday at the reception. He sees them regularly throughout the year, so he was super happy to see them today, too.

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  2. So sorry to hear that you had a rough day yesterday. I know how discouraged you must be.....it is so hard to be positive and upbeat when a person you love is so hard to live with. I hope you have a much better day! I know you won't give up! Play your piano and give yourself some time to be calm like the man on the dock in your picture......take deep breaths and remember to take each day as a gift and keep moving forward!

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    1. Hi Sandra --just getting out this afternoon made such a difference in my outlook on life-- and himself coped quite well- They were all alive and happy when I returned home--Lynda

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  3. Hi Lynda: wasn’t there something about increasing his medication before that was supposed to help? Maybe that will make things better for a while. I don’t know a lot about it but I know getting mad with a cane in your hand can be dangerous. It’s natural that Lopez would get upset about it when he’s already had runins with it. Glad you’re taking him with you today. Here’s hoping the doctor is coming early in may. Take care Brenda.

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    1. When the DR (specialist) gets here on the 18th, I shall ask if maybe Himself might do better on a medication---Poor wee Lopez sure does not like his cane--Lynda

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  4. Oh dear. My prince charming was destined to be single his entire life and then we met. His family couldn't believe it. He was and always will be my one true love. And friends tell me how much I meant to him (which is so soothing to know). But the thing was... we were probably never meant to be except that we met online. He was here in Adelaide, Sth Australia and I was in Saginaw, Michigan. I had to use my tax refund to travel over to meet him. We planned my visit to be as long as possible and then at the end I had to leave or else I'd be an over-stayer and never get the chance to live here permanently. But here I am some 27 or so years later. He couldn't have been anyone elses Prince Charming as he was cranky and opinionated, but never with me (save for one or two minor spats over the years). I just wish he could have stayed with me longer. And I know you know that feeling. I hope someday that kind man you married looks you in the eye and holds your hand. That may be all he's able to do, but you'll know then, he's in there somewhere. ❤️ Love you Lynda. Be sure you take care of yourself too.

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    1. awww thank yu--- one day eh, I will see that guy again!--- Your Prince Charming -- how you met---all so exciting--Thank yu for your kind words-I appreciate it--Lynda

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  5. Lynda, my heart goes out to you…you are living in a very stressful situation but there is really nothing to do but go with the flow, as you have said! I truly hope the doc shows up in May and can add a med to help Himself be more centered and less angry. Good luck with the ENT appointment! ❤️ Eissa7

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    1. Yes, each day passes--some are good--some are terrible-- I do miss his love however--I hesitate to give him meds as I feel I'll lose more of him-- but-- I'll have to see-listen gto that Dr-- Hopefully he gets here this time-- Lynda

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  6. I loved all those shows. Anything with a horse or a dog and I was there! Sorry about himself. It must be frustrating to watch him be different than he's been all his life! All Quiet on the Western Front is a book written by a German author after World War I. Apparently Netflix has made it into a movie as well. It's a gloomy day here today. I should try to take a walk with Daisy but I so don't feel like it! Have a good day.

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    1. Oh, it's Kathy by the way.

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    2. Gloomy here to-day also--- and quite cold---I never knew that was a book--Lynda

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  7. PHOENIX1949

    I still have my Roy Rogers' watch and one of my sisters has her Dale Evans' watch. I think we got these with Sugar Crisp cereal coupons plus a little cash. Remember Nellybell, the jeep, from their shows?

    Himself's condition is very concerning as I watched my calm, kind, quiet father's dementia progress to shoving me hard several times while cursing at me with language that would make a sailor blush. As children we were not allowed to even say darn and never heard a harsh or curse word from either parent. I caught him kicking our dog a few times at family gatherings at our home followed by making nonsense excuses when he knew I saw this, i.e., the dog ran into his foot. Please take care of yourself and keep your family and medical personnel aware of things.

    Last week's household news very rough here in Central Texas:
    Monday 80% chance of a cancerous mass for husband, 73, per MRI--biopsy surgery next week.
    Wednesday 50+% chance of cancerous adrenal tumor for our older dog--given her age, 14 or 15 years, we will love on her as long as she is active and appears to not be in pain
    Friday 100% bladder cancer diagnosis for me, 74. CT scan did not show visible issues in rest of abdomen--surgery soon with biopsies to identify stage and whether invasion of bladder wall.

