Thank yu for all your very helpful suggestions yesterday , on my very "feeling sorry for myself"--day-
None of you told me to just "suck it up", and I really do appreciate you holding me together--Lord love a Duck! I am learning--"to allow Himself's comments to go in one ear and out the other"-
----but--- on days when you are VERY tired--- it seems to go in one ear--and stay in the brain--and I do begin to wonder if I am that terrible person that he sometimes thinks I am-- stupid eh?---
So---- in case yu are wondering---HIMSELF IS JUST "HUNKY DORY" this morning--- (Dad used to say that)--- unbelievable eh?---Lord love a Duck!---But, I must go the school of "hard knocks"---- work at getting a thick shell on my heart--and my head---(It is not my nature tho to be that way)--
-but--- I guess in "the old-er age" of life, one must develop this outer thick skin-----Heck---- my whole body now looks different than when I was young and spiffy--so, a thick skin all over me now, might just add to a new appearance--One must accept this appearance when one is over 80 ---From this------
Life goes on--- no matter what--- and I must adapt-- "WE MUST ADAPT"---Lopez and Beau have been out--We have sun and cooler temperatures--- Yu know, I haven't been able to hug my other half to-day-- Getting old is difficult---- for everyone you know---Good thing that we are "tough cookies!
Good morning, Lynda! You are a very tough cookie and it is OK to feel sorry for yourself during difficult times. It doesn't make you anything less than a very strong, amazing woman and don't EVER forget that! Enjoy your weekend! Hugs from Ohio!
ReplyDeleteThank yu for your hugs from OHIO--and Ohio is where the "best" people live--*S*-Lynda
DeleteAhh! You’re so kind.
DeleteHappy to hear that today is better! You are strong, but we all have days when we feel sorry for ourselves! As I read through the comments from your blog yesterday, I thought that one suggestion was really good - a "crisis" meeting with your kids to explore options....maybe then your kids would have a better understanding of what you are going through - the good days and the bad days and how sometimes it is such a tremendous struggle for you!
ReplyDeleteYes, many days I feel very sorry Sandra for myself-I avetried to gether the kids--They do not want to talk about this--sad eh?--Lynda
DeleteYou really need to record an episode if you expect the kids to understand. You know they believe you but it is hard to comprehend without an example. Even if you just hit record on your phone and not necessarily film him he wouldn't realize what you are doing. Maybe.
ReplyDeleteHang in there - you are an excellent example of how to grow old gracefully despite the hurdles in the way. D.
Wow! -=Ever good of yu to say I am an example--I find it so difficult to not hurl insults back at him--such a terrible thing to go thru-- Lynda
DeletePleased to hear today is better. As Sandra above stated , perhaps a factual, truthful meeting with the kids and letting them know what you NEED. Several sons are close. Take advantage of that. Taking dad for a ride to McDonald's is likely just the reset himself needs. I know kids work but you have grands that drive and daughter in laws. These flare ups are difficult for your mental health and your own health. Does DH have any friends from his practice who'd
ReplyDeleteenjoy coming by for a brief Visit?
No easy answers.
Hang in, hang on.
Hugs
Doctors are so busy these days, I don't think they would come out here-- Son#3 did appear this afternoon-- Fred was pretty cranky this evening---I drove him to McDonalds thinking it might make him happy-- --LOL--NO_--- It didnt work--Lynda-
DeleteIt's Kathy. I'm so glad "himself" is himself again today. The brain sure works in funny ways, doesn't it! You have absolutely every right to feel bad sometimes - life is challenging to say the least. I said to my husband today that maybe I have to completely stop watching the news - even the weather reports are disappointing. My mom used to say she was having her own special "pity party". I have those myself some days when life seems overwhelming to me. You keep picking up the pieces and moving on. You are truly an inspiration to me! Have a good day - and I'm glad you can sit and play the piano to help relax you. It probably helps himself too!
ReplyDeletewell. picking up the pieces---seems difficult when it comes to Himself-- I think because I just cannot believe that he is the way he is--maybe I don't want to believe it--Lynda
DeleteSo often folks in Himself's situation are better in the morning and decline after sunset... glad he got another fresh day's start... and that you did too. ((( hugs )))
ReplyDeleteBarb--yu are so right-- He was good all day--not so good after supper-- cranky--Lynda
DeleteI am glad Himself is good today. Hope it continues as the day wears on.
ReplyDeleteI guess we need to remember when life gets hard, that IT WILL get better again. Someone will come, a pet will understand and support us, we'll get a call from a friend or family member, the sun will come out, we eat something we love, hear (or play) a favorite song...you know what I mean. It always gets better...and try not to think of the opposite.
It's sunny here and 69F. Storms are due on and off later. As the afternoon wears on...heat and then rain.
A friend texted she wanted to pick me up to go to our local Farmer's Market. I didn't see the test until 10 minutes before the market closed. Hopefully, next Saturday.
Love you all and pray for you! {{{HUGS}}}
aww too bad yu didnt get to that market eh?----and--yes,, I do know that everyday is not the same with Himself--He was gopd all day --but--evening--not so good--LOL--Oh well--- in one ear--out the other--LOL-Lynda
DeleteDoes he take a nap early afternoon? Maybe if he was a little more rested in the evening, he'd be better?
DeleteHi Lynda: Glad things are better today. All you can hope is that there are alot more good days than bad days. And you know himself will not remember it. Still a good idea to at least record an instance on your phone so you have it for your kids to listen to. It's good that you at least have us to talk to. I hope alzheimers society finds some more time mid day to spend with himself. You need to fight to get help with them for your own sanity! At least you understand that himself doesn't mean what he says. Keep remembering that for your peace of mind. Relax and play the piano and remember we're always here. Have a good evening. Brenda
ReplyDeleteBrenda thank yu--- so very much--Lynda
DeleteMy dear, you are not in any way a terrible person. Not even remotely. And it’s hard to ‘unhear’ what has been uttered, so hard to let it just roll off. It takes a tremendous amt. of patience and practice. For sure being tired makes it VERY hard to appropriate process such things.
ReplyDeleteVERY glad to hear that Himself is good this morning. Honestly, I cannot imagine you ever growing a hard sheel on your heart and/or head. Definitely, doesn’t seem like it’s in your nature.
That last meme says it all. (((HUGS)))
Barb
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Barb--- Thank yu--When I hear it day in and a out, from Himself, and it does make one wonder-Lynda
DeleteGlad this was a good for you. Your heart is fine Lynda. It is normal to be hurt, even tho you know it isn't "him" speaking the garbage.
ReplyDeletePraying for strength.