    Hesitated to post above, but this is the reason I'll likely not be reading the few former SparkPeople's blogs that I follow for a while.

    Chaotic times here that will get more chaotic real soon. I never liked roller coasters and this is one no one ever wants to board.

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    1. Yu have way too much going on--You are going go have to be strong--Your father's Dementia just got worse and worse I suppose--- now your husband ---your dog and now you----That is way too much for one person to take-- I shall pray-- Please lean on us here-- me for sure-- because life for you now is not easy--Lordy Be!--- I have no problems compared to yours--but------you know, it was so good to see your name --good memories-- Big hugs-Lynda

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  8. "we just go on and on-with the man who I married not that person anymore---" It's know as The Long Good-bye. It's devastating!!

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    1. But that long good Bye is difficult-- strength--- talking things over--All helps- Lynda

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  9. Erich Maria Remarque wrote a novel called All Quiet on the Western Front. Great novel. Required reading when I was in High School!

    Oh my gosh, I remember watching Roy Rogers and Dale Evans every week. And Our Miss Brooks. Eve Arden . . . she was fantastic. Of course, I Love Lucy, My 3 Sons, Bonanza . . . could go on and on. And didn’t actually watch that much TV! Too busy playing outside.

    So sorry that the cane is still a source of angst for poor Lopez and that in turn riles Himself up. **SIGH**

    Glad you can bring Lopez w/you for hair day today. I am sure he will appreciate that.

    Good luck @ the ENT clinic w/Himself. Hope they can get to the source of the cough.

    Aging is not for sissies. That’s for sure.

    Just a word to PHOENIX: Hugs and prayers. So sorry you’re going through Sooooo much.

    My dear Lynda, Speded2 (Jeanne) summed it up . . . that’s why it’s called the long goodbye. These darned changes go on and on, bit by bit. It’s hard, but you know you have all of us to lean on.

    ((HUGS))

    Barb
    1crazydog

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    1. and I do lean on yu--=-I just by talking to you all I learn a lot from yu ---and i find that what I go thru is nothing compared to others-- Lynda

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  10. I wish things were better at home for you. . .hopefully your break with Lopez at the hairdresser's will help. Is the doctor coming early in May? Good Luck with the ENT tomorrow. We have an appointment with a pulmonologist on Monday . . .DH has waited 6 weeks to see them since his bout with pneumonia in March. Crazy having to wait so long.
    Weather here in NH has been rainy and hopefully we won't see any more snow . . . I am going to plant my peas and broccoli tomorrow as it is supposed to be nice and sunny. Lots of outside things to do.

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    1. Where is the comment?--LOL--Lynda

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  13. I wanted to add that about the western front. I told the system to delete comment. Then I was to Paste it in and add the information. It didn't work! Sorry.

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    1. awwwww--and I love your very thoughtful life experiences----Now why are they removed??--Lynda

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    2. Oh no--no comment-- How are you to-day anyway?-Lynda

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  14. So many rough experiences to read about on here. That dementia really is a “demen” alright! So people have been accidentally killed because of what it does, sad stuff! Makes one wonder about what kind of thing invented our world and how many mistakes were made. Sigh. Take care of yourself.

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    1. Yu know--- yu are so right--How come there is so much of this Dementia? I suppose it was always around--but without a name-- too bad they just can't come and blow those brain cells--clean them out--Lynda

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  15. I remember those Western shows. Simllier times.
    I'm so sorry DH and Lopez continue to have a thing with the cane. Luving with someone with dementia us challenging. I hope the Dr. Shows up and has some help to offer. I understand what you are saying. This person is not the person you've lived and lived with all these years. Hugs dear Lynda.
    Enjoy your hair day escape.
    Hang in
    Play your piano
    Hugs

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    1. oh Margene --It really was wonderful to get outto the Hair Lady--and talk to other people -- Thank yu for your comments-- I so appreciate hearing from yu-Lynda

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  16. Just wanted to send my love to PHOENIX1949 - Having been down two of those roads (myself with cancer many years ago and my husband's lung cancer), I can well imagine how chaotic it's going to be with two people and one beloved dog with cancers. Please be sure to share when you can so we can help lighten your load by listening and sending our best for you. As Lynda says - Be Strong.

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